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17 January 2006 @ 01:33 pm
Supernatural FanFiction: Truths Spoken in Anger, Chapter 4  
Author: HalfshellVenus
Category: Sam/Dean (Slash)
Rating: R
Spoilers: Skin (but mostly AU)
Disclaimer: Not mine. Wish they were.
Archive: Ask first


x-x-x-x-x Chapter 4: To The Victor Go The Spoils x-x-x-x-x

The brush of lips across his cheek brought Dean around again, like light filtering through fog. His eyes drifted open. Sam’s head was pillowed next to his own, and his smile was gentle.

“Are you back now?” Sam’s fingers brushed Dean’s cheek.

Dean leaned his head into Sam’s, surrounding him with his arms and holding him in quiet happiness. His fingers slid up to stroke through Sam’s hair and Dean kissed his forehead with unguarded tenderness.

“Does that happen often?” Sam asked.

“What?” Dean’s voice was low and lazy.

“That fading-out thing. Is that a regular event?”

Dean chuckled, shaking his head.

“Well damn,” Sam said. “I’m good.” He nuzzled in closer, mouth on Dean’s neck.

The hand on his head stilled Sam, and he glanced up.

Dean looked uncertain. “Do we need to talk about this?” he said softly.

“Not unless you regret it,” said Sam.

“Oh,” Dean said. “Well in that case, I’ve got nothing to say.”

“Thank god. I’ve got plans for that mouth.”

They kissed languidly for awhile, exploring this new method of speaking without words. After awhile, the room cooled and Sam began to shiver.

“Think I better get some clothes on.” Sam pulled himself up and cast about for something to wear.

“Wasn’t complaining.” Dean’s gaze swept up and down that loose-limbed body, and Sam heaved a pillow at him in response.

“You’re such a perv,” Sam grinned, pulling on a shirt and jeans.

“And you love every minute of it.”

Dean sat up and rubbed his eyes while Sam put his shoes on. He knew what was coming next.

“You know we have to go back,” Sam said quietly. “Finish the job.”

“Yeah, I know.” Part of him wanted to hunt down and torch the fucker for what he’d done to Sam, and the other part just wanted to get them both as far away from here as possible.

“Just give me a little head start.” Sam had his jacket on and a pistol shoved in his back pocket. “I’m going to lure him out.”

Dean felt a chill slip under his stomach, but he just nodded. He packed a gun with hollow-point bullets and another with rock salt as backup. He approached Sam cautiously, but Sam hugged him without reservation.

“Take it slow,” Dean warned him, running his hand down the side of Sam’s face.

Sam kissed him one last time in response. “Don’t be late,” he said. And then he was gone.

It was at Rebecca’s house where Sam found the Shapeshifter again, and he braced himself for the inevitable assault.

A few blows to the stomach later, Sam was on the ground with Dean’s face looming over him. “Back so soon?” the creature taunted. “Just can’t resist that brotherly love, can you? Too bad your brother’s too chicken to ask for what he wants. Could have saved you both some lonely nights on the road all those years ago.” He head-butted Sam, and then ran his tongue over Sam’s lips.

“Dean wouldn’t put me in that position,” Sam said, turning his head away.

“He’d put you in any position he could get you in, preferably down on your knees or bent over a table. Your brother is not that noble, Sam. He’d fuck anything that’d caught his eye.”

Sam struggled underneath the weight of that insinuating body that was thrusting up against him now. “You don’t know shit about Dean,” he said.

The Shapeshifter sat up and pulled his arm back for a nose-breaking punch. Sam saw the burst of red coming through the creature’s chest even before he heard the gunshot, and he shoved the Shapeshifter off to the side and backed out from underneath it.

Dean lowered the gun, his tortured eyes catching Sam’s as he moved forward to reassure him. Becca appeared then, fawning all over Sam, and Dean gritted his teeth.

Now just back up, bitch, he thought, wanting to be the one holding Sam instead. But Sam sat there in a daze and let her fall on him, crying and clinging. Dean turned away, unable to watch it, and the sight of his own body confronted him. It filled him with a sense of foreboding, and suddenly he just wanted to get the hell out.

