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13 March 2014 @ 12:00 pm
What a week. We're in that windy Spring phase where it's hard to bike outside. I biked Sunday, went to the gym Monday and Tuesday, and had to abort biking on suddenly-windy Wednesday (yesterday). Fine—I decided to head home a little early and go running instead. I got home, got dressed, did the 7-10 minute warmup walk, and then started running. At that point, something strange happened.

I have gone through this sequence, in this same part of my neighborhood, at least 40 times. Yesterday, I ran about 5 steps and then suddenly my legs cut out. It was as if someone hit the "kill" switch for them. My legs just collapsed from the ankles upward, and I fell. OUUUUUCH! Scraped up my hands pretty good, and a little of my knees. I rolled toward the curb and eventually got up, and walked around for about a mile or so and then home. Once you stop being a kid, you really aren't used to falling anymore, and it hurts! It's also much more embarrassing.

But the main thing is, I don't know why that happened. It's the type of incident that drives you to Google unsettling phrases on the Internet, and most of all, it makes me nervous about the next run (whenever that is).

This happens in nightmares all the time (God, the number of dreams I've had where my legs don't work and I have to crawl), but I've never had it happen for real. Ugh. Is this the future, my body slowly betraying me as the years go on? Oh, who am I kidding—in an abstract sense, it always is! Just usually later, and in slightly different ways. :(

Other news: signups for therealljidol have been extended to next Monday, if you were on the fence about trying it out. The first topic is likely to go up tonight, though, so don't be caught unaware!

Reading: I am farther into all the books mentioned last post, except that I left out Anansi Boys. I'm really enjoying it, and it wasn't at all what I expected. I've read Gaiman's The Graveyard Book and Neverwhere (I actually liked the former better than the latter. So unusual, and yet, so much pathos!) This new one has been fun. It's also due in two days, so I need to pick up the pace.

Watched The Woodsman earlier this week. Disturbing but also very good (not just for Kevin Bacon—Mos Def impresses me more all the time). Also saw the first episode of Cosmos, which was awesome. This is where CGI really goes nuts. I still can't figure out which planet is my favorite. Saturn has those rings, which I've always loved, but Neptune's color is so beautiful and serene. Regardless, I still feel bad for Pluto. I doubt that will ever change.

So, is it actually Thursday? Because this week has really dragged. Like my bruised palms across brutal blacktop. :(

adoptedwriteradoptedwriter on March 13th, 2014 10:32 pm (UTC)
Oooooow!!!! Heal fast!

The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphorshalfshellvenus on March 13th, 2014 11:16 pm (UTC)
What a shock. I sure hope nobody was home in the houses I fell in front of. :O

This also brings back to mind the fact that nobody seems to be making decent bandaids anymore! Not the shapes or the adhesive. :(
Kizzyxo_kizzy_xo on March 13th, 2014 11:25 pm (UTC)
Band aids are crap nowadays. Trust me, I know ;)

It sounds like your legs just spontaneously have out on you. I've had that happen more times than I want to admit, and I'm in no way a runner.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Yikeshalfshellvenus on March 13th, 2014 11:28 pm (UTC)
That's pretty much what happened.

In the minimal Googling I did, a lot of people have mentioned pain (back pain or leg pain). There was no pain here, just a refusal to do what the brain was telling them to do. It was a blip, but when you're running, that's all it takes. :(

Boy, I hope that never happens again...
Vice Captain of the Universesweeny_todd on March 14th, 2014 01:27 am (UTC)
I understand :-( the fear that it could happen again is pretty bad.

Hope your scrapes heal up soon.

It's Friday here. And thank goodness. I am totally over this week.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphorshalfshellvenus on March 14th, 2014 06:20 am (UTC)
Yes, I imagine after your slipups while biking in icy weather that you're all too familiar with accidents, and how paranoid they make us.

I'm looking forward to it being Friday, mainly at the _end_ of the day. Yeesh.
Dan: Peregrinemuchtooarrogant on March 14th, 2014 02:05 am (UTC)
Ouch, sorry to hear about the fall! That sounds really disorienting and frightening.

Anansi Boys is one of the few Gaiman books I haven't read, mostly because the description didn't grab my interest. I'd be curious to know what your final take on it is.

