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21 November 2008 @ 03:51 pm
Supernatural Gen Fiction: "Places To Rest" (PG)  
Title: Places To Rest
Author: HalfshellVenus
Characters: Sam, Dean, John, others (Gen, Drabbles, Drama, Humor)
Rating: PG
Summary: (Spoilers through 4x01) Ten moments in the lives of the Winchesters.
Author's Notes: This is my Sweet Charity story for tsuki_no_bara, who wanted this drabble series to include the boys, John, Jess, Bobby, Ellen and perhaps Hendriksen, and a mixture of drama and lightness. Everyone is here except the hedgehog. :)

x-x-x-x-x

I
John is almost as worried the second time around—once Mary goes into the delivery room, anything can happen and he'll be helpless to stop it. Instead, he paces through the waiting room and phones Mrs. Adleby to check on Dean.

When the doctor calls his name—mask off and smiling—John feels his heart lift right off the floor. He joins Mary (breathless, beautiful), and cradles their baby. Samuel—his name is Samuel.

Dean is waiting with Mrs. Adelby when they get home.

"This is your brother." John holds Dean close and watches his eyes fill up with wonder.


II
Sam loves the motel rooms with little kitchens. They're like playhouses—everything you need in one room.

Sometimes they stay in apartments or houses. Sam hopes for bunk beds someday, so he and Dean can make forts. But he might have to sleep alone then. He can wait a little longer.

After days of driving, they come to a city. Daddy pulls in at a motel office, and Sam and Dean wait out in the car.

When they get to their room, Dean goes in first. "There's a stove!"

"Jiffy Pop!" Sam shouts.

Daddy just laughs. "Make yourselves at home."


III
In high school, Sam decides that Dean's embarrassing. Dad already was, apparently, though Sam kept that pretty damn quiet, but him? With the leather jacket and the awesome car? It's ridiculous.

He decides to make Sam pay.

"I'm Dean," he smiles for the girls. Sam looks mortified.

"Join me for target practice later?" Dean asks in front of Sam's friends.

At the end of the school day, Dean's waiting: "Hey Sammy, need a lift?" Sam just stares.

"Stay away from the school," Sam finally says.

"Why? Stealing your thunder?" Dean smirks.

"No. People think you're a cradle-robbing gun-toting freak."

Oh.


IV
His second year at Stanford, Sam meets Jess in French Lit class. They go out for coffee afterwards—he watches her hair and eyes sparkle in the sun, and wishes he'd met her years ago. Everything before then suddenly seems wasted.

They are different, but they fit together like harmony. He had this with Dean, though it was rough-edged near the end. Dean knew him to the bone, without understanding the things Sam truly wanted. Jess knows who he wants to be—is already, is—but not who he was.

It's not perfect, but it's damn close.

It isn't lonely.


V
Dean's been living in fear since Dad disappeared, chasing clues without ever finding him. Even with Sam here, everything's fractured: Dad won't talk to them and Sam keeps threatening to leave again.

Dean's one bad day away from being completely alone.

When they find Dad in Chicago, it's all Dean can do not to cling like he's four all over again. It makes him ache.

He hates having to split up then, but it'll keep Dad safe. Standing in the shadows, bleeding and broken, Dean forces out that crushing goodbye and drives toward an unknown future in his father's car.


VI
They were at Bobby's a month—he could've said something. Or Dad, anytime in the last twenty years.

A message on Dad's cell phone is how Sam discovers that the hunter network is bigger than a few of Dad's crackpot friends.

"What the hell?" Sam says, as they pull up to The Roadhouse—an actual bar, in public and everything.

"It's practically a clubhouse," Dean gripes. "Probably with secret handshakes and a volume discount on silver bullets."

Sam finds the people inside friendly enough. But the owner—confident, husky-voiced and pretty—makes him wonder if Dad wasn't hiding himself instead.


VII
Dad always said, The details will get you. Dean thought that meant having enough bullets or matches.

