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20 September 2006 @ 02:53 pm
Prison Break Slash Fanfiction: Someone Else's  
Title: Someone Else’s
Author: HalfshellVenus
Characters: Lincoln/Michael (Slash)
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Sometimes he feels like his whole life with Lincoln has been spent waiting.
SPOILERS: Season 2, episodes 1-3.
Author’s Notes: Written for summercon (Michael/anybody) and for fanfic100 where I have the Slash pairing of Lincoln/Michael (for prompt #42, “Triangle). This is also the expansion of the long-ago “Stories I Never Wrote You” prompt and ficlet of the same name.

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Sometimes Michael feels like his whole life with Lincoln has been spent waiting.

Waiting for Lincoln to come home in high school (and worrying when he didn’t). Waiting for Lincoln to straighten up and sober up, and live toward a goal instead of the weak promise of the next twenty-four hours.

Waiting for everyone else standing between him and Lincoln to just clear out of the fucking way so he could have more than two minutes where his brother belongs only to him.

There has been a steady, life-long parade of something or someone always dragging Lincoln’s attention away. Girls, booze, girls, drugs, girls, prison, girls, girls. It’s a three-cornered relationship where something else is always winning. For awhile it was LJ, and Michael felt like a jerk being jealous of a baby. But Lincoln moved out to live with Lisa and be LJ’s father, and then never came back home after he with Lisa were through. So maybe Michael’s allowed some bitterness over that, even though it’s awfully petty.

Women have been hanging all over Lincoln as long as Michael can remember, and that never made it any easier to watch. It’s so wrong he would never begin to say it, but each kiss Lincoln gave away always felt like betrayal. Every slow slide of Lincoln’s hands along some girl’s body was a torturous reminder of what Michael would never have, could never ask for… should not even want. He hates this obsession he has with Lincoln, hates that he just can’t let it go. It’s a soul-deep curse that will haunt him the rest of his life.

Veronica got in Michael’s way, over and over. She was there in High School and for some time after, and again in secret when Lincoln was living with Lisa. She just wouldn’t stay gone, and Lincoln kept on letting it happen. Michael was always this third wheel around the two of them, friends with Veronica but jealous of her too. Pretty soon there was no Lincoln-and-Michael that wasn’t really Lincoln/Veronica-and-Michael. She wormed her way into their family and pushed Michael out to the edges, and there was absolutely nothing he could do to stop it no matter how he tried.

She was headed there again near the end, Michael is convinced of it. Coming to see Lincoln on his execution day, declaring her love for him to the world when she’d lost any right to claim him.

She would have found her way into the escape plan, and taken Lincoln for herself all over again.

But she’s gone now, a victim of the conspiracy that targeted Lincoln. She must have stumbled onto something big. They’ll never know what it was.

Michael’s genuinely sorry-- she was his friend, despite both of them wanting the same thing.

But feeling bad isn’t the same as having regrets.

Lying here on the ground with Lincoln curled around him against the cold, Michael can’t help thinking he might finally have the chance that he’s always wanted.


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poisontaster on September 24th, 2006 12:55 am (UTC)
This resonated with me very strongly for Michael's character; for as much softness and kindess are in him, he's very smart, very driven and very ruthless when he has to be and I think that's often overlooked in a lot of fic about him. Michael, as I see him, does things for more than one reasons; a lot of times he'll DO the right thing, but he ALSO does it because he's aware it buys him goodwill or tolerance, etc. I really liked the way this explored that part of him.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: MichaelInBarshalfshellvenus on September 25th, 2006 10:11 pm (UTC)
he's very smart, very driven and very ruthless
Isn't he, though. Those scenes with Haywire (where Michael bullied him into going off his meds) really stick out in my mind. And then there's the whole aspect of his rescue attempt-- just thinking it up and carrying it forward when no-one else would ever have done that-- and the casualties in its wake that he tries not to think about too much.

Michael, as I see him, does things for more than one reasons; a lot of times he'll DO the right thing, but he ALSO does it because he's aware it buys him goodwill or tolerance, etc.
I agree entirely. You might even say that, sensitive as he's said to be, this is where the pragmatic side to him comes out that is almost guaranteed to be part of an engineer's personality. The analytical/find-a-solution/best-solution/take-what-you-can method of thinking and problem-solving inevitably leads to this behavior. It would be hard to imagine Michael passing up this particular opportunity...

I always enjoy hearing your thoughts on these characters-- they stretch my insights and opinions on them, and that's all to the good. :)
poisontaster on September 25th, 2006 10:15 pm (UTC)
I always enjoy hearing your thoughts on these characters-- they stretch my insights and opinions on them
I agree. Well, except substitute me for you. Er...you get what I mean, right? Anyway, I think it IS very helpful to hear how other people see a character because it's interesting for it's own sake, especially if your visions diverge greatly and I find it very helpful for articulating what *I* think about that character in a more concrete way.