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13 January 2006 @ 10:35 pm
PrisonBreak FanFiction: Having The Answers  
Title: Having The Answers
Author: HalfshellVenus
Character: Michael (Gen)
Rating: PG
Author’s Notes: Written for the prisonbreak100 challenge, where I have the Genfic pairing of Lincoln and Michael. This is for prompt #23, “Lovers.”

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Love is a mystery Michael has yet to solve.

He didn’t date in high school, where he could barely talk to the non-geek girls at all. He made some progress late in college, even going with someone for weeks at a time, but nothing lasted very long. He’d always felt ungrounded, always just obviously out of his depth. There was a whole underlying dynamic going on that he never really understood—phone calls he returned “too late,” times where he went too far or did too little. He never expected that anything could be so complicated as these relationships other people just seemed to have.

He wished back then that he could ask someone about it, but he usually went to Lincoln with his questions, and that was clearly the wrong place to start. Lincoln’s dating habits went to the other extreme—a new girl every week or two, sometimes more than one at a time. That didn’t seem right either. Lincoln might gripe a little when one of those girls broke things off, but it never bothered him all that much when it was over. Michael, on the other hand, had sometimes spent uncomfortable hours listening to the fallout of Lincoln’s messes. Even as a teenager, Michael could tell this wasn’t behavior he wanted to emulate. He might cause pain accidentally, through inexperience or ignorance. But he could certainly avoid doing it out of callousness or carelessness.

He still thinks there should be a dictionary, or a blueprint, for all of these things he just doesn’t get. He’d make his own decoder ring if it would help, if he could find the formula to put into it.

But he knows he’ll have plenty of time to figure it all out, after he breaks in and out of prison to rescue his brother. If he makes it out alive, he can pick up the pieces later and try to feel his way toward normalcy.

Sometimes he wishes that he would meet someone special, and that she would just know all the right things to do and the right ways to be. It would be so nice not to have everything resting on his shoulders, always waiting for him to make that inevitable mistake and ruin it.

He knows it’s a fantasy, and an unlikely one at that. But with all the things he’s hoped for over time, none of which came true, this one is a little different.

It has the ring of possibility.


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BEWARE OF JENMAR.: PB - Brotherly Love - Lincoln & Michaelclex_monkie89 on January 14th, 2006 07:04 am (UTC)
Aww! So sweet, I really love this a lot. And I would be more intelligent in this response but I'mm all winky right now.
The Good, The Bad and The Lana: happy hug Veronicathelana on January 14th, 2006 07:07 am (UTC)
Geeky!DecoderRing!Michael ;D
(no subject) - clex_monkie89 on January 14th, 2006 07:12 am (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - halfshellvenus on January 14th, 2006 07:27 am (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - clex_monkie89 on January 14th, 2006 07:42 am (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - halfshellvenus on January 14th, 2006 07:48 am (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - clex_monkie89 on January 14th, 2006 07:53 am (UTC) (Expand)
The Good, The Bad and The Lanathelana on January 14th, 2006 07:06 am (UTC)
I love, love, love it endlessly. I can so see all that. Both Michael being perturbed that courting has to be so longwinded and messy and hoping for someone where he just doesn't need all that and kid!Michael having to listen to the stories of Lincoln's has beens.

And the decoder ring thing? Awww, so adorably geeky :)

Randomly, do you crosspost these to prisonbreak_fic as well?
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphorshalfshellvenus on January 14th, 2006 07:30 am (UTC)
And the decoder ring thing? Awww, so adorably geeky :)

Hee! I don't think geeks ever give up the love of the magicDecoderRing fixing their problems. Why, I'd buy one right now myself!

And yes, I do post these to prisonbreak_fic. But it takes varying amounts of time for them to get posted, due to the moderation thingy and also the mystery of what happens when I post it and "the queue is full." Sometimes, it gets lost (which I kind of expect, so I repost). Sometimes it goes through, which is always a surprise.

If you were asking about prisonbreak100, I post them there too, of course. Can't meet my table challenge without posting them to that group!
Are we back to hos over bros?lissa_bear on January 14th, 2006 08:15 am (UTC)
But it takes varying amounts of time for them to get posted, due to the moderation thingy

Yeah, what's up with that? Sometimes mine post immediately and other times it takes hours.

But for the real reason I'm here, to rave about this adorable fic...I loved it!!! So cute! I know that I'm repeating thelana here, but I love the image of Michael listening to the whining of all of Lincoln's cast offs.

The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Lincoln by always2nlhalfshellvenus on January 14th, 2006 08:28 am (UTC)
So glad you liked it!

I love the image of Michael listening to the whining of all of Lincoln's cast offs.

