My husband and I had to take sleeping pills that night, to quiet the level of anxiety those results triggered. All night long, I would wake up happy for about half a second before remembering what had happened. It reminded me of those times when someone I loved had died, and in sleep there was a brief reprieve before reality came crashing in all over again.
Above all, I was distressed that so many people could vote for such a hateful, racist, misogynist candidate. This can't help but seem like tacit approval of his behavior, and it has already resulted in overt threats and hostility toward people of color in a number of cities. It's not that racism was a reason for a lot of people to vote FOR him, just that it wasn't enough for them to draw a line in the sand and say, "Absolutely not." That was a blow to my faith in humanity, and we'll be living with the fallout from that for years.
We elected a candidate with a massive ego and a volatile temper, with no regard for anyone but himself. I worry very much about having him be our public representative to other nations—he will almost certainly piss someone off, or (more likely) become pissed off himself and want to retaliate. I don't want us going to war over his inability to behave like a grown-up. That loose-cannon behavior could also hurt our economy, and by extension, the global economy.
I worry about the poor and the disabled, who traditionally suffer when Republicans are in office. The one thing I can almost guarantee Trump will do is to reduce taxes on wealthy people. That usually results in cutbacks to social programs, and honestly? Those people are already struggling.
I would be very surprised if he did anything to benefit the blue collar workers who have been disenfranchised by the reduction in U.S. manufacturing. Many jobs were lost to automation, a non-reversing trend. We can't really return outsourced jobs to the U.S.—we can only penalize moving additional jobs, reward companies who stay, and provide incentives to revive areas like the Rust Belt by opening businesses there. But there is no 'magic bullet.' Typically, people often have to go where the jobs are, even when they would rather not.
I really, really don't understand why people voted for him. He has a record of screwing over the "little people" when he can, which makes him a very unlikely champion for much of the demographic that elected him. He has had no interest in helping people, and I think his wanting to be President is more about being King than about leading this country. It's just that our system of government doesn't work that way.
He is a dreadful excuse for a human being who brought campaigning to a new low, and we rewarded him for it by electing him. Expect to see the political climate grow ever uglier as a result of that.
I don't understand why Evangelical Christians voted for him at all. They were quoted as saying, "We believe in forgiveness," but the thing is that Trump does not want forgiveness. He is not sorry for any of the things he has done to women, to people-of-color, to anyone. I don't believe unending amorality should be forgiven. I think it's a harbinger of what is to come, so by voting for him, those same people effectively sanctioned any future misbehavior.
I know there were people who wanted "change," and there are areas of concern where I agree that change would be good. But throwing a live grenade into a house is not the kind of change that helps!
Four years of who knows what. Of Supreme Court Justices who likely think that Citizens United was a fine ruling, but that actual humans don't need quite so many rights. Of potential recession due to his economic policies. Of international embarrassment, and the kind of scorn others felt for us when George W. Bush was elected, but now magnified more than tenfold.
I don't feel quite as worried or panicked as I did last Tuesday night, but for a lot of LBGTQ people and people of color, I imagine that anxiety is still pretty high. They may have four full years or more of looking over their shoulders now.
I have to wonder now, for the people who got us here, was it worth it? Would they want to live like that?
Or does that still not even enter their minds?