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31 August 2018 @ 11:36 pm
Lumpty Dumpty  
Did I mention that I used the surgery I had months ago as an opportunity to try to lose some weight? Kicking sugar is really hard, especially the first day, so I took advantage of the timing. On the day of surgery, I was either fasting or unconscious most of the time, which made it easier to avoid sugar that day. After three days without sugar, the cravings are almost gone.

Because I knew I wouldn't be able to bicycle for at least 6 weeks, I was also careful to eat less over that recuperation time, when all I could do was walk. I lost about 12-13 pounds while recovering, and also discovered that when I don't exercise to quite such an insane degree, I'm not as hungry. This was quite a revelation, since I've been locked in a vicious circle for years, always exercising fiercely to try to lose weight while also being ravenous. It gets very self-defeating.

So, when I started biking again, I decided to lower my mileage a little. Most rides are 16-17 miles now, with one or two longer rides a week of 19-21 miles. I haven't biked so little since before baby #1! But it seems to be helping. I don't get to the end of the day and feel like I have to eat everything on the planet as often now. I've probably lost about 17-18 pounds? I'm definitely out of the range of constant self-loathing, which is good.

BUT last week, now that there's less 'fluff' obscuring things... I was getting dressed one morning, and noticed a lump near the bottom of my sternum. Not bone or cartilage, just a soft lump. Which has been there how long? :O

I saw the doctor about it Wednesday. It's probably nothing, and the radiologist noted it on the CT-SCAN results from the lump near my armpit back in January. Mostly likely a cyst, and I'll get an ultrasound to confirm.

But is this how it's going to be? Have I reached the age where my body has started spawning random lumps here and there? I'd always been lucky enough to escape the problems my dad's side of the family has with auto-immune disorders, but maybe my luck has ended.

Maybe I've entered the stage where my body is bored, and has nothing better to do than try to grow things in places it shouldn't? \o?

realpestilencerealpestilence on September 1st, 2018 02:49 pm (UTC)
I love the random hairs that sprout in odd places, too. And they don't seem to grow...just pop up full length & waving from the chin or wherever one day. If I'm lucky, it'll be silver, too. Well, at least I'll have a pretty hair color once it's done turning.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Yikeshalfshellvenus on September 1st, 2018 10:00 pm (UTC)
Ack! It seems to be chin hairs for women, and for men it's the ears (sometimes the shell and not the inside) and once in awhile, the tip of the nose. :O

I once found an ultra-fine, kinked hair on my forehead, about an inch away from any part of the hairline. I think of it as the Werewolf Hair.

Because, you know what's missing from my life? Being more of a mutant.

Said no one ever...
cindy: spn - confused dean (by thereisnosp00n)tsuki_no_bara on September 2nd, 2018 05:01 am (UTC)
yay for kicking sugar, but wtf on the lump? is your body just spontaneously generating them now?
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphorshalfshellvenus on September 2nd, 2018 07:03 am (UTC)
That's what it seems like! This isn't even the outcome of prior damage to the area, so what the hell? Is there nothing better for it to do?
passing_through: basket of yarnpassing_through on September 3rd, 2018 02:27 am (UTC)
Congratulations on the weight loss and kicking sugar. I don't know if I could give up sugar. I also would have a terrible time giving up carbs even though I know I'd feel better if I cut back on them significantly.

Boo for you lump :(

If it's a cyst, will they remove it surgically or do they drain them? Either way, it's more trauma your body doesn't need.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphorshalfshellvenus on September 3rd, 2018 05:36 pm (UTC)
Sugar is like a drug for me, probably because I'm hypoglycemic. So, the first day is definitely an exercise in withdrawal. SO much harder than you would think. I do eat fewer carbs overall in general, because they're also hard on the blood sugar. It helps. Just a very challenging way to live long-term!

I think they will leave the cyst alone, unless it's drainable. I thought it didn't hurt until the doctor started pushing on it, which-- okay, running my fingers over it was my gauge of whether it hurt!

But so long as it's not huge or an actual problem, I do not want anyone cutting into me again. Geez, I already have five little abdominal scars I'm putting scar gel on every day, plus the 2 1/2-inch long thing where the other lump was removed and the tiny scar where the biopsy needle went in. That's way more daily maintenance than I want or need. :O