Later, he realizes it could mean Going undercover in prison where Sammy winds up in a different cell. Or maybe it's having the F.B.I. dude they ran from track him down while he can't leave.

"You think you're funny," GQ agent says.

"I think I'm adorable." Authority always hacks Dean off.

After planting false clues with his lawyer, Dean and Sam escape to take care of the ghost.

But they'll have to be more careful now.

Hendriksen is a detail Dean won't forget.


VIII
It's just a rabbit's foot—like you can buy at a gas station for a dollar. Two skinned knees and a lost shoe later, Sam has come to respect its evil power.

The 'lucky' part of it wasn't even that great. Some winning lottery-scratcher tickets (probably lost now—should have redeemed those right off the bat), and some incredibly embarrassing restaurant thing where they'll never show their faces again thanks to the publicity and being photographed.

Now Sam's stuck in a motel room, and it's on the attack.

If they find that rabbit's foot again, Sam swears he'll burn it.


IX
"Don't give up hope," Sam keeps saying over the last month, weeks, days.

What Dean doesn't tell him is that he never had much to begin with. He made his deal and the demon came through, and getting that extra year on top of Sam's life was more than he expected.

It doesn't make any of it easier.

"There has to be something!" Sam rages on the phone to Bobby when he thinks Dean can't hear.

The hardest thing isn't leaving (or what's waiting afterward, for all eternity). It's watching Sam's desperation and knowing that the end is already here.


X
This—the world or something else—is barren and dusty, and now it's loud. Dean flinches as the glass-shattering din courses through the air, leaving destruction behind.

Dean doesn't understand any of it. Sam's not answering his phone, and Dean hopes Bobby's at home so he's not driving there for nothing.

He can't help wondering if this is the same world he left.

Bobby's glad to see him (after the paranoid preliminaries) but it isn't enough.

It's not until that motel room door opens on Sam—God, it's really Sam—and he's holding him that Dean let himself breathe again.



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Entendre? Make mine a double.: SN brothers stillnessdeirdre_c on November 22nd, 2008 12:07 am (UTC)
These are WONDERFUL, honey! Perfect small snapshots! *joy*
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 22nd, 2008 12:27 am (UTC)
Thank you, Dei! Mixing all these specific years and characters, with the funny AND the serious, was quite the challenge. A set of all-funny or all-drama would have been easier to write, though not necessarily easy on the reader. :0
(no subject) - labseraph on November 23rd, 2008 05:05 pm (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - halfshellvenus on November 23rd, 2008 07:17 pm (UTC) (Expand)
cindy: the dean show - dean with flowertsuki_no_bara on November 22nd, 2008 01:03 am (UTC)
this is pretty much exactly what i wanted. thank you. ^_^ (altho i wonder if i should've asked for more angst.... and a drabble from the impala's pov. hee.) i really like the roadhouse one, and sam wondering if john wasn't hiding a part of himself from the boys by not telling them about it. (i remain convinced of ellen/bill/john.) wee!sam getting all excited about having a motel room with a kitchen is adorable. and hendricksen's an unexpected detail! gq agent, hee. also the jess one is bittersweet and perfect, and i love sam's classmates thinking dean is just really suspicious, and i love that the first one is dean meeting sam after sam's birth, and the last one is dean holding onto sam after his own rebirth. it's nicely circular.

totally worth it. :D even without the hedge. i can assume the presence of hedgiehair, anyway.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 22nd, 2008 02:23 am (UTC)
Yay-- I'm glad that's what you wanted! There could easily have been more angst-- but given that there were only ten drabbles, and you had kind of a big list (including the mix of light and drama), I didn't want to overdue the dark. Hendriksen was traded for the hedgie, because "crack" really didn't fit in with the rest of these. :0 Similar problem for the Impala POV-- the car is in there, but going to her POV didn't see like it would have worked in this set.

wee!sam getting all excited about having a motel room with a kitchen is adorable.
It's so much cuter, too, than "Why do we have to move around all the time?" Which comes later in Sam's life. At some point, I think it would have felt more like an adventure than a trial. I hope.

and i love sam's classmates thinking dean is just really suspicious
I couldn't resist that-- the combination of Dean thinking that everything he does is Cooler than cool and he'll show Sam why, and instead he's making it worse. Oh, the irony!

and i love that the first one is dean meeting sam after sam's birth, and the last one is dean holding onto sam after his own rebirth. it's nicely circular.
Yay to you for noticing that!

