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17 September 2006 @ 12:22 am
Supernatural Slash "Smell" Drabbles: Stay  
Title: Stay
Author: HalfshellVenus
Characters: Sam/Dean (Wincest)
Rating: PG to PG-13 (last drabble)
Summary: 3x100 slash drabbles on “Smell” for supernatural100.


x-x-x-x-x

Absinthe
Sam’s memory is filled with masculine smells. Dirt. Grease. Sweat. Beer. Fire, blood, smoke. And darker things so rare that other people do not name them: ghost and grave, carrion and crypt… acid and agony… demon magic, death and slime.

Dean’s shirt against Sam’s face was the smell of comfort after seeing too much. Refuge and renewal, like the cleansing scent of rain, it neutralized the horror of the places their father led them.

With Jess, Sam finally found someone who could help him forget about Dean. The irony is that now he uses Dean to help him forget her.


Sustenance
There is absolution to be found in the hollow of Dean’s throat. Like a forgotten forest, the smell of childhood lingers there. It is a green, living scent, all pine-spice and sunlit grass. It is metaphor and memory, the only constancy Sam knew as Home.

He left this all behind, a bedtime story no longer needed. It would wait for his return on some distant, unnamed day.

Sam forgot that the forest needs sustenance too. Left without water, it will wither and die.

This is what he gives back now—the sweet essence of life he so carelessly took away.



Stay
Sam moves and lifts above him, but it isn’t quite enough. Dean’s eyes capture Sam’s with wistful longing, even as everything builds, finishes… falls.

This is all Dean ever wanted, though he lost it once before.

The meadow-sweet smell of Sam’s hair rises up from its place against Dean’s chest.

The first girl he’d bedded after Sam went to college had used that same shampoo. When he’d realized, it was all Dean could do to breathe. His chest had ached with the weight of drowning, of grief over something he wasn’t allowed to miss.

He still remembers… he’s still afraid.


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i want to cause a ruckusgeminigrl11 on September 17th, 2006 08:14 am (UTC)
There are no words for these - they are so good that it almost feels like comments would sully them somehow, make them less. Of all of yours that I have read, these are quite possibly the best ever. So evocative that the emotions are almost overwhelming. So I write with a lump in my throat and a hand over my heart.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: SN Lovershalfshellvenus on September 17th, 2006 11:56 pm (UTC)
So evocative that the emotions are almost overwhelming. So I write with a lump in my throat and a hand over my heart.
Wow. One of the best compliments ever.

Thank you so much. ♥
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The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: SN Lovershalfshellvenus on September 17th, 2006 11:57 pm (UTC)
Ohhh. Thank you, Virginia. :)
I'm for wine and the embrace of questionable womenmissyjack on September 17th, 2006 09:40 am (UTC)
Achingly beautiful.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Diner Deanhalfshellvenus on September 17th, 2006 11:58 pm (UTC)
Thank you, missyjack. Somehow, even the Sam POVs are underneath it all, really about Dean. :(
(no subject) - missyjack on September 18th, 2006 12:48 am (UTC) (Expand)
MF Ludermf_luder_xf on September 17th, 2006 10:14 am (UTC)
Sad yet hopeful. Potent.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Diner Deanhalfshellvenus on September 18th, 2006 12:01 am (UTC)
Thank you very much. I still wonder if Dean will ever truly be able to stop waiting for the other shoe to drop...
plutogirl10 on September 17th, 2006 10:43 am (UTC)
Oh, they're all beautiful. it is an art, conveying so much in a drabble : )
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: SN Lovershalfshellvenus on September 18th, 2006 12:01 am (UTC)
it is an art, conveying so much in a drabble : )
It really is, and thank you so much. :)
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The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Diner Deanhalfshellvenus on September 18th, 2006 12:02 am (UTC)
Thank you very much!

The wondering and worrying are just never truly over for Dean. :(
zenamydogzenamydog on September 17th, 2006 01:31 pm (UTC)
Sweet and loverly. Not usually into drabbles but this was nice!
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: SN Lovershalfshellvenus on September 18th, 2006 12:04 am (UTC)
Thank you very much! I know, drabbles are so terribly short.

