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27 September 2005 @ 08:49 pm
Prison Break Fanfiction: "Roadmaps" (Lincoln, PG-13)  
Title: Roadmaps
Author: HalfshellVenus
Characters: Lincoln (Gen)
Rating: PG-13 (language)
Disclaimers: I don’t own “Prison Break” or any of its characters. However, I do know a good thing when I see it. Mmmm…
Summary: Lincoln’s choices, and where they led.

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Lincoln more or less knew what people thought of him. He personally thought he was smarter than they gave him credit for, but his life choices hadn’t done much to prove that. Mostly, people thought of him as a brawler who got into trouble.

Michael had always been the smart one, everyone had always agreed on that. This idea seemed a lot less valid lately, ever since Michael had landed himself in prison to bust Lincoln out. Sure, his heart was in the right place, but… come ON. Even Lincoln knew what a bad idea that one was.

Still, when it came to books and learning, Michael was good at that.

What Lincoln had always been good at was protecting Michael. He’d kept him out of trouble, and gotten him to adulthood without too many bumps along the way. He hadn’t been so good at protecting his own interests, true, but he thought he’d done all right by Michael, at least when they were kids.

Looking back on it, he’d covered the physical safety issues pretty well all those years. But the emotional parts—making sure Michael felt loved and secure—well, he might have floundered a little bit there. He hadn’t thought much about it at the time, and it hadn’t occurred to him that concrete actions and words of affection might be more than just extras. He’d been a kid much of that time himself, and he would probably have thought all that was mushy and unimportant anyway.

But now… well, he’d seen enough Dr. Phil and the like over the years to finally realize that it was necessary for kids to know directly that they were loved. Especially by their parents, or people acting as parents, which he essentially had done since their mother died. Basically, if a person needed to decode your actions and behavior to figure out whether you loved them, well, that person was probably headed for trouble later in life.

The kind of trouble, for instance, that might lead him to avoid moving towards settling down and having a nice wife and kids, and instead spend his adult years pursuing a relentless plan to put himself in jail and risk life and limb to save his brother.

Obviously, this was not what he would have planned for Michael. Hell, no sane person could have ever foreseen it.

There were roadmaps for success. And definitely ones for failure, Lincoln could vouch for that, since he’d pretty much followed one as written.

But where was the roadmap for un-fucking-up the mistakes you’d already made, and setting them right? The mistakes that affected other people as well as yourself?

Maybe a smarter man would have had the answer to that one.


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Dragonsinger: Michael -- Taylordragonsinger on September 28th, 2005 06:46 pm (UTC)
Excellent, excellent, excellent! I love how you captured Lincoln and his thoughts. Very, very well done.:)
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphorshalfshellvenus on October 11th, 2005 05:09 am (UTC)
Thank you!

It was a challenge-- when I wrote it, there was no inkling of what kind of person Lincoln was, internally.

All you could see were the results of his actions, and a brother who adored him. And that he speaks very slowly...

I hoped to bring some life into him, and make him interesting. I guess I was getting impatient for the show to do it...
Marcelademonic_cookie on September 30th, 2005 04:10 am (UTC)
This is some of the best characterization of Linc that I've ever read. You just got into his head, and you pulled it off perfectly.

Not book smart but street smart and smarter than anyone gives him credit for, and protective but not sappy. Just SO good. This is what really does me in,

But where was the roadmap for un-fucking-up the mistakes you’d already made, and setting them right? The mistakes that affected other people as well as yourself?

I love this so very much. You're just too talented.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphorshalfshellvenus on October 11th, 2005 05:14 am (UTC)
Thank you-- that is quite a compliment coming from you!

Poor Lincoln. Looking at the debris of his life-- him on Death Row, Michael IN prison and being assaulted, a son that he was never much of a father to-- how he must want to undo all that, and yet how overwhelmingly hard it would be for anyone to consider.

That's a lot of mistakes to fix. Especially if your time is running out.

I don't know if I would want us all to like Lincoln more if Michael didn't care so much, and if he wasn't being played by Dominic Purcell (whom I have a ridiculous weakness for).