I'm so glad you liked these, and I hope it met with your hopes and expectations for your request. ♥

ruby_jelly: Fireworksruby_jelly on November 22nd, 2008 01:16 am (UTC)
Wow! I'm really impressed, these are precise, and poignant, and oh so true! Congratulations, and thank you.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 22nd, 2008 08:11 am (UTC)
I'm so glad you liked them! There's quite a mix here, and I really just hope that it works well as a set because balancing it was part of the challenge.

Thanks so much for commenting!
Pix: [SPN] S&D - At the crossroads togetherpixel_0 on November 22nd, 2008 05:26 am (UTC)
Oh, these are all excellent! I like how they're different in their tones--some lighter, some darker--and it makes for a really nice mix all around.

I really like this line from #4: It's not perfect, but it's damn close. It isn't lonely. because I think that's so true about Sam's relationship here.

Also, I don't know if you meant it or if I'm just reading too much into it (which, is totally possible), but I thought it was interesting how Mary was described in the first one as being "breathless" and in the last drabble, it ends with Dean being able to breathe again. :)

Excellent job! :)


The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 22nd, 2008 07:04 pm (UTC)
Thank you, Pixel! Tsuki wanted a mixture of tones, and you can understand why when you think of a series of 10 angsty drabbles in succession. Ouch! It's nice to balance the good moments in with the many, many bad ones.

I really like this line from #4: It's not perfect, but it's damn close. It isn't lonely. because I think that's so true about Sam's relationship here.
For all that he loved Jess, he still had to hide part of himself-- and yet she loved the Sam he chose to be and not the one circumstances and his family demanded of him. He must have felt like she knew his desired self more while at the same time knowing absolutely nothing about who he'd been.

but I thought it was interesting how Mary was described in the first one as being "breathless" and in the last drabble, it ends with Dean being able to breathe again. :)
No, I seriously tried to come up with a title that incorporated the concept of breathing/catching breath, but none of them seemed to work.

So glad you enjoyed these! Thank you. :D


Edited at 2008-11-22 07:04 pm (UTC)
brigid_tanner: Dean-I'm adorablebrigid_tanner on November 22nd, 2008 05:37 am (UTC)
Love the mix of happy, funny, serious and sad. Really like the one about the Roadhouse, the next-to-last and the last one. Love that you go full circle from "This is your brother." John holds Dean close and watches his eyes fill up with wonder. to It's not until that motel room door opens on Sam—God, it's really Sam—and he's holding him that Dean let himself breathe again. For Dean, it's always about Sam. Oh, and Dean clinging to John like he was four again...that made my heart ache.

The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 23rd, 2008 07:58 am (UTC)
For Dean, it's always about Sam.
It's the arc of life that the whole show is based on, and the two of them are all that's left now in an already-lonely life. Makes me feel desperate just thinking about it!

Oh, and Dean clinging to John like he was four again...that made my heart ache.
I loved Shadows so much-- the angst, the reunion, the having to split up again even after Dean finally had what he wanted... on the family front, that episode was nearly perfect pain. I still remember how hard it was in S1 for Dean- do you remember them going back to the house in Lawrence, and Dean crying on the phone to John so lost and scared and his father never even answering? *whimpers* The way John kept himself at a distance that season was so hard on Dean, and Shadows was where he finally returned so very briefly.
Cass E. Pants: SPN - brothers no textcass404 on November 22nd, 2008 07:40 am (UTC)
Oooh, I like. It's so many emotions and it never stays in one place, much like the Winchesters.

"No. People think you're a cradle-robbing gun-toting freak."