But at times, they can say everything so tightly and nakedly. There's a different aspect even for the reader in drabble vs. story. Glad you liked these ones. :)
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The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: SN Lovershalfshellvenus on September 18th, 2006 12:05 am (UTC)
achingly evocative of the addicted hurt-comfort that they are to each other.
It just hurts to contemplate, doesn't it? That dance of not entirely having but also never being able to let go.
Elle: SN sammy towel  by _dennis_csiellel on September 17th, 2006 03:36 pm (UTC)
He still remembers…he’s still afraid.
Poor baby...
*sighs*

Angsty and stunning!Loved it!:)
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Diner Deanhalfshellvenus on September 18th, 2006 12:06 am (UTC)
He still remembers…he’s still afraid.
Poor baby...

That line says it all, doesn't it? *Sighs right with you*

Glad you enjoyed these-- and angsty definitely describes them!
(no subject) - ellel on September 18th, 2006 04:21 pm (UTC) (Expand)
poisontaster on September 17th, 2006 05:44 pm (UTC)
Very nice. I especially loved this line: Sam forgot that the forest needs sustenance too. Left without water, it will wither and die. Very evocative, very incisive, excellent insight.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Diner Deanhalfshellvenus on September 18th, 2006 12:09 am (UTC)
Thank you, Erin. :)

Very evocative, very incisive, excellent insight.
Poor Dean. He is so strong, and is so intent on appearing strong. But there's a penalty in letting other people think you don't need anything for yourself. *Sigh*
The Grammarian about whom your mother warned you.acostilow on September 17th, 2006 06:01 pm (UTC)
See that? That's the pieces of my heart. That you broke.

I'm sending you a bill.




....And, you know, excellent.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Diner Deanhalfshellvenus on September 18th, 2006 12:10 am (UTC)
See that? That's the pieces of my heart. That you broke.
It was heartbreaking to write that last one. They all build in that direction, but Dean's feeling that it isn't really happening even though he's right there is so tragic... and completely understandable. :(
blazeorfade: SPN Iconblazeorfade on September 17th, 2006 09:27 pm (UTC)
So poetic and beautiful. These have a sort of quiet about 'em that makes them resonate all the more.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: SN Lovershalfshellvenus on September 18th, 2006 12:12 am (UTC)
poetic and beautiful. These have a sort of quiet about 'em that makes them resonate all the more.
Thank you very much. :)

I think the quietness sometimes makes the ideas steal all the more deeply into your head, until you feel them as well as read them before thinking too much about what they mean.
(no subject) - blazeorfade on September 18th, 2006 05:15 am (UTC) (Expand)
Skywalker-Winchester: supernatural_brothers05  jsie_iconsanakin415 on September 18th, 2006 05:32 am (UTC)
i loved each and everyone of these..... all 3 left me thinking
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: SN Lovershalfshellvenus on September 18th, 2006 05:46 am (UTC)
... all 3 left me thinking.
:) That's wonderful to hear. As if the story goes on in your mind even when the words are over.

So many missteps and misunderstandings between them. I hope that someday they reach the point where it's finally just right.
Lissieilovesn on September 18th, 2006 06:09 pm (UTC)
OMG! so sweet and poetic.

loved them

*huggs*
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: SN Lovershalfshellvenus on September 18th, 2006 06:14 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! :)

And I like that icon. :0
(no subject) - ilovesn on September 18th, 2006 07:03 pm (UTC) (Expand)
She Who Has Pornedmasterofmercury on September 19th, 2006 08:21 am (UTC)
Wow. I mean, WOW. These are gorgeous. The first one hurt so much, and the other two are just sexy. I love.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: SN Lovershalfshellvenus on September 19th, 2006 05:01 pm (UTC)
The first one hurt so much, and the other two are just sexy. I love.
Thank you so much! I do love the power of drabbles to tell a story-- or reveal an image-- so concisely. :)