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09 October 2017 @ 11:59 pm
Still here, just trying to keep my head above water at work and at home. Halfshellhusband is still restricted to minimal movement while his leg heals. It IS looking better, but the muscles are also trying to pull the bone fragments out of alignment, so it's a race to see whether the break binds together before the slippage requires surgery. Still hoping no surgery. This has been hard enough without resetting the healing clock back to zero! OTOH, no idea what this means for arthritis going forward...

We have a house cleaner lined up, but apart from a quick-clean of the high-priority areas last Thursday, she can't come for a month. Which may mean that it will still mostly be me, and we might just be paying her for a single deep-clean visit. :( Outside, I'm missing my helpers. This is the "weed and clean up dead things" season, and is starting to overlap with leaf season. I thought I was going to apply Round-up on Saturday, but I had to clear leaves and large weeds away first, to see what I was doing. Lost my daylight, and Sunday was a windstorm, so apart from hand-weeding and cleanup, no progress there. The property is about 1/3 of an acre, and over-landscaped. Places where we had to remove trees still look like crap, as the azaleas continue to die without shade. This has been going on for about 8 years now, and we haven't found any good replacement plants that are more sun-tolerant. The leftover buried tree-limbs that couldn't be dug out have now become extremely wet and pulpy (so, gross but also fascinating). They've also attracted that thick, leathery fungus that binds around plants' roots and kills them (two of the dead azaleas had that).

Several weeks ago, I noticed what seemed to be a group of red and yellow toadstools. When I went to investigate, I found an enormous single fungus that looked like a no-cheese pre-baked pizza, complete with 'crust'. Maybe a Reishi mushroom (shiny, tomato-paste-colored middle, blobby shape)? Huge and hideous either way, and larger (in 2D) than a football. :O

Work is slightly less busy, and I wish I could take vacation time, but I'm being told I need to get my performance up. Like that pressure helps anything... Once I joined the new project, it has all been so much work to learn new (and poorly-documented things), and such a battle against distraction. I found myself Googling adult ADD last week, as my mother has that and it would explain some of my difficulties. We talked on the phone last week, and she specifically mentioned things like noises and motion being incredibly distracting. I always thought those were a problem for me because I'm "over-wired." Everything is generally too loud, too bright, too smelly, too strong-tasting, too painful, etc. She mentioned the noise issues in particular being an ADHD thing for her, and I hadn't realized random noise was also a problem for her.

Our work environment is thwart-tastic, and about to get worse, but the main thing is that while it's a struggle for everyone, it seems to be a bigger struggle for me, and that needs to change. Unfortunately, there is no easy solution for this. Which just brings more pressure. I'm at the point where I could potentially retire (healthcare benefits would be the big issue), but I'd rather work part-time instead. I can't do that at a new job, so I'm kind of stuck where I am, hoping I can do "more things faster." *sigh* I used to love this job and this company, for so many years...

All of which means that right now, I need to get to bed and start it all over again tomorrow. So, the entertainment blather will have to wait for another post! But at least I signed up for Yuletide.

And have officially broken out the Halloween icon, seeing as it's October. :D

Kizzyxo_kizzy_xo on October 10th, 2017 11:56 am (UTC)
I have no idea what mushrooms are what (I have the ordinary white *lawn* ones scattered about right now). But ew, slimy uncooked no cheese pizza?!? Never seen one like that :shudder:

HSH's recovery sounds painful. I found out yesterday that my big toe metatarsal isn't making new bone, which means I'm not returning to work anytime soon. They have no idea why it isn't happening.

I get very distracted if I'm forced to multitask too much. Surprisingly, I work better if I have the TV on in the background rather than music, which I find distracting because I'll start bopping to the beat in some way. I used to get more work done in my dorm room at college than in the library!

I hate productivity levels. That's one of my current manager's *things* and until I went out he was constantly on my back about one thing or another. Actually now that all this has happened he's been getting TPTB's blowback about working me too hard despite knowing I already had foot issues.

I wish we lived closer. I'd invite you to come over here and decompress <3

The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphorshalfshellvenus on October 10th, 2017 07:12 pm (UTC)
I normally only deal with mushrooms that come from the store or a restaurant. I assume anything outdoors is probably poisonous. But this thing? Too ugly and weird not to look up. It's listed as "non-edible" on a couple of sites, and yet there's a whole Asian medicine array of uses via pills and such, so someone is clearly wrong!

So sorry about your foot! It's almost as if it has "had enough" for the time being, and is sulking.

