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02 July 2009 @ 11:15 pm
Supernatural Gen Fiction: "Putting Away Childish Things" (PG)  
Title: Putting Away Childish Things
Author: HalfshellVenus
Characters: Sam, Dean, John (Gen, WeeChesters)
Rating: PG
Summary: Dean's birthday is coming, and it can't get here fast enough.
Author's Notes: Happy birthday to kronette, who wanted some Dean birthday fic with wee!Sam giving him a present. I wrote a grown-up version of that years ago, here, but hadn't tackled the younger setting. It grew waaaay out of drabble length pretty quickly, too!
Also for writers_choice, this is "Birthday."

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Dean wanted a gun for his birthday.

Lots of boys his age probably did too, but they meant BB guns, toy guns, and Dean was thinking more of Glocks and Rugers. Worlds apart—and he'd learned to keep quiet about it. He didn't need a reputation at school for being a psycho.

He'd dropped a couple of hints to Dad, though. One more day...

"What's it like, turning nine?" Sammy asked him.

"I can ride a bike, read books, use the stove. I know how money works. And I can reach stuff."

"Wow." Sam still needed a chair to wash his hands.

The next morning, Sam bounced Dean awake before seven. "Got your present."

Dean unfolded the towel Sam handed him. Inside was a smooth blue stone—"With shiny white parts, like it's magic"—and the world's smallest teddy bear. "So you can take it everywhere," Sam added, picking up his own toy rabbit and squeezing it reassuringly.

"Thanks, Sammy," Dean said warmly. He turned the rock over in his hands, rubbing its cool surface, and fingered the plush little ears on the bear. Those innocent presents made him think of being Sam's age, when life was simpler, happier, and safer—until the night it suddenly wasn't. What he wouldn't give to be able to go back...

"Happy Birthday, Dean." Their father's gruff voice by the doorway sounded so proud and pleased, and Dean thought about the gun he'd wanted so much, and was suddenly afraid he might actually get it.

How would that gun look to Sammy, who was still caught up in stuffed animals and pretty rocks? Sam had given him a toy to love—or to love him back, or maybe both—and guns were for killing and nothing else. Sam didn't even know what their father did while the boys were in bed, or those weekends where he left them with Pastor Jim or family friends. Dad and Dean had agreed not to tell him, not for awhile longer. He'd find out soon enough.

Dean raised his eyes to his father, wondering if all that was about to change.

"Here you go," Dad said, handing him a package wrapped in newspaper and string.

Dean untied the string and pulled back the paper carefully, his fingers nervous and slow as he wondered if—

"Rock 'Em Sock 'Em Robots!" Sammy shouted. "They're on TV!"

"Got some batteries too," Dad chuckled. "You can try them out."

Dean's smile nearly split his face, he was so relieved. He'd seen the TV commercials before, and even heard the kids at school talk about this toy, but he'd never realized he actually wanted it himself

Suddenly, it seemed absolutely perfect.

"Thanks Dad," he said. "These are great! Can Sammy and I play with them before breakfast?"

"Whatever you want." Dad ruffled Dean's hair, and put an arm around each of the boys, hugging them tight. "Happy Birthday."

"Yeah, Happy Birthday, Dean!" Sam patted the box enthusiastically. "Can I be red?"

"You bet, Sammy." Dean worked the box open, and started putting the batteries in the toy's base.

"And while we're playing, maybe you can help me think of a name for this bear. He's gonna need one."


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Jas Masson: eye of the tigerjasmasson on July 3rd, 2009 06:47 am (UTC)
Awww. This was so lovely.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: weechestershalfshellvenus on July 3rd, 2009 08:17 am (UTC)
Thanks, Jas! It definitely worked better for not being a drabble-- I think the overriding tone would have been bittersweetness, and Dean would never have arrived at that self-discovery.

We all grow up, inevitably. No need to hurry, especially when darkness is the only thing that's waiting. Play a few board games, roll in the grass... enjoy it while you can!
CaffieneKitty: weechesterscaffienekitty on July 3rd, 2009 07:44 am (UTC)
Nawwwwww *flails*
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: weechestershalfshellvenus on July 3rd, 2009 08:18 am (UTC)
:) Glad you liked it!

I keep forgetting you're as big a night owl as me-- though at least we're in the same timezone. I saw you posted something of your own tonight-- I'll have to peek at it over the weekend!
(no subject) - caffienekitty on July 3rd, 2009 03:38 pm (UTC) (Expand)
moodswingersmoodswingers on July 3rd, 2009 10:47 am (UTC)
AWW, boys. Adorable. <3
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: weechestershalfshellvenus on July 4th, 2009 08:04 am (UTC)
Thank you! So glad you liked it. :)
brigid_tanner: Winchesters-old photobrigid_tanner on July 3rd, 2009 01:18 pm (UTC)
Love how Sammy's gifts help Dean remember he's a kid, and that John also knows Dean still needs some time as a child. Lovely.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: weechestershalfshellvenus on July 4th, 2009 08:08 am (UTC)
With his childhood stolen away the night his mother died, Dean know s what he lost while Sam can only imagine (and I think Dean and John protected him from some of the horror that neither of them could forget).

