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02 September 2006 @ 03:17 pm
Supernatural Gen "Gain" Drabbles: Always At A Price  
Title: Always At A Price
Author: HalfshellVenus
Characters: Dean, John (Gen)
Rating: PG
Summary: 2x100 drabbles written belatedly for supernatural100’s “Gain” challenge #36.

x-x-x-x-x

Transmutation (Dean)
When did the boy become the man who stands before him?

Dean lost a brother, and gained an equal partner instead.

They no longer mold to each other the way they once did. They used to accommodate each other’s differences, working team-like to find balance for Dad and themselves.

It isn’t that anymore. It’s conflict and confusion, and trying to remember and adjust through the discomfort.

Sammy’s gone, or he wants to be. Same thing.

Will this be better someday, if they ever get past it?

Dean can’t tell. It feels like starting over when he just wants yesterday back.


Single-Minded (John)
This is the worst kind of hunting, the things that go to ground for years at a time. He winds up looking for a trigger—an event, a moon cycle or something unknown—trying to scan the pattern of what it is and what it does. Sometimes the Why doesn’t matter-- he’s here to destroy these things, not understand them.

It took Mary, took Sammy’s girlfriend, and so many others along the way. Probably Pastor Jim, though he can’t be sure.

But they’re still ahead, John insists like he always has.

And they’re gaining on it. On that he’s firm.


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The Grammarian about whom your mother warned you.acostilow on September 2nd, 2006 10:31 pm (UTC)


Beautiful.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Diner Deanhalfshellvenus on September 2nd, 2006 10:40 pm (UTC)
Thank you, Athena! I love the last lines in Dean's. And John's is just... so skewed, but so him. *Sigh*
I'm for wine and the embrace of questionable women: huntersmissyjack on September 3rd, 2006 12:13 am (UTC)
The first one? and this It feels like starting over when he just wants yesterday back. you've captured here in a sentence what I have been trying to say (in many more, less eloquent words)in most of my fic. This is what underlies so much of their miscommunication and tensions. Damn it woman you've encapsulated season one in a sentence!

And the second one - just gets John's firm resolve (that has a little fear in it).

Your writing so inspires me and makes me a tiny bit jealous ;)


The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Diner Deanhalfshellvenus on September 3rd, 2006 12:23 am (UTC)
Damn it woman you've encapsulated season one in a sentence!
Thank you! *twirls* Those two lines just say it all for me.

This is the beauty of drabbles-- sometimes the strongest lines of all come out in these tiny pieces. I wish I knew why, but there it is.

And I so feel for Dean there. He doesn't need 'new,' or 'challenging,' or 'maybe.' He just wants what it was before-- when it worked between them, when (for him) it was good. *Sigh*

And the second one - just gets John's firm resolve (that has a little fear in it).
I hope it conveys that (because that's entirely John) as well as doubt on the reader's part that he's even correct. I want the reader to see that tally of loss, and come to a completely different conclusion than John (one which he will never, ever see).

Thank you, missyjack! Glad a few of us are around today. :)
I'm for wine and the embrace of questionable womenmissyjack on September 3rd, 2006 12:36 am (UTC)
I'm excited to see where they take this in Season 2, because of course in Devil's Trap even that 'good' past is challenged by what the demon says both to Dean and Sam.
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The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Diner Deanhalfshellvenus on September 3rd, 2006 05:36 am (UTC)
Thank you, wenchpixie. :) It took me so long to even think of something to write for this prompt, and this one-- gains defined by delusion, or by things that matter only to other people-- finally clicked.

That line about Dean... God, I could use an icon with that. *Sigh*
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The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Diner Deanhalfshellvenus on September 5th, 2006 07:21 am (UTC)
Ooh, both lovely! Thank you. :D I saw you posted them up to your journal, so perhaps they'll get some broader usage too. :D

I'll download them both-- leaning more toward #1 because the picture's so much more pensive. (poor pensive Dean...)

Thank you so much! Whoo!
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The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Diner Deanhalfshellvenus on September 3rd, 2006 05:38 am (UTC)
I love these two drabbles so much.
I struggled so for any sort of idea, so I'm glad they're not worthless in the end.

So hurty Dean.
It's everything he wants that eludes him while staring him in the face. And oh, how painful that is to contemplate...

Thank you, Debbie. :)
     Mandya_phoenixdragon on September 14th, 2006 07:16 am (UTC)
Oh!!!! Loved these!!! John's was particularly moving!

*Hugs you*
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Johnhalfshellvenus on September 15th, 2006 05:12 am (UTC)
:D Glad you liked them! I'm vaguely considering taking all my John drabbles and putting them together in a single post at some point. I only seem to write him in drabbles (all in the last 2 months), but his voice has become very strong to me lately.