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13 November 2006 @ 11:48 pm
Supernatural Gen Drabbles: Lines In The Sand  
Title: Lines In The Sand
Author: HalfshellVenus
Characters: Sam, Dean, John (Gen)
Rating: PG
Summary: 3x100 drabbles on “Anger” for supernatural100

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Dreaming Independence
“We just got here, Dean! How can we possibly be leaving already!”

“Dad’s got a lead on something major, but it’s five states from here. We have to get on it right away.”

“He can go by himself,” Sam says stubbornly. “There’s no reason to pick up and move every time he thinks this is it.”

“Who would take care of us if he did, Sammy? We’re a family.”

“You’re fifteen, you can take care of us.”

But Dad wouldn’t allow it. He doesn’t compromise.

“Better start packing.”

Sam folds his clothes angrily. Someday he’ll live the way he wants.



Lines In The Sand
It’s been a long time coming, this choice to strike out on his own.

Sam’s sick of transience, of danger. Of death. Sick of looking Evil in the face again and again.

He wants more from life— he wants a future that’s more than killing until the day you don’t get up.

He’s worked hard, made his plans in secret. The news of a scholarship to Stanford is an undreamed-of victory—he’s so elated he can barely hold it in.

But John’s not happy—he’s angry. He forbids it.

And Sam’s done caring about John’s opinion before the echo fades.



The Hollow Divide
He showed Dean everything—every heartbreak and uncertainty—and it didn’t matter. Dean watched him cry and let the moment pass—left him hanging there vulnerable and broken.

Losing Dean hurts almost as much as losing Dad. Because that’s what happened—Dean closed his heart off and disappeared inside himself.

Around the corner of the building, the sound of shattering glass stills the air. Crashing, slamming, metal-on-metal destruction, Sam hears everything Dean won’t tell him, hears anger exploding out of grief.

Does Dean hate him, is that why he’s so distant?

Sam’s alone with his sorrow. His Dean is gone.


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aeroport_artaeroport_art on November 14th, 2006 08:26 am (UTC)
The Hollow Divide, oh, it tugs at my heartstrings. I was wondering why Sammy didn't rush outside! It was because he was angsting ;__;
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 14th, 2006 06:08 pm (UTC)
Poor Sam. Dean had already told him no, and made it clear that he wasn't going to give into being comforted by Sam. :(

All Sam can really do is hurt there-- Dean's beyond his helping and he's more dangerous now than anything.

plutogirl10 on November 14th, 2006 10:06 am (UTC)
His Dean is gone.

*sobs* Why? Why must they hurt so? Oh, that's right; cause they're so pretty doing it.

These are beautiful, hon. A lovely progression of Sam's character ; )
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 14th, 2006 06:13 pm (UTC)
*sobs* Why? Why must they hurt so?
Kripke must have some reason for it-- maybe exactly as you say, that he knows they're pretty when they cry.

Poor Sam-- no one's really listening to him, even now.
Entendre? Make mine a double.: SN Dean raised eyebrowsdeirdre_c on November 14th, 2006 12:50 pm (UTC)
Oh my goodness. They're all nice, but The Hollow Divide is fabulous! The idea of Sam listening to Dean smash the Impala. *wibble*

Thanks for sharing, m'dear!
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 14th, 2006 06:14 pm (UTC)
Oh, you know Sam had to have heard something then, and I think he was all too aware of what Dean was doing (and that Dean had pushed him away very clearly). :(

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The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 14th, 2006 06:15 pm (UTC)
:) Thank you, Dawnie! It's a long procession of being disregarded for Sam, isn't it? Until finally Dean's the one that's doing it. :(
The Grammarian about whom your mother warned you.acostilow on November 14th, 2006 05:02 pm (UTC)
Owie.

I hurt now.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 14th, 2006 06:16 pm (UTC)
Sorry! Sam made me do it. He was pissed off at Dean for being such a jerk in that last one. :(
cascadepd: Supernatural --BY ME!!cascadepd on November 14th, 2006 05:28 pm (UTC)
"Sam hears everything Dean won’t tell him"

Ah, that is a wonderfully written line...perfectly phrased.

LOVED!
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 14th, 2006 06:17 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much!

Dean is more transparent than he thinks sometimes, and denying it doesn't begin to mean it isn't happening. :(
Blonde on the insidestormcloude on November 14th, 2006 07:14 pm (UTC)
Oh, that last one-- just guh. Lovely broken boys.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 14th, 2006 09:50 pm (UTC)
Thank you, stormcloude. :)

Losing arguments with John, losing John's approval... I think Sam saw that coming for a very long time.