Don't you just feel for him? And there had to be a LOT of them. :-(

Really, it's almost suprising Lincoln lived long enough to make it to prison without an ex-girlfriend putting a knife in his ribs. Not to insult the LincSexy, but can't you see it? "Oh, baby, that was great. So hot. Well, gotta go... Hey! That hurts!"
(no subject) - thelana on January 14th, 2006 08:35 am (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - halfshellvenus on January 14th, 2006 08:38 am (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - thelana on January 14th, 2006 08:47 am (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - halfshellvenus on January 14th, 2006 06:00 pm (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - thelana on January 14th, 2006 06:24 pm (UTC) (Expand)
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(no subject) - halfshellvenus on January 14th, 2006 06:01 pm (UTC) (Expand)
tyrical: PB_Alazysod_Scofieldtyrical on January 14th, 2006 04:57 pm (UTC)
It's like I discovered a new aspect of Michael's psyche. This is like a small character study on Michael Scofield.

I love you doing this challenge.

You seem to find aspects of the character's personality that I have not thought of. I feel like I know him better. Another peek into the man you think Michael is and I love it. It also gives new insight to the longer fics you've written about these men. Which makes me love even more!

The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphorshalfshellvenus on January 14th, 2006 06:06 pm (UTC)
I love you doing this challenge.

And I actually have two challenges. One is the slash one, for fanfic100, and then this is the Gen one for prisonbreak100. And then there's all the free-standing Gen pieces I write that cover other characters.

Have you visited my homepage, tyrical? There are tons of both Prison Break and Supernatural fics there. If you haven't already read them, you might enjoy all of the Lincoln-centered ones, and the two T-Bag ones. Plus, Final Hours.

Thank goodness I only do intermittent SN challenges (like the drabbles), or I would be brain ded right now. :-)

Glad you liked this one!
(no subject) - tyrical on January 15th, 2006 06:17 pm (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - halfshellvenus on January 15th, 2006 06:29 pm (UTC) (Expand)
she said mysteriouslyresounding_echo on January 14th, 2006 05:41 pm (UTC)
This was great. I loved your contrast of Mike and Linc, and liked how you linked it to Linc's inability to give sound advice in any that department.

Also, great job of including subtle little Michael-isms throughout such a short piece. Like the reference of relationships that are complicate that come so easily to others, or the bit about needing the correct formula. Ah Michael, I'll be your geek-girl. *ahem*

It would be so nice not to have everything resting on his shoulders, always waiting for him to make that inevitable mistake and ruin it.

This is my favorite line. You capture both his meticulous nature and his subtle arrogance.

Glad you're writing like a mad-woman! Keep up the good work.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphorshalfshellvenus on January 14th, 2006 06:11 pm (UTC)
Good to have you back, jules1013! We've missed you!

how you linked it to Linc's inability to give sound advice in any that department.

I'm sure there are areas he can cover soundly. But relationships, and anger-management, and staying within the law... not so much :-)

Like the reference of relationships that are complicated that come so easily to others,

This is one of the more frustrating aspects to both more logical AND more sensitive people. And Michael is both. Me too, for that matter :-). People are both more mysterious and hurtful than such people expect.

I'm glad you enjoyed this one. Lots more to come!

(no subject) - thelana on January 14th, 2006 07:24 pm (UTC) (Expand)
BEWARE OF JENMAR.: PB - Cavity Search - Privateclex_monkie89 on January 14th, 2006 08:58 pm (UTC)
It would be so nice not to have everything resting on his shoulders, always waiting for him to make that inevitable mistake and ruin it.

I think this may be my favorite line out of the fic. It's just so perfectly Michael, he "knows" he'll mess it up if he takes the chance and he just wants one thing to not rely completely on him.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphorshalfshellvenus on January 14th, 2006 10:20 pm (UTC)
It's just so perfectly Michael, he "knows" he'll mess it up if he takes the chance and he just wants one thing to not rely completely on him.

Yes, he doesn't understand how it all works... but at least he knows that about himself, and that if it all depends on him he will eventually mess it up (unless he either finally does get it, or someone more relaxed and forgiving comes along).

It's not like he's had great exposure to long-lasting relationships that work out, unfortunately. :-(
(no subject) - clex_monkie89 on January 14th, 2006 10:40 pm (UTC) (Expand)
Fish: LJrhymeswithghoti on January 14th, 2006 10:58 pm (UTC)
I don't tell you often enough how much I enjoy your fics. They often leave me speechless. I love how Michael is just inexperienced enough to not know how to deal with a relationship, but smart and sensitive enough to try to avoid it. Geeky!Michael is so sweet, and the characterization was great.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphorshalfshellvenus on January 15th, 2006 05:54 am (UTC)
They often leave me speechless.

