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19 August 2010 @ 12:02 am
Prison Break Fiction: "Flirting With Disaster" (Sara, Kellerman/Sara, PG-13)  
Title: Flirting With Disaster
Author: HalfshellVenus
Characters: Sara, Kellerman/Sara (Light Het)
Rating: PG-13 (language)
Summary (Season 2): Nothing would ever have happened between them…
Author's Notes: This may or may not be a re-entry into the Bleeding Cuticles challenge, but I can guarantee that this particular story is definitely Rosie's fault.
Also for writers_choice, this is "Addiction."


Nothing would have happened between us.

Those were the kinds of reassurances Sara liked to cling to, whether it was during those sleepless nights after she'd lost everything (including the one new friend she'd found) or sitting in a motel room halfway across the country, waiting for Michael to come back.

She and Lance would have never

because they warned you about getting involved with other people in recovery, other addicts

but a part of her knew that was a lie.

She'd always been attracted to the thrill (the danger), whether it was shooting up in a hospital supply closet or falling for the kind of man who couldn't be trusted to play it safe. Another addict, by definition, would always fit the bill.

Lance was funny and charming, nowhere near as smooth as Michael but with the same sense of teetering on the edge. It was that last part that always wound up pulling her in.

Michael had asked her to betray her profession (for Lincoln, it was to save Lincoln, and she knew he hadn't deserved to die), and then abandoned her to pick up the pieces. But there hadn't been enough left of her to even know where to begin.

In the hospital, she'd finally gotten angry. Who the hell was Michael Scofield to use her like that, to make promises he never intended to keep? She would not give up on everything she'd worked to become just because she'd been unlucky enough to get caught in the wake of destruction Michael had wrought.

That anger only made Lance more attractive, because he wasn't Michael, and even knowing her worst flaws he seemed to accept her for who she was. She'd skated over the possibility of her and Lance together, always forcing the thought away only to have it resurface all over again.

It had lain there in the background, even as she traveled west to meet Michael for some unfathomable plan he hadn't even bothered to explain.

But after the last ten minutes—strapped to a chair in a bathroom while the stranger she'd known as Lance was in the next room deciding her fate—she no longer had any doubts.

She was finally fucking prepared to let it all go.

-------- fin --------

Rosie: Sara & Kmanrosie_spleen on August 19th, 2010 12:08 pm (UTC)
Glad to accept the blame on this particular occasion! The last sentence is gritty and just leaves you hanging - 'teetering on the edge', as such.

Like Sara's voice here. The annoyance, the early doubt is palpable, then she's shitty at the end when she's facing her demise. Love it.

Really nice, lady, and yeah please enter it in the bleeding cuticles point counting.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sarahalfshellvenus on August 19th, 2010 04:56 pm (UTC)
I thought I'd written all the Kellerman/Sara I was ever going to, but it was never from Sara's POV and that arrived out of nowhere last night to become this story.

I loved that early relationship between them-- the comraderie, that sense of hope and possibility regardless of how unwise it would have been to go farther. It was wonderful to explore it from her side, because she had no idea what he was up to, and even in that motel room it was clear he was struggling with his feelings for her.

As for the writing challenge, it all depends on whether there's a story today and the next few days! I made it up to 10 days the first time around. :)
Maerhys: ✝ sara [a]maerhys on August 19th, 2010 02:29 pm (UTC)
YES YES YES!!!! I ship Kellerman/Sara like burning. I am so excited over this I am flailing. And this is exactly how I see Sara. Love it.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sarahalfshellvenus on August 19th, 2010 05:00 pm (UTC)
I'm so glad there are other people who can't resist the Kellerman/Sara allure. It's like I can't help myself-- I liked the two of them together, and I liked who they were with each other so much better than who Sara was with Michael and who Kellerman was when he was being, well... his chuckleheaded sociopathic self. ;)

And sometimes it just feels good to get down inside of Sara, though that's rare because I'm not a Michael/Sara shipper and so much of the story and fanfic was about that.

Nice to write this from the serious side, too, full of Sara's hope and possibilities. I wrote the crack side from Kellerman's POV years ago, and boy-- was that ever different from this!
Maerhysmaerhys on August 19th, 2010 05:07 pm (UTC)
Tell me about it, hon. I LOVE SARA but I loathe MiSa. Like, more than I loathe any other canon pairing (maybe more than Sam/Jess, IDK). To get some good Sara-centric fic that gets inside her head is a gift. I wish there was more of it... I plan to write some of it. I pretty much ship Sara with every one but Michael and LJ. -smh- But Paul/Sara, Alex/Sara, Gretchen/Sara.... totally bulletproof for me.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sarahalfshellvenus on August 19th, 2010 05:26 pm (UTC)
I agree with that-- love Sara, but loathe MiSa. It just wasn't... good for her, you know? A friend of mine once said that those two characters together brought out the worst traits in each other, and I really think that's true. Michael became more manipulative and demanding, and Sara became more impulsive and I don't know, co-dependent or something.

I wrote a really good Sara story (here) a few years back, and I've written some Lincoln/Sara (whoo!) and also Sara in an ER crossover setting.

I can't do the Gretchen/anyone because I loathe her like burning (though someone wrote a fantastic Gretchen/Sofia for the PB Fic Exchange-- it was before we knew much about Gretchen, but damn that story rang true).