I hope I did him justice.
skippy_peanutsskippy_peanuts on October 25th, 2005 07:40 am (UTC)
oh woot in a bucket
that was nifty! i really liked it. you really get into the charater's head. you rock!
ironic sweater vestsestei on November 14th, 2005 01:56 am (UTC)
I really like your take on Lincoln's perspective on Michael's actions. The narrative feels very true to me, and I really enjoy your writing style. The little details really pull the whole thing together, like the little comment about Dr. Phil
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphorshalfshellvenus on November 14th, 2005 03:45 am (UTC)
Thank you very much!

This one was my first Lincoln story-- I think THE first Lincoln fanfic story period-- and it's nice to get new readers.

Did you come here from TWP, or were you going back through the prisonbreak_fix archives?

Or from my homepage on LJ? I have two other Lincoln stories there as well.
faithinfaithfaithinfaith on February 15th, 2006 07:37 am (UTC)
Another great piece from you. :) And boy don't we all know that the problem with life is that there's no going back? :(

Poor, Lincon, he really has a past that gives a lot to wish for, a past that creates a lot angst when it's time to look back... and you shows it in a beautiful way in one story after another.

The last line but a sad smile on my lips because there is no man as smart as that....
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Lincoln by always2nlhalfshellvenus on February 15th, 2006 08:27 pm (UTC)
and you show it in a beautiful way in one story after another.
Thank you :) I really enjoy writing Lincoln, obviously. So many of these earlier stories came out of the show not giving us enough of him. We had no idea who he was or why Michael would care. That motivated me to delve into him, figure out how he worked.

The last line put a sad smile on my lips because there is no man as smart as that....
There really isn't, but it's human nature to think that maybe someone else could accomplish the thing that you've messed up so badly.
If someone shows you who you they are believe themsweetie98 on April 7th, 2006 01:09 am (UTC)
Short and sweet. I liked it.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Lincoln (pensive)halfshellvenus on April 7th, 2006 03:11 am (UTC)
Thank you :) My first Lincoln piece, but still good, I hope!
tyrical: AP_aJolietyrical on April 14th, 2006 02:27 am (UTC)
Maybe a smarter man would have had the answer to that one.

Some how I don't think that's ever going to happen.
I do like how he's thinking about his part in shaping Michael's life.
Knowing that at the time he did what he could do but knowing that maybe that wasn't enough. I hope he does realize that in the end a person makes their own choices and in the end Michael was making what he felt was his own choice.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Lincoln (pensive)halfshellvenus on April 16th, 2006 05:05 pm (UTC)
Some how I don't think that's ever going to happen.
I don't either. As faithinfaith said, "There is no such man." The best you can do is build a better future, and try to take the sting out of your mistakes, if possible. But you can't really fix them-- especially when they involve people.

Knowing that at the time he did what he could do but knowing that maybe that wasn't enough.
He just wasn't perfect enough to keep that up for the long haul, even though he probably did the best that he could.

and in the end Michael was making what he felt was his own choice.
Somehow, I think that like a parent, Lincoln will be forever stuck thinking that this dangerous, hopeless choice Michael made is still his fault. If only he'd done something different/better along the way...

It's like Christmas, having you run through all of these older works :D
mercurybard on July 12th, 2006 11:53 pm (UTC)
No more Dr. Phil for Linc! The thought of him watching it just makes my brain hurt too much.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: DominicSexyhalfshellvenus on July 13th, 2006 05:48 am (UTC)
I can just see Lincoln watching it, going, "Yeah, yeah, yeah... Wait, what?" as part of it finally sinks in.

After you've been in prison for awhile, I imagine even Sesame Street becomes a little entertaining. :0
hybridxlovehybridxlove on November 10th, 2013 05:06 pm (UTC)
You know the characters you write so well, which is why I really enjoy your stories. Well done! :)
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Lincoln (pensive)halfshellvenus on December 10th, 2013 11:57 pm (UTC)
Thank you! This is one of the very earliest Prison Break stories I wrote, inspired in part because Lincoln was such an _underwritten_ character in a series that depended on his brother's devotion as its major motivation.

Lincoln needed to be known better. "Filling in the missing pieces" is one of the things that often gets people into writing fanfiction, and that was certainly the case for me. I'd read it for years, but Prison Break and S1 of Supernatural made me feel the need to write it.