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14 May 2006 @ 08:03 pm
Prison Break Fanfiction: Solace  
Author: HalfshellVenus
Category: Lincoln/Michael (Slash)
Rating: PG
Prompt: #65, “Passing”
Summary: Post-escape, established relationship. Lincoln’s thoughts about this bond he and Michael share.
Author’s Notes: Written for fanfic100, where I have the slash pairing of Lincoln and Michael. This is for prompt #65, “Passing.”

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It is only half-light out when Lincoln gets into the shower.

He is rarely the first one up, but he couldn’t get back to sleep this morning with his mind stuck on Fox River. He had woken in a sweat, beset by another dream about The Chair. Staring at the ceiling and listening to Michael breathe beside him had helped, had pushed the panic down. He had shifted closer to that quiet presence that kept him grounded and reminded him of who he needed to be. Head in the crook of Michael’s neck, forehead gently leaning against his brother, Lincoln had slipped an arm around Michael’s waist and tried to sink back down into the night.

Hours later, his body finally sore from forced stillness, he had stolen out of bed in defeat. The dim light of early morning across Michael’s peaceful face slowed Lincoln for a moment, and he paused to just look at his brother before closing the door. Watching Michael sleep brought a surprising feeling of contentment for which Lincoln had no explanation. He could not have said why he felt it; only that it was. And there was no question that he was grateful for it, for this comfort that had eluded him his whole life long.

Awake but no longer edgy now, Lincoln turns up the water’s heat to make up for the morning’s unexpected chill. He can see clouds through the bathroom window—unusual for this time of year. He has a sudden thought about the winter ahead, whether they’ll still be here in this little house by the ocean. He half-hopes for it, for time curled up together on the sofa with the woodstove going. There might be a life waiting for him back home again someday, although who can say when he’ll be in it? But right now, LJ is safe, Veronica is keeping tabs on the investigation, and life here… is very good.

Lincoln has never before now had a time where he could simply enjoy himself without the pressure of responsibility or stress. The patterns of his past, good and bad, never allowed for the beautiful ease of simplicity. His past loves never held the security of two-sided commitment. And yes, half of that was him. But even when it was not his part of the dynamic that caused the push and pull and fighting and exasperation, it had just never been this right before with anyone.

Part of him gets caught on It’s familiar. It’s just family going on and on forever. But the other part of him remembers chasing Michael through the house and just wanting to slug him sometimes—and thinks that this complete, interwoven bond they have now comes despite that past, despite their differences. With how differently they think and approach things, loving Michael this way now is a sign of something more real, not less. This whole line of thinking is confusing, twists in on itself. But Lincoln can feel the truth lying firmly underneath it.

The seasons may be changing, and their future unknowable until it happens. But Lincoln and Michael, in retreat and in alignment, are more themselves right now than ever.


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The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Lincoln (pensive)halfshellvenus on May 15th, 2006 04:26 am (UTC)
:) He thinks more than the show gives him credit for (those episodes 10-12 sudden swerve into stupidity were kind of a jolt). Opinions/convictions tend to burst out of him at odd moments where you know this is something he's thought about before.

Will Linc be so bold as to verbalize these (or similar) thoughts a la pillow talk with Michael? ::hint, hint::
;) Actually, I was trying to set the stage for pure PWP p0rn with this one, and it totally got away from me and became something totally different. So what's next (I'll post it in a few days) is porn set in this same timeframe. :D

However... pillow talk. Mmmmmm. Onto the backburner it goes, to keep it warm just in case. :D

Thank you, Debbie!
michelle: Michael and Lincoln 3certainthings on May 15th, 2006 04:26 am (UTC)
I really enjoyed this.

--Head in the crook of Michael’s neck, forehead gently leaning against his brother, Lincoln had slipped an arm around Michael’s waist--
  • It's the small simple things like that that make my heart burst


  • The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Lincoln (pensive)halfshellvenus on May 15th, 2006 04:29 am (UTC)
    Thank you, Smidgy! :)

    --Head in the crook of Michael’s neck, forehead gently leaning against his brother, Lincoln had slipped an arm around Michael’s waist--
    It's the small simple things like that that make my heart burst.

    Mine too (can't even pretend to be a closet romantic, because it's beyond obvious).

