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18 May 2008 @ 01:41 pm
Supernatural Slash Drabble: And This We (I) Become (PG-13)  
Title: And This We (I) Become
Author: HalfshellVenus
Characters: Sam/Dean (Slash, Drabble)
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Pre-series, Dean holds out as long as he can…
Author's Notes: For aeroport_art's birthday—she wanted pre-series Sam/Dean, which is a challenge for me so I hope this hits the spot!
Also for supernatural100, this is "Unexpected."

x-x-x-x-x

Sam was eighteen when Dean finally gave in.

Friday night, Dad gone for the weekend, and nothing but Sam's eyes on him wearing down that thin shield of honor.

Every too-long kiss, every barely-ended touch he'd walked away from came to nothing. In the end, Dean fell.

This—Sam's lips on his, bodies joined as one together—was the need he'd so desperately denied. But Sam owned Dean's heart, his love bound Dean's soul.

Is it so bad, when both of us want it?

Dean probably couldn't keep it, not forever, but he took it.

He'd forgotten how happiness felt…


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jelly babies to manualthehighwaywoman on May 18th, 2008 09:24 pm (UTC)
Is it so bad, when both of us want it?

One of my favorite elements of Sam/Dean. *happy sigh* Wonderful!
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam/Dean kisshalfshellvenus on May 18th, 2008 10:23 pm (UTC)
One of my favorite elements of Sam/Dean.

Mine too. It's a scary and bad idea in the abstract, but maybe just for the two of them... it's the answer to everything.

*sighs with you*
saavikam77: Dean Sam - There for yousaavikam77 on May 18th, 2008 09:26 pm (UTC)
Awww!! *hugs Dean* I certainly don't blame him for giving in.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam/Dean kisshalfshellvenus on May 18th, 2008 10:24 pm (UTC)
I certainly don't blame him for giving in.
In the end, the possibility of happiness seems to have been the greatest temptation of all.

I can't blame him either. :)
Destinadestina on May 18th, 2008 09:32 pm (UTC)
Awww, Dean. He deserves to be happy, too. Lovely.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam/Dean kisshalfshellvenus on May 18th, 2008 10:25 pm (UTC)
Thank you, Destina. :)

I think his moments of real and lasting happiness after losing his mother had to be awfully rare. This, at least, is a chance for it to sink all the way down and stay for awhile.

I want that for him more than anything.
sylvanwitchsylvanwitch on May 18th, 2008 09:51 pm (UTC)
Very poignant and powerful. Nice elucidation of Dean's inner conflict. Thanks for sharing!
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam/Dean kisshalfshellvenus on May 18th, 2008 10:27 pm (UTC)
Nice elucidation of Dean's inner conflict.
Oh, thank you!

I can understand why he resists with everything he has, because he's sure it's wrong even if Sam seems to want it too.

But the chance to be loved by the person he also loves, to know what it feels like when it's mutual... how can he resist that for long?
The Grammarian about whom your mother warned you.acostilow on May 18th, 2008 10:24 pm (UTC)
*wibbles*
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Diner Deanhalfshellvenus on May 18th, 2008 10:28 pm (UTC)
*clings to you*

What a life. I'll let him have all the real happiness he can, for as long as it lasts. Because the universe sure isn't on his side. *wibbles with you*
Entendre? Make mine a double.: SN brothers looking slashdeirdre_c on May 18th, 2008 11:31 pm (UTC)
Oh boys. I just want them to be able to get AND KEEP that happiness. *teary eyes*

Lovely, hon.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam/Dean kisshalfshellvenus on May 19th, 2008 03:06 am (UTC)
I just want them to be able to get AND KEEP that happiness.
Me too-- and this one is so bittersweet, because the reader knows what happens months later, even if Dean has no idea. *sniffle*
aeroport_art: awesome!aeroport_art on May 19th, 2008 02:16 am (UTC)
EEEeeeee I love it!!! *smishes*

Sam was eighteen when Dean finally gave in.
Wow, talk about a great hook!

nothing but Sam's eyes on him wearing down that thin shield of honor.
What a sexy image. Especially when one of Sam/Jared's most striking features are his pretty, penetrating eyes.

