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07 December 2009 @ 10:51 pm
SPN Gen Fiction: "No Answer Or Escape" (Sam, Angst, PG)  
Title: No Answer Or Escape
Author: HalfshellVenus
Character: Sam (Gen, Angst)
Rating: PG
Summary: It was dark, always dark—just like the last time.
Author's Notes: Written for the 10-character/15-word meme (the "Horror" prompt), but I think this makes a nice standalone as well.


It was dark, always night-black shifting-shadow dark. Sam remembered from the last time, though he had no reason to think he'd been here before.

No reason for being scared either—though logic didn't enter into it—but something was wrong and he couldn't tell what.

"Dean," he called softly, wondering if they'd split up so they could look around separately. Why couldn't he remember? Was this a case or something else?

He moved ahead, feet verifying the floor and hands out front to check for obstacles or clues. "Dean!"

The faintest answer found him, as his own name echoed weakly from up ahead. "Sam…"


Sam moved faster, scrambling and shuffling toward the sound of that voice.


His hands struck something solid, just as a faint light seeped in through cracks that formed the shape of a door. He felt across the surface, looking for a latch or a doorknob until—


Heaving the door open, he brought himself up short, fighting for balance. There was nothing outside but empty space, the vastness of it yawning out below him.


There, twenty feet down—now thirty, forty—Sam could only watch in utter helplessness as Dean kept falling farther away from him. "Dean!" he begged, desperately hoping that someone was listening, or even something. Sam would have bargained just about anything then to save his brother. All he needed was the chance.

He woke from a sweat-drenched sleep, heart pounding enough to fill the silence of the motel room.

Two months, one week, and three days since the Hellhounds came for Dean.

Sam was alone.

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Starrylizardstarrylizard on December 14th, 2009 07:35 am (UTC)
Oh so very like a real nightmares, with the palpable terror with no source and the falling... although its so right that its Dean falling rather than Sam himself. Nicely described. :)
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Samhalfshellvenus on December 14th, 2009 07:54 am (UTC)
Those are some of the worst things about nightmares-- that sense of dread with no idea why, but when it's so strong you know it means something bad is coming.

This nightmare has all the marks of an anxiety dream, where the thing Sam's afraid of has already happened and he's stuck reliving all the ways he couldn't stop it. Which means he'll dream this again and again...

Thanks for reading and commenting!
orehime: scissorsorehime on December 14th, 2009 02:07 pm (UTC)
!! =( poor Sammy!
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Samhalfshellvenus on December 14th, 2009 06:37 pm (UTC)
It's so much worse, isn't it, that the nightmare is just an abstraction of something that's actually true. *cries*
phorenice: Samphorenice on December 14th, 2009 05:59 pm (UTC)
Ouch! You have the nightmarish feeling down right from the beginning, but Sam waking up and Dean being dead is just so much worse than any nightmare.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Hughalfshellvenus on December 14th, 2009 06:44 pm (UTC)
It really is-- it's terrible to escape a nightmare and find that the reality is worse. And that's the kind of nightmare that comes back over and over again to haunt you. :(
sams1ra: wee bitch/jerksams1ra on December 14th, 2009 06:09 pm (UTC)
That was... haunting.
Good job!
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Samhalfshellvenus on December 14th, 2009 06:45 pm (UTC)
Thank you! I feel so for poor Sam, reliving in nightmares the very thing that tortures him in his waking hours. *sigh*
The Huntress: Sam-WendigoTreehuntress69 on December 14th, 2009 06:10 pm (UTC)
Now this was a nice break from the recent cheery holiday fics I've been reading, no joke. I love happy, but sometimes it becomes too much. Poor Sam, I so feel for him and can't possibly imagine his other nightmares from the time he was alone.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Samhalfshellvenus on December 14th, 2009 07:24 pm (UTC)
I haven't been reading enough, and haven't seen any of the fluffy stuff! Really, the S3 Xmas episode just about killed my ability to write Winchesters and Christmas in any happy way (not to mention making me mad at John). It kind of ruined WeeChesters for me too, or at least, the ones where they're practically normal kids and John is The Bestest Daddy Ever.

Glad you enjoyed the break, and this idea seemed like such a perfit fit for the combination of "Horror" and Sam-- the nightmare that is utterly terrible, and still pales in comparison to the reality. :( Poor Sam!
shang_yietshang_yiet on December 15th, 2009 03:32 pm (UTC)
Sad story, short but says a lot. I wish we had actually seen this on the show - Sam waking up alone from a nightmare, all sweaty and disoriented. Wish the writers had bothered more with showing Sam missing Dean instead of rushing to show Ruby slithering up to him in record time.

The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Samhalfshellvenus on December 15th, 2009 07:17 pm (UTC)
Oh, I agree with you completely. I wrote a Sam story at the beginning of S4, "This Bitter Road," that covered exactly that area, and when we got to the canon "I Know What You Did Last Summer" episode I was appalled. How did what should have been Sam grieving for Dean become all-about-Ruby (not to mention how poorly written that episode was).

Really, we got better in the 60-second montage from "Mystery Spot" in S3, which is part of what drove this story.

I'm glad you liked this, and felt that it reflected the ache of those months Sam spent without Dean for the second, terrible time.
_: motel from supernaturalulkis on December 15th, 2009 06:42 pm (UTC)
Great work with the atmosphere, very creepy.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Samhalfshellvenus on December 15th, 2009 07:18 pm (UTC)
Thank you! The "horror" prompt required that it should feel creepy, and I just hope it got far enough in that direction.
ErinRua: Samerinrua on December 16th, 2009 03:12 am (UTC)
Wow. Sucker punch to the gut, babe. Heartbreaking and so well done. :-)
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Samhalfshellvenus on December 16th, 2009 07:01 am (UTC)
I so wish we'd gotten a better representation of that mourning period for Sam, though I don't think I could have stood watching it go beyond one episode.

Reliving that helpless, hopeless feeling again and again in nightmares seems so likely. When we're already suffering, our troubles find us in sleep as well.