Productivity levels-- especially in an environment with ranking, which is common for engineering-- are such a pain. When not thwarted, I can really hum along. But god, the thwarting threshold has really climbed. :(
Kizzyxo_kizzy_xo on October 11th, 2017 11:42 am (UTC)
I wish I could still post photos here, but back in July (I think) there was this huge toadstool which suddenly appeared in our backyard out of nowhere. The cap was like 5-6" across. It was pure white, too, and I remembered there's a common lawn mushroom called a destroying angel which is...well, destroying if ingested. Max stayed clear away from it. It got chewed when I mowed. Haven't seen anything like it since.
riverotter1951riverotter1951 on October 10th, 2017 02:42 pm (UTC)
Thanks for an update on your life. You might talk to your doctor about the random noise problem and your mother having ADHD. On the housecleaning issue, have you looked into a housecleaning service like Merry Maids? I found them reliable and professional.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphorshalfshellvenus on October 10th, 2017 07:18 pm (UTC)
We've looked at Merry Maids in the past, and they've been pretty expensive, though all housecleaning seems to be! I let my husband vet the recommendations from neighborhood people, and he liked the woman he picked (she has her own service). But she IS pretty busy.

At the moment, I think the yard is probably going to eat into my life more quickly, and that's an even bigger hassle. It's easy to find mow-and-blow people, but not usually worth the price. Finding people who had take care of the rest of things affordably, and not actually maim or kill plants, is pretty darn hard. Once your trained child helpers leave, all bets are off. My dad went through this too, though he would over-landscape his yard on purpose if it didn't start out that way. For us, it came with the house we bought, and as soon as we'd been there a couple of weeks, I realized what a nightmare it was going to be. At least we've pared the rosebushes down from around 90 to about 60. It's still a lot, but is dwarfed by all the other weeding/pruning/deadheading/recovery-attempts. I say that because we lose plants every year--usually to the Sacramento heat, but sometimes to excess winter wetness! You can't win in this climate... :O
Peterpeterb on October 10th, 2017 11:16 pm (UTC)
That leg sounds like precisely zero fun :(
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphorshalfshellvenus on October 11th, 2017 07:52 pm (UTC)
It IS. And really, the muscles always being tense (a neurological condition) makes any sort of break so much worse. This is why plates and screws sometimes get involved! :(
bleodsweanbleodswean on October 10th, 2017 11:23 pm (UTC)
*hugs* What is Yuletide and where do I sign on??? Noise is something that can make me CRAZY. I had to take a hiatus from writing when the kids were little. It just wasn't possible. I feel your pain.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphorshalfshellvenus on October 11th, 2017 07:56 pm (UTC)
Yuletide is a small-fandom fic exchange that runs every year. Signups are closed, but if you join the LJ yuletide_admin group, you will always know. AND... you can sign up for the pinch-hit list. Requests for pinch-hits will go out on it all the way up through Dec. 24 (and sometimes after, in desperate cases), so anyone can pitch in and write a story. And also treats. I try to write treats, if the mood takes me (treats are unofficial stories, as in anything for the prompts that is either < 1000 words or came in after the prompt was fulfilled). It provides great opportunity to write unusual fannish things, and spread happiness.

Random noise... argh, just having a family (HSH and the kids) who flick their fingers all the time-- or the knucklecrackers on my work team-- creates background irritation, and I know that most people just don't care or even notice. What would that be like, I wonder? \o?
swirlsofblueswirlsofblue on October 11th, 2017 05:36 pm (UTC)
Glad things are looking better for Halfshellhusband, fingers crossed it will carry on that way.

*Hugs* I hope things at work get better.

Happy October!
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Halloweenhalfshellvenus on October 11th, 2017 07:57 pm (UTC)
Thank you! Happy October to you too-- let me put that Halloween icon up again, while I still can. :D
passing_through: books hairpassing_through on October 12th, 2017 02:06 am (UTC)
Your yard sounds kind of fascinating and way too much work :D

I'm not 100% sure what your job is but whatever it is, I don't think I could handle the stress. One thing about my job that I'm grateful for is that I have a supportive boss who definitely expects us to get our jobs done and meet our goals while constantly letting us know how much she values and appreciates us.

I don't know if it's a lack of attention to what's around me or something I've learned from a lifetime of reading whenever and wherever I get the chance but I can pretty much tune out anything that's happening around me. Well, most of the time. But that's not always a good thing. I'm sure I miss a lot.

It's a shame you can't work part-time. I think that would be the way to go. Work a bit, make some money, have time off. Perfect combination :D

The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphorshalfshellvenus on October 13th, 2017 12:54 am (UTC)
It IS too much work, but there's a lot going on there... Really, it used to just be the occasional toadstool, but the rotting tree parts have attracted some very weird stuff. Also, large. :O

I work as an embedded software engineer (software that runs inside hardware, as opposed to on a PC or something). In the last two years, we took on a new project where every part of it was new (the environment, the operating system, the hardware) and it was promised to the very high-ups on a much too short schedule. Plus, other tasks were thrown in to write tests and such in languages new to the team. Basically, all new, in all directions, over-comitted scope, and unrealistically short schedule. THAT's where all the stress comes from. People are so busy, there's no time to teach anyone anything, or to clean up old misinformation. It's a cluster, and not something most people would willingly choose to be involved with. :(
dmouseydmousey on October 22nd, 2017 11:29 pm (UTC)
Do not use Round Up unless it doesn't have glyphosates in it anymore! It kills bees and is toxic to everything really! It also seeps into the ground water! Montsanto doesn't need anymore support poisoning the world! Thanks, peace ✌ 🐁🐁🐀