************

They were back on the road later that night, and Sam had been quiet much too long. He was bruised, he’d left a friend behind again… and he’d seen what Dean would look like if anything they hunted ever got the better of them.

Dean could feel all of that and more floating morbidly through the car. He tried to force a little conversation, even throw in a little humor. Anything to get that stricken look off of Sam’s face.

“Too bad we had to leave so soon,” he said, and Sam’s eyes flitted over his way. Dean made his voice as deadpan as possible. “It’s my only chance to attend my own funeral…I hate to miss it.”

The joke was met with silence, and Sam’s glare showed what a mistake that had been.

“Sorry,” Dean said.

The mood in the car was even worse now than before. Dean let it be this time, keeping his eyes on the road while lost in his own thoughts. 19.2 miles later he pulled out an Aerosmith tape, waving it at Sam in question. Sam motioned him on, and he put the tape in, hands tapping on the steering wheel for the remainder of Side B.

There were a few minutes of silence afterward before Sam finally said something.

"You know, some of the things he said…" Sam began, "You can be such a dick sometimes."

Dean was incredulous. "He said them! Not me. I didn't say any of it!"

"But you know you're thinking stuff like that half the time," Sam persisted.

"Maybe some of it I might be thinking, but not all of it. And I still didn't say it."

Sam looked thoughtful. "I always used to think there was absolutely no filter between your brain and your mouth, but I must have been wrong. Now that I've seen how bad it could actually get."

Dean's eyes slid over, and Sam's smile was three parts evil and five parts fun.

He relaxed a little. "You just like yanking my chain, don't you?"

There was a wicked sparkle in Sam's eyes then, and his smile grew bigger. "Is that an invitation?"

Dean's brain stopped working for about two seconds, and then he stepped on the gas. There was a turnoff up ahead, and a grove of trees down off the side road it led to.

He glanced over at Sam, car bouncing up the offramp.

"Absolutely."

And then they both knew that it was going to be all right.



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Sylph: SN_staresylph_ironlight on January 17th, 2006 10:05 pm (UTC)
oooh, I like it! Definitely worth the extra chaps! Nicely done!
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean slash: icon by Nevcolleilhalfshellvenus on January 17th, 2006 10:12 pm (UTC)
Thank you! I just knew there was more I could do with this, but after I started again and got Chapter 2 and it STILL wasn't going to the slashy, I had to wait awhile longer).

Two months. Must be a record for me. Well, at least it was "complete" beforehand. :-)
Sorrel, the artist formerly known as goddessleilasorrelchestnut on January 17th, 2006 10:09 pm (UTC)
I love the additional chapters. So sweet and happy and them. Loved this.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean slash: icon by Nevcolleilhalfshellvenus on January 17th, 2006 10:14 pm (UTC)
Wonderful to hear, especially after such a big lag.

I think that 4-chapter Genfic I wrote might actually have made expanding this easier. Because I don't really write ChapterFic, even now. I so envy those who can.
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teamaneteamane on January 17th, 2006 11:11 pm (UTC)
I liked it a lOT! :D Very much. :p
I'm very glad you have the 'additional' chapters. Love it.
:D
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean slash: icon by Nevcolleilhalfshellvenus on January 17th, 2006 11:19 pm (UTC)
Thank you!

I think Dean is even happier now than he was after the standalone Chapter 1, too. Lucky boy. ;-)
Stacey: dirt badstaceey on January 17th, 2006 11:14 pm (UTC)
Love love these additional chapters, well worth the wait!

"You just like yanking my chain, don't you?" I'd love to yank his chain for him. ;)
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean slash: icon by Nevcolleilhalfshellvenus on January 17th, 2006 11:18 pm (UTC)
"You just like yanking my chain, don't you?" I'd love to yank his chain for him. ;)

Wouldn't we all? :-D

I could spend a lifetime on those lips alone...

Glad you enjoyed it! Can't believe it took so long to get the follow-on done. (although I wrote some great PrisonBreak stuff, including erotica, during that time :-D)
The Grammarian about whom your mother warned you.acostilow on January 17th, 2006 11:30 pm (UTC)
Was it worth expanding for the additional chapters? Tell me everything!