    I love the image of seeking comfort there, as if simply being near enough will somehow make it right. And I love the twist of Michael providing something Lincoln needs for a change. :)
    The Good, The Bad and The Lana: brothers execution hugthelana on May 15th, 2006 05:12 am (UTC)
    Boy you are going to be so pissed when on the show the aftermath is going to be all ConspiracyConspiracyConspiracy and MoneyhuntMoneyhuntMoneyhunt and no moment of peace for either of them :D

    Awww, so nice to get an insight into Lincoln's POV on the whole thing. :)
    The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: PB slashhalfshellvenus on May 15th, 2006 06:22 am (UTC)
    ConspiracyConspiracyConspiracy and MoneyhuntMoneyhuntMoneyhunt and no moment of peace for either of them
    :D No doubt. Well, before Westmoreland dropped his little bomb last episode, this AU was always predicated on the notion that they would escape and live on what Michael had arranged-- because being gone and undetected and out of the country is still the most important part of any of it. Else... Noose-Around-The-Neck, figuratively speaking.

    That Conspiracy thing... if we get truck vs. SpyDaddy and the truck wins, I could not be happier. Kill that subplot. It was dumb. Let it lie in an unmarked grave next to the Polar Bear from "Lost" and the 'Secret Navajo Aliens!?' from "X-Files."

    La-di-da-di-tropical-Paradise-blah... *whistles an island tune*

    Wait until I post up the p0rn later this week that I was trying to write in the first place. :0
    The Good, The Bad and The Lana: big smile happy sarathelana on May 15th, 2006 06:50 am (UTC)
    Wheeeee p0rn later that week, sounds good to me :D
    Maz (or foxxy!)tuesdaeschild on May 15th, 2006 09:23 am (UTC)
    I found this quite uplifting. The thought that Lincoln had never had the luxury of being without responsibility or stress is so sad. Yet now, here, with Michael, he seems to have finally found some peace.

    I loved it!
    The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Lincoln (pensive)halfshellvenus on May 15th, 2006 07:18 pm (UTC)
    The thought that Lincoln had never had the luxury of being without responsibility or stress is so sad.
    There was the abandoning father, who visited but never stayed... the mother who never had quite enough money and died, leaving him a brother to take care of... and the son he fathered at too young an age. Then the drugs, and finally prison (where he has lots of time and no "responsibility," but unending amounts of stress). That doesn't seem to me to allow for much.

    And despite the drugs and anger issues, Lincoln seems to be a very serious person. Sometimes almost humorless on the show (although given his current situation...). But I don't get the impression that is recent-- more that it's an underlying part of his personality (perhaps forced by how he grew up).

    And what a nice contrast, to idle in Paradise for awhile instead. :)
    Marilynmandarin226 on May 17th, 2006 04:18 pm (UTC)
    You have put it into words so beautifully, as you always do! The writers seem to have written Lincoln as more or less a one-dimentional character. But you are inspired since you delve into him and give us what I believe is his real story!

    To idle in paradise for a while instead. Absolutely!
    The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Lincoln (pensive)halfshellvenus on May 19th, 2006 12:18 am (UTC)
    You have put it into words so beautifully, as you always do!
    :D Thank you, mandarin!

    The writers seem to have written Lincoln as more or less a one-dimentional character.
    He so oddly is-- and he's supposed to be the other lead.

    It still puzzles me-- and the season is over now. I mean, if Michael is going to risk his life/longterm-well-being over this rescue, the show should really show us some idea of WHY. What about Lincoln is so special to Michael? We know it must be something.

    And then there's the whole "heading to the execution" thing-- two episodes worth-- and they did so little with what Lincoln was thinking and feeling. I really find that bizarre.
    Maz (or foxxy!)tuesdaeschild on May 19th, 2006 02:58 pm (UTC)
    :D Thank you, mandarin!
    Rumbled!!! *pouts*

    He so oddly is-- and he's supposed to be the other lead.
    Dominic Purcell is even first in the opening credits, so just what is going on?!!

    What about Lincoln is so special to Michael? We know it must be something.
    It's brothercest! It must be! But they don't have the balls to show that on TV!!

    And then there's the whole "heading to the execution" thing-- two episodes worth-- and they did so little with what Lincoln was thinking and feeling. I really find that bizarre.
    Absolutely! There should have been some wonderfully angsty and dramatic stuff for Lincoln in those two eps. I think, given what the script-writers have given him (or actually, haven't given him!), Dominic Purcell has done a wonderful job with his character.

