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24 February 2010 @ 11:48 pm
Prison Break Slash Fiction: "With Careless Abandon" (Michael, Lincoln, Veronica, PG)  
Title: With Careless Abandon
Author: HalfshellVenus
Characters: Michael, Lincoln/Veronica (one-sided Slash)
Rating: PG
Summary: Veronica wasn't the first, but she seemed to be the one who was always there.
Author's Notes: Happy Birthday to clair_de_lune, who wanted some M/L. I went with a slightly different flavor for this one.
Also for fanfic100 ("Green") and writers_choice ("Covet").

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Veronica wasn't the first, but it always came back to her. She was the one who always seemed to be there.

No matter the betrayals or breakups, she returned to Lincoln's orbit. She stole the light from the sky, leaving Michael lonely and trapped in darkness, isolated from the only thing he'd ever wanted.

She didn't even know it.

At first, Michael was supposed to be too young to have those feelings. Getting older didn't change anything—you weren't allowed to get wrapped up in your brother like that, which meant that all Michael's feelings were wrong. Either way, he kept them hidden, forced to watch every time Veronica waltzed into Lincoln's life again and soaked up the attention Michael craved for himself.

The other girls—before and after and in between—didn't have the same impact. They still got in the way, and any time Lincoln took one of them back to his bedroom Michael had to leave the apartment just to keep from going crazy. Almost any girl could turn Lincoln's head hard enough that Michael became an afterthought until she was finally gone.

But Veronica was more.

They'd grown up together, and sometimes Michael wondered when she'd gone from being "that girl upstairs" to occupying a spot on their sofa and in Lincoln's arms. It seemed like he'd been tricked, that she'd somehow betrayed their friendship.

But he still liked her as much as he resented her, and it bothered him that he couldn't separate those two things. He wanted so much to blame her, even though he knew it would be unreasonable. The problem wasn't Veronica, it was that Lincoln always chose her, and probably always would.

Sometimes things would go great for months, where it was just Michael and Lincoln, alone. They'd spend their evenings watching TV together, with Michael sitting as close as he dared and even occasionally pretending to fall asleep on Lincoln's shoulder. He always ached with the need for more.

But then one night the phone would ring, and Lincoln's voice would get low and intimate. Michael's heart always sank at the sound of it, because he knew what was coming.

No matter how he tried or how long he waited, it would never make a difference.

Veronica Donovan would always own the part of Lincoln that Michael so desperately dreamed of having, even if she never bothered for long to try to keep it.


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Maz (or foxxy!): Linc and Veetuesdaeschild on February 25th, 2010 10:47 am (UTC)
(Oops! Thank goodness for the edit facility!)

Mmmm!! Some genuine Michael-angst! Lucky clair_de_lune!! :)

In a way it's commendable that, despite Veronica owning the one part of Lincoln that Michael craved, he couldn't hate her. I think that says a lot about his characteristic loyalty. And the torture Michael seemed to go through every time she came back into Lincoln's life was heartbreaking.

She stole the light from the sky, leaving Michael lonely and trapped in darkness, isolated from the only thing he'd ever wanted.

Fabulous line! Poor Michael completely crushed in that one sentence!

Yet another wonderful M/L tale from one of the best exponents of M/L in the fandom, sweetheart!! I'm sure our girl will be deliriously thrilled with this one! :)

*hugs*

Edited at 2010-02-25 10:48 am (UTC)
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: PB slashhalfshellvenus on February 25th, 2010 08:34 pm (UTC)
Mmmm!! Some genuine Michael-angst!
I hope Katrine likes it. She was probably thinking more along the lines of schmoopiness, though I wrote a couple of those recently and it was easier to work with a different flavor.

I think that says a lot about his characteristic loyalty.
Yes-- having been friends already from the beginning, and knowing it's not her fault (and that what he wants will probably never happen anyway)... I can't see him being able to hate her.

Fabulous line! Poor Michael completely crushed in that one sentence!
:D You found MY favorite line in the story, definitely!

I'm glad you enjoyed this, and I hope the birthday girl does too!
Clair de Lune: origami - canardclair_de_lune on February 25th, 2010 08:51 pm (UTC)
I really enjoyed this, especially given that I like Lincoln/Veronica too. It's a bit painful but always interesting to see pairings I appreciate being confronted.

The jealousy and the fact that Michael knows he can't say anything place him in a terrible spot. The yearning and agony he goes through here are heart-wrenching. So many little touches to show this, but I particulary like these:
Either way, he kept them hidden, forced to watch every time Veronica waltzed into Lincoln's life again and soaked up the attention Michael craved for himself.
They spend their evenings watching TV together, with Michael sitting as close as he dared and even occasionally pretending to fall asleep on Lincoln's shoulder.
But then one night the phone would ring, and Lincoln's voice would get low and intimate. Michael's heart always sank at the sound of it, because he knew what was coming.

And I'll second Foxy about the light vs darkness sentence.

But he still liked her as much as he resented her, and it bothered him that he couldn't separate those two things.
Yes. We know that Michael has affection for Veronica. And - in addition to her always coming back to Lincoln - it only serves to make the situation worse for him.

even if she never bothered for long to try to keep it
That's a part of his issue, isn't it? Not only does she have what he wants so much, but she also doesn't appreciate it the way he would.

Thank you *hugs*
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: PB slashhalfshellvenus on February 27th, 2010 08:38 am (UTC)
I also like Linc/V, and I have many of the same feelings you do.

We know that Michael has affection for Veronica. And - in addition to her always coming back to Lincoln - it only serves to make the situation worse for him.
It's impossible to separate the guilt from resenting her out of his affection for her. Hating her would be easier, but it's not in his nature, so he suffers doubly in this emotional trap.

Not only does she have what he wants so much, but she also doesn't appreciate it the way he would.
From the outside, we can understand why Veronica (who became a lawyer) might keep leaving Lincoln (who became a druggie and a criminal). And we can also understand the deadly attraction that keeps bringing her back.

But Michael, always caught up in his loyalty and his obsession over Lincoln at this point in his life... cannot imagine why she takes her fortune so lightly (and probably is mad that Lincoln keeps taking her back).

I'm so glad you liked this. I've written a lot of schmoopy things lately, including a drabble meme story for you, so I was hoping that this wouldn't be amiss. It was such an irresistible setup to write, and one of so many flavors of Michael/Lincoln that seem possible (though sadder than most).