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23 September 2009 @ 10:50 pm
Supernatural Gen Fiction: "With No End In Sight" (Mystery Spot, PG)  
Title: With No End In Sight
Author: HalfshellVenus
Characters: Sam, Dean (Gen)
Rating: PG
Summary (3x11, "Mystery Spot): Sam lost Dean again today…
Author's Notes: This was originally written for a friend's birthday, an experiment in poetry that I'd hoped would be a drabble on "Repetition." I can't force it down to 100 words without losing its essence, though, so it stands at 148 instead. At least it's no longer in first person...

x-x-x-x-x

He lost Dean again today—
again
after food poisoning, electrocution,
car accidents, knives,
and even bullets from his own gun.

Most days they hardly make it past breakfast.
Sam's hands shake, sitting at that damned diner
where nothing tastes good fifty times later,
especially knowing Dean'll be dead within hours.

Sam's afraid to change anything
(or nothing),
he hasn't found the key
that'll make this stop,
can't even leave town
without Dean dying along the way.

He's cried over Dean 'til he's raw,
held him close while his arms grew heavy.
Then the world tips back over to the beginning,
another verse of the day Dean dies
no matter how Sam tries to prevent it.

He needs a tomorrow where Dean survives,
where life finally moves forward again.
Sam wants out of this cycle of pain,
this trap,
of always missing Dean
even when he's sitting right there.


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The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Hughalfshellvenus on September 29th, 2009 07:01 am (UTC)
There was so much richness in that episode-- of humor, of pain, of Sam's loneliness and frustration.

It's those last parts of the endless "day" that eventually got pushed aside in the episode itself. The show slanted toward the sick-humor angle, I'm sure as a bridge between the angsty beginning and end, but we lost the real horror of what that must have been like for Sam, watching Dean die over and over and wondering if the "reset-button" tomorrow would be coming the next time around. And he can't share his pain with Dean, can't listen to why the whole idea of it is ridiculous, or to the false assurances of how it's not going to happen this time and everything will be all right.

That sense of being alone even when Dean was there really drove the whole direction of this story. The ache of it, the hopelessness of ever really having Dean back... god, it would have been torture.

Until the Trickster showed him what it was like not to have Dean at all. *sniffle*

Such a powerful episode, for so many reasons!
The Beauty and the Mess: Woobie Hoodielynzibell on September 29th, 2009 03:44 pm (UTC)
Exactly! I liked the way the episode developed. I just also love the fact that there's so much left to the imagination and fic writers can make up there own "day".
Until the Trickster showed him what it was like not to have Dean at all. *sniffle*
I think that's the real tragedy. And I guess the tricksters "moral". It sucks watching Dean die, but not having him at all will royally suck! And hurt a lot!