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21 March 2009 @ 12:44 pm
Happy Birthday to pheebs1! Here's a little bittersweet something just for you. :)  
Title: This Uncertain Dance
Author: HalfshellVenus
Characters: Sam and Dean (Gen, Drabble)
Rating: PG
Summary: For the first time, Sam thinks there might be hope after all.
Author's Notes: Happy Birthday, pheebs1! I hope it's been wonderful. :)
This post-3x10, "Dream A Little Dream" coda is also for supernatural100 and the prompt of "Forgiveness."

x-x-x-x-x

If Dean doesn't want to die, then there's hope. Finally.

He's raced toward the end for months, piling through the Deadly Sins, and it's made Sam lonely and desperate and tired. Like the Dean he once knew was already gone.

"I'm sorry I pushed you away."

He'd confronted Dean with it but the disconnection remained, with Dean still walled off and untouchable. It's the first time Dean's admitted it, and God, it matters—more than Sam expected.

"I understand," Sam says, chest aching. "It's okay."

He forgives Dean for panicking... but not for dying.

Does Dean forgive him for living?


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woman_of_: wincester Brotherswoman_of_ on March 21st, 2009 08:13 pm (UTC)
Wonderful!
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on March 21st, 2009 09:13 pm (UTC)
Thank you! Love the icon-- I haven't seen that one before. :)
woman_of_: wincester Brotherswoman_of_ on March 21st, 2009 09:21 pm (UTC)
It is totally snagable. I got it way back in season one, just credit thesuthernangel if you want to have it!
brigid_tanner: boys-love hugbrigid_tanner on March 21st, 2009 10:47 pm (UTC)
Beautiful and achy.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on March 21st, 2009 11:26 pm (UTC)
Thank you, Brigid!
cindy: spn - emo sammy (by nyaubaby)tsuki_no_bara on March 21st, 2009 11:11 pm (UTC)
aw, sammy. a little hopeful, but mostly really sad. :(
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on March 21st, 2009 11:27 pm (UTC)
At this point, at least they're talking about what's really bothering Dean. And because they don't know what's coming, there's a little hope that Sam can save Dean... which would mean the rest of it would fall away with a brighter future.
redheadforeverredheadforever on March 21st, 2009 11:33 pm (UTC)
Forgive him? Dean's praying with all his nonbeliever's heart he DOES live. It's all he's ever wanted, all he's ever lived for.

Preserve Sammy at all costs. I don't think Canon Sammy quite GOT it.

Beautiful. *roses and chocolates to the author*

Red
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on March 22nd, 2009 06:01 am (UTC)
Preserve Sammy at all costs. I don't think Canon Sammy quite GOT it.
I don't think so either. As hard as the consequences of that choice were, I think Dean went down to the end thinking he'd done the right thing-- the ONLY right thing he could still do.

And I'm so glad you noticed that, too. :)

Thanks so much for the lovely comments!
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The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Samhalfshellvenus on March 23rd, 2009 07:15 am (UTC)
Thank you, Debbie! It's so very much Sam's POV, too, because he doesn't know that as hard as the ending might be, it's still the one Dean would choose all over again.
shaitanah: castielshaitanah on March 23rd, 2009 02:06 pm (UTC)
Heartbreaking and so beautiful! <3 Your drabbles are always so wonderfully precise.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on March 23rd, 2009 08:54 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much, Shaitanah! :D
Pheebs1pheebs1 on March 23rd, 2009 07:15 pm (UTC)
Lovely, what great round ness from Dean not wanting to die, to forgiving Sam for living.. achy ... I am lucky to have been written it, thank you so much!
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Hughalfshellvenus on March 23rd, 2009 08:55 pm (UTC)
I'd intended this to be slashy originally, but it didn't go there and I hope you like the Gen result just as well. Many, many happy returns and while we missed you I hope you had a wonderful birthday with RL friends and family!
Pheebs1pheebs1 on March 23rd, 2009 09:09 pm (UTC)
I love the Gen result entirely as well, thank you!
ErinRua: Samerinrua on March 25th, 2009 04:30 am (UTC)
Wow. Intense and amazing in just a hundred words. Thank you for sharing this!
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on March 25th, 2009 07:26 am (UTC)
I'm so glad you liked it! And welcome back from your trip (especially the hellish holdup in the airport). :0