How nice, just for a little while, to stop rushing headlong toward a future that is more bleak than Dean can possibly realize. Enjoy what you have, and the family you have it with. Even if maybe YOU wanted to be the red robot yourself. ;)
Maerhys: √ hand in handmaerhys on July 3rd, 2009 01:37 pm (UTC)
Awww I love this! Wee!chesters, yay!
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: weechestershalfshellvenus on July 4th, 2009 08:09 am (UTC)
Yay! I haven't written lengthy Wee!Chesters in so long, and I honestly have very little sense of how it's going to come off to other people. But this one at least worked out the way I intended it to, and after a dry spell that's a relief!
cindy: spn - dad and boys (by kiraboshi)tsuki_no_bara on July 3rd, 2009 05:29 pm (UTC)
dean was such a perceptive kid.... *squishes him* i love that he changes his mind about wanting a gun when he realizes how it might affect sammy. the image of him playing rock 'em sock 'em robots with sammy like normal little boys is the cutest, cutest thing.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: weechestershalfshellvenus on July 4th, 2009 08:12 am (UTC)
He's the good big brother most of the time, even when he doesn't always want to be. This just seemed so true to him, to be hit in the face with how the reality of his desire to be all grown up (and dangerous and deadly) might shock and horrify the brother who is still very much a child. Once that idea occurs to him, how can Dean do anything but back away from something he thinks will affect Sam badly?

And I tell you, no matter how "worldy" or "grownup" you'd like to be... can ANYONE resist the idea of Rock'em Sock'em Robots? Especially if you've got someone to play them with. :)
Serena64serena64 on July 3rd, 2009 09:47 pm (UTC)
Wow, John actually got being a father right for once.
That was a lovely little story, thanks.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: weechestershalfshellvenus on July 4th, 2009 08:15 am (UTC)
It seems like John that he might give Dean that gun, but I tend to suspect that he got 'worn down' over the years and his judgment got steadily eroded by the darkness and danger around them. I don't think he started out that way, and I can see him making the right choice in this timeframe (5 years out) and then later the wrong choice by the time Sam was nine.

I'm glad you enjoyed this-- I never know how the Wee!Chesters are going to come off, and it seems like it's been ages since I wrote them. *is relieved*
The Huntress: Graphic Novelhuntress69 on July 3rd, 2009 09:47 pm (UTC)
Thank you for writing this and for bringing back memories to me of innocent times. I too had Rock 'Em Sock 'Em Robots. And I so love these nice fics that show the Winchester's had their normal moments.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: weechestershalfshellvenus on July 4th, 2009 08:17 am (UTC)
Oh, I'm so glad you liked this-- and that it brought back good memories!

I desperately wanted Rock'em Sock'em Robots, but never got them. I did, however, have Barbie dolls, a big red Hippity Hop, AND the classic huge Tonka dump truck. The Barbies used to ride in the back, among other things.

The Wee!Chesters used to be such a lovely form of escapism for me, before that Christmas episode in S3 torpedoed all of that. But with a little leavening of the light and dark, and the sense that John didn't become that neglectful father all at once, I can find a little happiness there still. :)
layne: spn memorieslayne67 on July 4th, 2009 04:42 am (UTC)
Awww, John knows his Dean more than Dean knows himmself!!
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: weechestershalfshellvenus on July 4th, 2009 08:18 am (UTC)
That's a nice feeling, isn't it? It's a parent's job to know the right thing to do, even when the child thinks otherwise. I have to think there were times when John pulled that off, even with how their lives became.
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The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: weechestershalfshellvenus on July 8th, 2009 07:55 pm (UTC)
You're so welcome! I'm glad you enjoyed it. :)
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The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: weechestershalfshellvenus on July 8th, 2009 07:55 pm (UTC)
Hee! Happiness at last. :D
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The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: weechestershalfshellvenus on July 8th, 2009 07:56 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! Glad to put smiles on people's faces, too. I've really missed that this last season.
jorma_duranjorma_duran on July 4th, 2009 11:42 am (UTC)
This is great! I love how Dean really wanted that gun, then as the actual day approached he was scared that he might actually get it.

And I love that John (probably with lots of help from Sam) managed to get Dean something that he didn't even realize he wanted. And something that let him be little for just a while longer.

Thanks for this.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: weechestershalfshellvenus on July 8th, 2009 07:57 pm (UTC)
then as the actual day approached he was scared that he might actually get it.
It's so much a part of a kid to just want what you want, without thinking about the larger picture. Then to realize who ELSE is affected by your choices... yowch.

And something that let him be little for just a while longer.
If anyone ever needed that, I think it was Dean. Glad you thought so too. :)
Miss Nina Cat: SPN-Lil' Sam+Deanmsninacat on July 4th, 2009 11:49 am (UTC)
SO CUTE!!! Thank you! I needed some WeeChester cute!
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(no subject) - halfshellvenus on July 8th, 2009 07:58 pm (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - halfshellvenus on July 8th, 2009 07:58 pm (UTC) (Expand)
I do not think it means what you think it means.tcs1121 on July 4th, 2009 12:07 pm (UTC)
Sometimes John comes through for the boys. I'm glad he did here.

Knowing the boys' future, these little snippets between them when they were young makes stories like this so much more than they appear. Well done. Thank you for sharing.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: weechestershalfshellvenus on July 8th, 2009 08:00 pm (UTC)
Knowing the boys' future, these little snippets between them when they were young makes stories like this so much more than they appear.
Oh, it's so true. Every moment is colored with the knowledge of what happens later, or where a certain desire or trait will eventually lead. That's the part I enjoy about Kid!Fic, the part I never saw when I stumbled across it other fandoms. It's so very different with the Winchesters (and my other fandom, Prison Break, where the childhood was hard the adulthood got even harder. Sounds familiar, doesn't it?)