Bwah!
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 23rd, 2008 07:59 am (UTC)
It's so many emotions and it never stays in one place, much like the Winchesters.
They really do have very up-and-down lives, as well as all-over-the-map lives, don't they?

Bwah!
Oh, the pain of how differently others see you from how you see yourself! :D
maychorian: GUH DEAN IS SO PRETTY AGHmaychorian on November 22nd, 2008 03:58 pm (UTC)
Oh, I really enjoyed these. Thanks so much!
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 23rd, 2008 07:59 am (UTC)
Oh, I'm so glad! Thanks for reading and commenting! :)
devon99 on November 22nd, 2008 06:25 pm (UTC)
These are all lovely, as always, but number four breaks my heart, its a beautiful piece of writing.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Samhalfshellvenus on November 23rd, 2008 08:01 am (UTC)
There's something so painful in knowing that Sam's "Happily ever after" was always going to be based on an enormous lie. Through no fault of his own, because he didn't choose that past and he didn't want to live that life, but it was his history all the same. *sigh*
_ulkis on November 22nd, 2008 06:45 pm (UTC)
I really enjoyed this.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 23rd, 2008 08:01 am (UTC)
Thank you so much! That's lovely to hear. :D
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The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 23rd, 2008 08:03 am (UTC)
Part III, the flip side of Dean's awesome coolness? ;)

I was so pleased to get that level of detail in that particular drabble, because you get Dean's viewpoint on all of it and it looks very macho and impressive, but then it all turns on its head as soon as Sam tells him how it's coming off to his friends.

Even as parents, this is how we unwittingly embarrass our children. :0
enable l♥veenablelove on November 22nd, 2008 06:58 pm (UTC)
OMG this was amazing!
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 23rd, 2008 08:03 am (UTC)
Yay! I'm so glad you think so! ♥
ErinRua: Carry onerinrua on November 22nd, 2008 10:52 pm (UTC)
Wow. Wht an amazing effort and what amazing results. I enjoyed each little word-snapshot greatly, though of course the last one most yanked on my already-bruised heartstrings. :-) Thanks so much for sharing these!

BTW, can I borrow your muses? Mine are sleeping somewhere and won't come out ... ;-)
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 23rd, 2008 08:06 am (UTC)
I think 4x01 was all the harder for the way Sam didn't jump all over Dean being back, because we could feel Dean's huge relief at seeing Sam again (and a little of his panic that Sam went 'off the grid' from him). And I still love the ambiguity of the first half of that episode, where what's happening could so easily be a form of hell and not a return to life at all.

BTW, can I borrow your muses? Mine are sleeping somewhere and won't come out ... ;-)
:D Yours were running riot on PotC not too long ago! Muses are such funny things-- I'm peeved at my SPN muses resisting longer stories these days (and I'm so overdue on the Sam/Dean front), but meanwhile Iron Man wants to go great guns. Who decides these things, anyway?!?
jelly babies to manualthehighwaywoman on November 22nd, 2008 10:55 pm (UTC)
Gorgeousness!
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 23rd, 2008 08:08 am (UTC)
Thank you so much! What a great challenge this was, and all-in-all the easiest of the Sweet Charity stories because it works so easily into the vein of shorter stories and any creative desire to jump around in mood or time period.

These were such fun. :)
Danipinkphoenix1985 on November 23rd, 2008 09:15 am (UTC)
wow this is so good!! you really caught little snapshots of the boys' lives! brilliant!
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 23rd, 2008 07:12 pm (UTC)
Thank you very much! They've been through so much together, and I love the richness of the variety of their experiences. And the angst-- gotta love the angst. :)
piratelfpiratelf on November 23rd, 2008 04:03 pm (UTC)
These are great! I especially love the wee!chesters loving the stove! Thank you!
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 23rd, 2008 07:15 pm (UTC)
Yay-- I'm so glad you enjoyed them!

I know from traveling with my own kids when they were little that they get excited over the most bizarre stuff, and I have to put myself in their position to try to see why something like having your own little table with chairs is so special. :)