What does "smh" stand for? I see that in your posts/comments sometimes, and I have to admit, I'm stumped!
Maerhysmaerhys on August 19th, 2010 05:33 pm (UTC)
smh = shake(ing) my head

We share a brain about Sara. The most telling MiSa scene ever, for me, was when she asked Michael about chasing danger for a high. She was only 2-3 years clean with a major relapse at the end of season one and in the matter of a few weeks she's all true love with Michael? It didn't make sense to me. It didn't ring true that someone as strong as Sara would leave the door open only because of Michael (versus knowing the case and believing that Linc was set-up) and then go back to Michael in a romantic way. I felt like the producers wanted to give us Messiah!Michael at the end so there was the random sex so that there could be baby and the rest of it can be ridiculously ridiculous because they wanted a canon romance (which was supposed to be Linc/V but since RT wanted out it became MiSa). Blah.

The G/S fic is the one that converted me! LOL!

I will definitely check that out. I love me some Linc/Sara because I can see it as ether pre-series UST and missing their loved ones (Colin for Sara and Michael for Linc) or post-series epilogue-compliant fic where they turn to each other as a replacement for Michael.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: TBag-Zilla OTPhalfshellvenus on August 19th, 2010 05:44 pm (UTC)
Wait, wait-- Gretchen/Sara fic or Gretchen/Sofia fic?

I felt like the only reason Sara went back to Michael was because she was weak (which, of course, I hated!) and because he'd pretty much trashed her other life-possibilities after the jailbreak fiasco.

I would have preferred Linc/V (god knows, I've written some of that too), but I actually don't think TPTB had any plan beyond S2. I mean, they beheaded Sara in S3 and then brought her back in S4 (which is one of the reasons I couldn't watch S4. When you start crapping on your own canon like that, YOU obviously don't care about the characters and story consistency, and I want no part of that).

You're right about the Messiah!Michael thing, which amuses me because all of Michael's S1 dealings with Sara portrayed him as a jerk, and the number of bodies and destroyed lives he left behind in the quest to save his brother, well... even Lincoln would have said he was never worth it.
Maerhysmaerhys on August 19th, 2010 05:53 pm (UTC)
I am thinking of the Gretchen/Sara, I will look for it. So good.

I think they really killed Sara's character during the whole MiSa train kiss. I mean, WTF was that? Running from the law, on a train with the assassin who almost killed her, oh let's do declarations of love!

I feel like Michael was a drug for Sara and Michael needed to alleviate some of his guilt and he did that via Sara. I did not see the romance in any of the seasons and that Michael started to turn his back on Linc because of Sara was something I could not fathom.

But had the show gone straight "gen" with the main characters I think it would have been so much stronger. I love the idea of M/L/S working together as a team and all that stuff that happened in season 2, etc. but then season three was so are you kidding me? that I couldn't take any of it seriously anymore. I love Sara and I didn't want her to go. Had the producers worked w/ SWC around her mat leave they could have gone with a whole other angle for Sarah (preferably her getting a clue and deciding that she's not ready for any kind of relationship and she saves herself and LJ).

Don't get me started on Sofia either. I didn't like L/V or L/S but L/S was just ridiculous. She's in love with Whistler until she's not and he lost Veronica only about a month before? The producers needed to re-check their own timeline.

I think I liked Gretchen because, well, JLO is hotter than fire but she has chemistry with everyone too. Until they ruined her character in season four, I liked that she was just as cold and unfeeling as Paul in season one and Bill in season two.

Season four... just a hot mess. I actually liked 3x13 so I wish they would have left it like that and we could write our own codas --- they'd make more sense.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sarahalfshellvenus on August 19th, 2010 07:45 pm (UTC)
Here's the Gretchen/Sofia story I mentioned-- the author doesn't have it on her journal, which is too bad. Really good story!

I wish the show had stayed Gen too, really, though I also wish it hadn't gotten into the running-amok flavor of S2, the S1-redux flavor of S3, and then the Ocean's 11 (???) flavor of S4. But the reality is that I always loved the show's drama, and its true genre was "thriller." TPTB and I were at odds from the beginning-- it just wasn't clear to me at first!
Maerhysmaerhys on August 19th, 2010 07:49 pm (UTC)
Thanks for the link! Ace.

Truly. Season one is the creme de la creme. Maybe add in a bit of season two (a closing mini-series, IDK) but the rest of the seasons are just... bad. Season two dragged, season three was farce and season four was a hot mess. But season one is beautiful and I will always love it for that.
sassy, classy, and a bit smart-assy: beautiful SWCbadboy_fangirl on August 19th, 2010 10:12 pm (UTC)
Oh, Sara, you so would have. I promise you, you would have. There was just something so delicious about Paul/Sara. I know I didn't really notice him until he started interacting with her. They had great chemistry.

This is an interesting piece of reflection--that that would be what she would think about in those moments is telling.

Thanks for sharing, Karen. I love it when you go all het for a split second! :D
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sarahalfshellvenus on August 26th, 2010 11:16 pm (UTC)
There was just something so delicious about Paul/Sara. I know I didn't really notice him until he started interacting with her. They had great chemistry.
They really did-- she was more herself with him, and he was so much less of a dangerous sociopath with her. Until, well, the motel room. :0

I'm glad you enjoyed this, and that you have the same Kellerman/Sara weakness that I do! Apparently, there are quite a few of us. :D
sassy, classy, and a bit smart-assy: beautiful SWCbadboy_fangirl on August 27th, 2010 04:46 pm (UTC)
I wrote a Paul/Sara story after the show ended -- since they killed Michael off, I decided to explore the dynamic of her with the only other man on the show who she'd really sparked with. Writing them was a lot of fun, and it was my last hurrah really with PB fic. I have only written a few drabbles since then. But all this Paul/Sara on my f-list of late has been so wonderful!