    We've still got five episodes to go in the UK, but since I'm a spoiler slut, I have a pretty good idea of what's coming. And we are getting a second season, so hopefully the writers will be kind to Lincoln and give him more than he's had so far!
    goodbyemyfancy: Prison Break lovegoodbyemyfancy on May 15th, 2006 12:04 pm (UTC)
    This was very gentle and sweet and I love hearing about Michael and their life from Linc's POV :)
    The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Lincoln (pensive)halfshellvenus on May 16th, 2006 12:00 am (UTC)
    Thank you very much. :) I enjoy writing Lincoln quite a bit-- several of my best Gen Pieces are from his POV.
    dragon9maiden on May 15th, 2006 04:15 pm (UTC)
    Beautiful fic for the post-escape pair. Everything Linc felt and thought were so very consistent with the plot. It makes perfect sense for the contemplation of his uncertainty to happen when the loved one is asleep.
    There is a melancholic overtune to his moment of solace.

    Certainly enjoyed it.
    The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Lincoln (pensive)halfshellvenus on May 16th, 2006 12:03 am (UTC)
    There is a melancholic overtune to his moment of solace.
    There is-- because he has so much darkness behind him (and it will never entirely leave. Even in dreams, it will continue to ambush him).

    But though he is uncertain why he is so much happier now, he is willing to just let it be. And that is such a nice, calm and rare place for Lincoln to be...
    alejandrasophia on May 15th, 2006 10:21 pm (UTC)
    Beautiful.
    The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Lincoln (pensive)halfshellvenus on May 16th, 2006 12:06 am (UTC)
    Thank you very much. :D There is another piece from Michael's POV, Serenity And Shadows that has a similar peaceful mood.

    It's so rare, especially where the series is right now, for either of them not to be in or nearing some form of panic. This is kind of refreshing in contrast. :)
    alejandrasophia on May 16th, 2006 01:38 am (UTC)
    Thank you:)I just finished watching the season finale and I need something good to tide me over until the fall. God, I'm going to miss that show.
    Fabrice Fabrice: Midnighter/Apollopikapika217 on June 13th, 2006 12:22 am (UTC)
    this was soo sweet ^^.
    The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Lincoln (pensive)halfshellvenus on June 13th, 2006 01:19 am (UTC)
    Thank you very much. I'm glad you enjoyed it! :)
    tyrical: AP_aJolietyrical on December 22nd, 2006 05:53 pm (UTC)
    This whole line of thinking is confusing, twists in on itself. But Lincoln can feel the truth lying firmly underneath it.

    I loved this line because it continually reminds me that this relationship is not supposed to be this easy. It's not supposed to ebb and flow quite this well. It's supposed to be fraught with guilt, doubt and fear.

    The very fact that L/M does goes against the grain of everything we think we know and keeps us hoping we get this lucky and if we did and it happened to be a sibling? Would I? Could I? and if I did... could we? Would we? and would we be lucky enough to look like this?

    When did I get so lucky to meet you! You truly rock! I love how you make me think!
    The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: PB slashhalfshellvenus on December 23rd, 2006 08:02 am (UTC)
    and keeps us hoping we get this lucky and if we did and it happened to be a sibling? Would I? Could I? and if I did... could we? Would we? and would we be lucky enough to look like this?
    Fortunately, most of us would never have to ask ourselves this, but for some people like Michael (and Dean, in our other fandom) I just think that there will never be any true completeness any other way. Do we know love when it comes in the wrong place, even when the other person is willing? Usually not-- or we let it pass by. This story was an interesting chance for Lincoln to make that other choice, even though he of the two of them is the one with real options (often shallow the way he uses them, but still options).

    When did I get so lucky to meet you! You truly rock! I love how you make me think!
    Hee! The feeling is entirely mutual, and oh how I've missed you these last few months during the busy-ness of your real life, though it sure sounded like it was good for you in the end.

    So nice to have you reading through these earlier stories one-by-one. I revisit them myself when you comment on them, and I enjoy that. Dormant but not forgotten! ♥
    etherealflaimetherealflaim on January 31st, 2008 12:34 am (UTC)
    Linc speaks! Yes, please!

    It's fiction like this that reminds me that I read these for more than just the PWP aspects. It's because I have a special place in my heart for those two, and it's characterization like this that makes me love them even more.

    ~EF