Fuck yes. This was funny, and hot, and cute, and other REALLY DAMN COOL STUFF.

I loved it.

The Hotness made you do it (previous comment)? Okay. That works for me. :D
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean slash: icon by Nevcolleilhalfshellvenus on January 17th, 2006 11:41 pm (UTC)
This was funny, and hot, and cute, and other REALLY DAMN COOL STUFF.

Hee! I like that last part especially.

Now the boys can ride off into the sunset together... stopping to park occasionally and really appreciate the better things in life. :-D

The Impala never had it so good...
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Raven: Supernatural - Boundsxeraven on January 18th, 2006 01:02 am (UTC)
I think it was worth the expansion. I still like the angst from the first ... I think it does stand well enough on its own.

The expansion is written very well, very in-character, which I like. It seems very canon.

*hugs* I like :)
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean slash: icon by Nevcolleilhalfshellvenus on January 18th, 2006 03:34 am (UTC)
I still like the angst from the first ... I think it does stand well enough on its own.

That's the hard part. I liked it as a standalone too. But then I thought... you know, getting the setup for this is really the hard part, and I did most of that. So why not take advantage of it?

I suppose it's possible to change it yet more, and make the second parts a follow-on fic to the first. *Eternally debating*

I'm glad you liked the expanded version too, though, AND that you thought it was in character. Boy, if it isn't... I'm really doing something wrong. Getting that canon feel AND working the Wincest is victory!

Thanks for your comments, Raven. Finished your scraplet yet?
Are we back to hos over bros?lissa_bear on January 18th, 2006 01:07 am (UTC)
Loved this...all of it! It was definitely worth adding to!

Who wouldn't love yankin' Dean's chain?
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean slash: icon by Nevcolleilhalfshellvenus on January 18th, 2006 03:35 am (UTC)
Who wouldn't love yankin' Dean's chain?

In both senses. Sam was teasing him pretty bad in Chapter 3, and who could resist that either? It's fun to tease Dean, especially when he doesn't see it coming.

So glad you enjoyed. Ahhh. Finally got this story to the really slashy place. My work here is done. :-D
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darkhavens: sn brotherlove [literati]darkhavens on January 18th, 2006 05:25 am (UTC)
I think it was well worth expanding for the additional chapters. But then , I am a confirmed slash-ho. :D
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean slash: icon by Nevcolleilhalfshellvenus on January 18th, 2006 06:17 am (UTC)
But then , I am a confirmed slash-ho. :D

With a pairing like these two, who wouldn't be? Too perfect together. :-)
Nev: Dean - Yesnevcolleil on January 25th, 2006 02:46 am (UTC)
Love the new chapters :) Great job :D
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean slash: icon by Nevcolleilhalfshellvenus on January 25th, 2006 03:13 am (UTC)
Glad you liked it! Definitely gets a little warmer than just chapter 1 :-)

Like the icon, as always. Cloudy evil and Dean's mouth and... that's all we really need :-D
mneiaimneiai on January 25th, 2006 04:31 am (UTC)
Just read this fic and absolutely love it, the Dean pov and especially how Sam isn't just weak and wet after the abuse by the shapeshifter, even if Dean seems to think he should be ^.^
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean slash: icon by Nevcolleilhalfshellvenus on January 25th, 2006 06:10 am (UTC)
even if Dean seems to think he should be ^.^

It's funny, but it's all about balance again. Sam is stronger than Dean thinks, and Dean is weaker than Sam expects.

Glad you enjoyed it! Cute puppy :)
tyrical: SPN_Modernsecret_SD_sittingtyrical on January 30th, 2006 07:38 pm (UTC)

A/N: Was it worth expanding for the additional chapters? Tell me everything!


Yes! It was this my first one of yours that I have read. (I promise I'll go through the rest.) I loved it. Seeing this thur Dean's eyes, hearing the shifter tell the truth, at least his version of it. Sam's reaction. The fact that after seeing Dean's guilt and Dean's hurt, Sammy realized what was up and that he was not alone in his pain. I

That the shifter hadn't taken everything that what was there, what had never left, maybe forgotten, but never lost, and hopefully never able to be broken, is the love they have for one another.