Thank you so much Karen *__* Did I mention I love this!?!?
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam/Dean kisshalfshellvenus on May 19th, 2008 03:10 am (UTC)
Wow, talk about a great hook!
At least Sam's legal by then. ;) But it gives you some idea of the battle that's been going on for years- whether it's Sam vs. Dean, or Dean fighting himself. Or even... both.

What a sexy image.
Can you imagine being in Dean's shoes there, being watched by those eyes until you can't say No anymore? Especially if those eyes are undressing you and lingering on you and tempting you...

Did I mention I love this!?!?
I hope it helps make the birthday complete, and starts the year off well for you. *fingers crossed and wishes wished* ♥
realpestilencerealpestilence on May 19th, 2008 02:51 am (UTC)
And I bet Sam knew he was leaving all along...
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Diner Deanhalfshellvenus on May 19th, 2008 03:11 am (UTC)
Which just makes you feel all the more for Dean, doesn't it? Happiness finally found... and then stripped away. *cries*
layne: spn  speciallovelayne67 on May 19th, 2008 04:00 am (UTC)
In the end, Dean fell.

I love it when Dean tried to resist, to do the right thing ( not that I'm implying Sam's forcing himself on Dean, not at all ), but yeah, Dean always gives in where Sam is concerned. Always.

Dean probably couldn't keep it, not forever, but he took it.

*is dead*
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam/Dean kisshalfshellvenus on May 19th, 2008 07:57 pm (UTC)
but yeah, Dean always gives in where Sam is concerned. Always.
Eventually, he always does (if there's enough time to reach eventually).

And if he's fighting against himself as well, he's doomed from the start. He's known so little real love that he can't hold out against it forever.
fiery_fox2fiery_fox2 on May 19th, 2008 05:04 am (UTC)

Is it so bad, when both of us want it?

*sighs joyfully*
No, of course it isn't, Dean. And we all want to tape you and your brother together.
*wink*
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam/Dean kisshalfshellvenus on May 19th, 2008 07:58 pm (UTC)
*sighs joyfully*
No, of course it isn't, Dean.

I think the idea of Sam wanting it is hard enough for him- Dean will resist if he thinks it's a bad idea for Sam.

But if Dean wants it too, and wants that extra measure of love he doesn't get... there's no hope he won't eventually give in.
brigid_tanner: boys-tattoobrigid_tanner on May 19th, 2008 12:17 pm (UTC)
Lovely. Really like the phrase thin shield of honor.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam/Dean kisshalfshellvenus on May 19th, 2008 07:59 pm (UTC)
Really like the phrase thin shield of honor.
It says so much about the one thing that's holding Dean back, and how little it will help in the long run.

Always Sam's, beginning to end...
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The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Diner Deanhalfshellvenus on May 19th, 2008 08:00 pm (UTC)
This pushed all of my Dean schmoopy/bittersweet buttons.
Oh, yay! And heaven knows, I've got tons of them myself. :)

It's all so perfect in the end... for now. *cries*
The Huntresshuntress69 on May 19th, 2008 02:20 pm (UTC)
He'd forgotten how happiness felt…

So glad he knows now...nice job and ain't nothing like a drabble from you...they are always welcome....
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam/Dean kisshalfshellvenus on May 19th, 2008 08:02 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much, Huntress!

Oh, the pre-series world is so bittersweet, knowing that even when it's good it'll all fall to pieces soon.

Dean has to enjoy it while he can, unaware of what's looming.
Catherine Winnersunrunnersioned on May 19th, 2008 07:10 pm (UTC)
wow...stunning. Simple beautiful
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam/Dean kisshalfshellvenus on May 19th, 2008 09:09 pm (UTC)
Thank you! This particular setting is a challenge for me, so I hope it came off well. :)
Living In Your Head Without Anything To Numb You..godamnarmsrace on May 20th, 2008 01:25 pm (UTC)
Beautiful Sweetie!
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam/Dean kisshalfshellvenus on May 22nd, 2008 12:57 am (UTC)
Thank you so much! I'm glad you liked it. :)