But losing Dean, whom he'd always counted on... there's no way to prepare for that, or to cope with it-- especially when Sam needs him more than ever. :(
cindy: spn - ouija handstsuki_no_bara on November 14th, 2006 07:27 pm (UTC)
oh, ow. i really like the progression, and the fact that the first two are john related and sam's angry at his dad, but the last one is dean related and sam's worried. like all three bits have anger in them, but it's not all his anger.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 14th, 2006 10:38 pm (UTC)
It thought it would be nice to make these all from Sam's POV, since they all effect him hugely. And you're right-- in the middle one it mostly isn't Sam's anger (until the end), and in the last one it's entirely Dean (and how terrible it is, too).
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The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 14th, 2006 10:38 pm (UTC)
:) Thank you, rinkle!
bluesister on November 14th, 2006 10:13 pm (UTC)
Ah, Sam and anger are a good fit, huh? And the acceptance letter fallout.

I especially like the way the anger and sorrow mesh in the 3rd one.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 14th, 2006 10:45 pm (UTC)
Ah, Sam and anger are a good fit, huh? And the acceptance letter fallout.
And yet John is the angriest of the three I think. Dean is usually pretty mellow, but when he isn't... get out of the way.

I especially like the way the anger and sorrow mesh in the 3rd one.
It's Sam's frustration and Dean's anger, but the sorrow is the part that's harder to see in that scene, unless you remember what Sam has to have overheard. :( Very powerful, jolting scene.
mooyoo: Dean/Sam - Lovemooyoo on November 14th, 2006 11:18 pm (UTC)
The last one really hits you where it hurts. You know Sam had to have heard the smashing going on and been freaked out by it, and with Dean not really speaking to him it's just impossible for him to express any of his own grief.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 16th, 2006 09:05 pm (UTC)
You know Sam had to have heard the smashing going on and been freaked out by it
Even if he didn't know it was the Impala, he would have heard the explosive rage in what Dean was doing. , and with Dean not really speaking to him it's just impossible for him to express any of his own grief. And how can Sam be sure what exactly Dean is angry _at_? Most of Dean's surface behavior just then said he was angry at Sam. :(
Sar: hey godsargraf on November 15th, 2006 04:23 pm (UTC)
Beautiful work! :) The Hollow Divide was haunting, but I particularly loved Lines In The Sand, and this line: And Sam’s done caring about John’s opinion before the echo fades. That imagery, of Sam closing himself off as John's echo is still in the air, desperately trying to reach him and protect him, is really powerful.

*sigh* They all close themselves off somehow, don't they? And close each other out by the force of their own choices. Winchesters break our hearts, plain and simple.

Lovely drabbles. Thank you for sharing! *hugs*
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 16th, 2006 09:09 pm (UTC)
That imagery, of Sam closing himself off as John's echo is still in the air, desperately trying to reach him and protect him, is really powerful.
I'm so glad someone noticed that line! I know what it's like to live with an overly critical parent (as John seemed to Sam), and what it's like to finally have to give up on them. :( John being who he is, he'd never explain the reasonable worries he has about Sam's choices.

They all close themselves off somehow, don't they? And close each other out by the force of their own choices.
It's just agonizing. :( It's part of why I wish they gave more affection through touch, because they do very little of it verbally, and most of their verbal efforts are just... bad. Clunky. Awkward, or twisted with anger and bad excuses. Who exactly is going to listen to that?

Glad you liked these! I have an overdue visit to your last ManLove thingy... :)
I'm for wine and the embrace of questionable women: guysmissyjack on November 15th, 2006 11:43 pm (UTC)
Wonderful, aprticularly The Hollow Divide love the line

Sam hears everything Dean won’t tell him

*hugs you and the boys*
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 16th, 2006 09:11 pm (UTC)
Thank you, missyjack! Oh, the urge to kick Dean in that scene where he was letting Sam fall apart in front of him and did nothing, made it all worse, only to let out that burst of anger instead. Grrrr.

Lovely icon. Any non-angry touching is good with these two, adn we have to live on the scraps of it...
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The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 16th, 2006 09:13 pm (UTC)
Oh, that whole canon scene for "The Hollow Divide" ached. I was not very happy with Dean's choices there, though the destruction at the end was really powerful. Still... there was a time when he would have done anything to keep Sam from feeling the way he did there. :(
Pix: Sam and Dean by carpixel_0 on November 16th, 2006 05:32 pm (UTC)
I like the different forms of anger you had, going through the Winchesters. The first two are very bitter and hostile, while the last one is sad and painful. The last one has to be my favorite, merely because I still would like to know if Sam heard Dean and what he thought. I think that, on some level, he would have believed "his Dean" is gone. After all, this is the same guy who loved and cherished his Impala and is now smashing it to pieces.

Once again, hun, no one does drabbles quite like you. :)
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 16th, 2006 09:16 pm (UTC)
Oh, this was fun to write-- capturing different types of anger, different circumstances for it. The first two are very quiet, but as we've seen on the show, that anger had real staying power. :(

The last is the missing half of that scene in ELaC. Sam must have heard what Dean was doing, and on the heels of his rejection, who else could he think Dean's anger was for? :(