The fact that Dean was seeing his own mortality and so was Sam and how they both reacted to it. I was completely moved by the realism of those parts.

As always wonderful work.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean slash: icon by Nevcolleilhalfshellvenus on January 30th, 2006 08:12 pm (UTC)
Ah, so glad you're catching up! A week or more off will kill you (I'm still struggling after the Christmas break-- behind in all 3 of my major fic reading lists). :(

Well, at least you can always back up through my journal if necessary. I probably have 2-3 posts in the entire thing that are not fic. I'm more apt to jump on someone else's bandwagon than start my own discussion.

hearing the shifter tell the truth, at least his version of it.

The angry and raw "truth," possibly because we can't be sure that the shifter understands deeper human feelings (maygra alluded to this a great deal in her long post-Shapeshifter arc). It recognizes what it understands in a way that's meaningful to it (lust/anger/betrayal), and it uses that to hurt. It still intrigues me how much the shifter gets off on that abuse of people that are strangers to it. I tried to capture that in the combo of headbutting Sam and then licking across his lips. To the shifter, that's perfectly reasonable foreplay. To a human being, that's schizoid.

Very pleased you liked this. It did used to be just the first chapter (for about 2 months), and that had a nice resolution on its own too.
the only blowup doll bobblehead on the internetimpertinence on February 11th, 2006 02:03 am (UTC)
It was definitely worth it! I loved this fic. So sweet and sexy...and hot. Very, very hot. ;)
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean slash: icon by Nevcolleilhalfshellvenus on February 11th, 2006 05:57 am (UTC)
So sweet and sexy...and hot. Very, very hot. ;)

Thank you! That makes it worthwhile that I persisted at it until I got the rest to completion. There was no real pressure, because that first chapter was a great standalone story. Though, after that 2 month gap, most people would have given up.

The Wincest is its own inspiration :)
Little Miss Bossy: supern-impertinence-wincest special helllmbossy on March 17th, 2006 03:32 pm (UTC)
“You’re such a perv,” Sam grinned, pulling on a shirt and jeans.
“And you love every minute of it.”

loved it!
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean slash: icon by Nevcolleilhalfshellvenus on March 17th, 2006 04:01 pm (UTC)
Thank you!

My god, your icon just... Says. It. All.

Go Wincest! ;)
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fpvsfpvs on April 11th, 2006 08:51 am (UTC)
Totally worth every single word of the additional chapters!

I agree, the first chap. was brilliant alone {albeit w/o Smut :P}, but the way you continued, with Dean's thoughts after falling asleep in eachother's arms, then finding that it was exactly what they both wanted/needed... And finally knowing that the fact that they were together, they can deal with all that shit they deal with... *hehe*

... That's all my brain can tell right now.
*loved*
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean slashhalfshellvenus on April 11th, 2006 04:57 pm (UTC)
I agree, the first chap. was brilliant alone {albeit w/o Smut :P}
It was good-- and complete-- but I'd laid the stage for smut that never got there. And I already knew what I wanted for Chapter 2, so... as long as folks are happy stopping when they want to, I guess that works.

Dean's thoughts are like a fic unto themselves. So much pain and difficulty, and not knowing how to get out of that uncomfortable state they've found themselves in. Especially because he's afraid to be left again, when it comes down to it. Now that he knows how much of himself was lost when Sam leaves... it's hard to lay it out there and risk it all happening again. :(

But things work out for him better than he expected. :D And now they have a unit that is stronger than its individual sums. (hotness aside)

More physical distraction, but far fewer emotional ones. ;)

[/rambling] Glad you liked the final result-- and thanks for the lovely comments!
Staciefidelis5588 on November 3rd, 2006 06:35 am (UTC)
SQUEE!!!!

You + Wincest = AWESOME!

Really. I'm in love with this fic.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: SN Lovershalfshellvenus on November 3rd, 2006 07:28 am (UTC)
Thank you so much!

Oh, it's been ages since anyone read this one. *happy sigh*

So nice to know it's still worth reading after all this time. :)