The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphorshalfshellvenus on March 14th, 2014 06:22 am (UTC)
I've never had my body short-circuit like that on me before, especially while doing something I've done a zillion other times before!

I think I got into Anansi Boys solely on other people's love for it, and without reading the premise. The premise _still_ doesn't sound all that good to me, but the execution makes it all work so far!
Danmuchtooarrogant on March 15th, 2014 03:27 pm (UTC)
I downloaded Anansi Boys on to my book player yesterday, but we had so many things going on that I never had a chance to read it. I'll probably get started next week when I'm at my conference in San Diego though, all I'm going to want to do when I get to my hotel room after exhibits is sprawl out and read, so that'll be perfect.

passing_throughpassing_through on March 14th, 2014 02:39 am (UTC)
God, the number of dreams I've had where my legs don't work and I have to crawl

Last summer, I was convinced that one day I would bend down to get something and I wouldn't be able to stand back up. I had so many dreams where I'd fall, or my legs would collapse and I'd try to pull myself back up, but couldn't. It was so bad that I was almost afraid to stand for too long in case my legs quit working. It interfered with my daily walking and on a few occasions, it made me pass on some outings with my family because I knew I'd have to stand or walk too much. It lasted for about four months. I talked to my doctor about it several times and physically, I was okay. I had no other symptoms, except for an irrational fear that I'd lose control of my legs. Eventually the fear faded and I quit worrying about it. Which is a long-winded way of saying "thank God I'm not the only one who has that dream." :)

The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphorshalfshellvenus on March 14th, 2014 08:12 pm (UTC)
:D I hate that dream, and I have it more often than I'd like.

Never used to before I became an adult, but then again... fewer responsibilities/people depending on me/etc. that leads to more anxiety dreams.

I kind of wonder if some of it isn't influence from the fact that, being asleep, your leg is NOT going to participate in running.

The one dream I've had so many times that I can not longer tell whether the thing in it has happened is the one of driving on the freeway and having people trying to drive in the wrong direction. Since it's always more than one person totally oblivious to the flow of traffic, I'm guessing it's probably only ever been a dream. Still... o_O
cindy: worlds enough and timetsuki_no_bara on March 14th, 2014 03:03 am (UTC)
that's so freaky about your legs! and your poor hands. :(

i still feel bad for pluto too. it will always be a planet to me. saturn's my favorite, tho. i mean, rings!

the week 1 prompt for lj idol went up and it's due MONDAY. MONDAY. is it too early for me to take a bye?
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphorshalfshellvenus on March 14th, 2014 08:15 pm (UTC)
Pluto will always be a planet to me! I will cling to it, by god, because it has stubbornly been with us and clearly wants to be. Also, it's quirky, so what's not to love?

All prompts are due about 3-7 days later. 7 is rare! The usual cycle is Due Monday, Vote ends Thursday, New prompt on Thursday due again on Monday. Sometimes it's Thursday that's the deadline and not Monday, but the writing cycle is almost always that short.

So, I wouldn't recommend taking a bye just yet. Wait until a really WTF topic comes up, or you're planning to be on vacation.
tidal_racetidal_race on March 14th, 2014 07:01 am (UTC)
I've rolled my ankle and had it feel like my leg just fell out from under me. Totally not embarrassing when you're walking through the mall or anything.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphorshalfshellvenus on March 14th, 2014 08:16 pm (UTC)
Totally not embarrassing when you're walking through the mall or anything.

Oh, geez. And at the age where you're supposed to be a 'competent human,' too!
amodalie: Ratte mit Teddyamodalie on March 14th, 2014 05:41 pm (UTC)
Ouch! While I do know these sort of dreams about not being able to walk properly, it must be pretty unsettling when your real legs don't behave the way they're supposed to. :( And yeah, googling your symptoms is probably even more unsettling. All those colourful images and possibilities... *shudders* Hope it was just a bad day and nothing more. Fingers are crossed!

Meanwhile it is a great idea to distract yourself with a bit of Neil Gaiman! Loved the Graveyard Book and Neverwhere, and I have just dug out my audiobook copy of American Gods. It's my daily good nite story these days :))
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphorshalfshellvenus on March 21st, 2014 07:23 pm (UTC)
We have a copy of American Gods that was handed down to us, but I haven't read it yet. People raved more about Anansi Boys, so I went for that first.

The Graveyard Book was really fantastic, though. So bittersweet!