That's wonderful feedback all by itself! I'm so glad you like them. :-)

just inexperienced enough not know how to deal with a relationship, but smart and sensitive enough to try to avoid it. Geeky!

And not just inexperienced, but to some degree he just doesn't get a lot of the subtleties of human behavior, I think-- and courting behavior is about the most difficult and complicated of all.

And his geeky solution IS pretty smart, as you noted. He can put it on the back burner for awhile, and hope to either better understand how it goes, or have someone take the reigns for him who is willing and who has a clue.

Thank you for your kind words :-)
dirtandweeds on January 15th, 2006 01:29 am (UTC)
I can imagine Michael would be a good listener, as he most likely would be if he had poor social skills. It's cute that for a guy as difficult as him, he would find something so human as relationships difficult.

Why must he be so loveable? why?

PS: Story. Good. sqee.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphorshalfshellvenus on January 15th, 2006 05:57 am (UTC)
Why must he be so loveable? why?

He's the kind that someone will snap up later, wondering why he's still available, and it's because he was overlooked by girls on the "smooth" or "wallet" or "status" track... and noticed by someone looking for substance. And who would not be put off by some occasional awkwardness (as in, would find that more endearing than nerdy).

PS: Story. Good. sqee.

Thank you!

Love the little oyster babies. Why must they be so cute? And so doomed?
(no subject) - dirtandweeds on January 15th, 2006 06:16 am (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - halfshellvenus on January 15th, 2006 06:43 am (UTC) (Expand)
mooyoomooyoo on January 15th, 2006 09:59 am (UTC)
Very nice. Been having trouble picturing Michael's past relationships, liked this a lot, especially the beginning, his misunderstanding of relationships and how to really go about it and such.

</i>He never expected that anything could be so complicated as these relationships other people just seemed to have.</i>

Perfect, seems very Michael and also very relatable - most people probably feel that way, like everyone around them can just do romance and relationships so easily except them.

He still thinks there should be a dictionary, or a blueprint, for all of these things he just doesn’t get.

Like this picture of Michael, often on the outside of things and unable to really understand a lot of seemingly everyday but intangible things like love and relationships
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphorshalfshellvenus on January 15th, 2006 05:23 pm (UTC)
Been having trouble picturing Michael's past relationships, liked this a lot, especially the beginning, his misunderstanding of relationships and how to really go about it and such.

This just seems so Michael to me, and is so typical for highly intelligent people (usually bookSmart, not peopleSmart). And as you and I have discussed before, he can be very unaware of subtle cues in human interaction that tell other people what's going on. E.g., that he's pushing a little too hard and someone's beginning to get angry. He'll eventually notice it, when it's not so subtle... but by then it might be too late.

Perfect, seems very Michael and also very relatable - most people probably feel that way, like everyone around them can just do romance and relationships so easily except them.

And that's the funny thing. He may expect it to be easier for him, because he's so smart, but it's more complicated for almost everyone than he realizes.

Glad you enjoyed this. :-)
faithinfaithfaithinfaith on February 15th, 2006 04:24 pm (UTC)
This one is really cute, and really Michael. :) Someone once told me; don't think, just feel. I think that fits on this. :)
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphorshalfshellvenus on February 15th, 2006 08:30 pm (UTC)
Someone once told me; don't think, just feel. I think that fits on this. :)

It really does. Unless you're making bad (harmful) choices in Love, those decisions should be made with your heart and not your head. Unfortunately, if you're the type that likes to analyze everything to death (like Michael), that just may not occur to you.

He's looking for the logical in an illogical thing.
i'm chris, not dustin (bella): Sara/Michaelaccrues on March 9th, 2006 09:36 pm (UTC)
Aww, brillint :) Specialy this:

He still thinks there should be a dictionary, or a blueprint, for all of these things he just doesn’t get. He’d make his own decoder ring if it would help, if he could find the formula to put into it.

So.. geeky!michael! And it works so well with him being lost with the love. Great :)
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphorshalfshellvenus on March 9th, 2006 10:04 pm (UTC)
He still thinks there should be a dictionary, or a blueprint, for all of these things he just doesn’t get. He’d make his own decoder ring if it would help, if he could find the formula to put into it.
Glad you liked this story. :) This part here describes how anyone (but especially a scientific type) feels about how to make sense of the insensible. It's as if there should be some deterministic way to get to an answer or solution... forgetting entirely that people vary too much in mood and personality (or even day to day!) for their reactions to be deterministic. But he doesn't get the part about having a 'feel' for someone and how they work-- mainly because that's more instinct-based and not logic-based.

So.. geeky!michael! And it works so well with him being lost with the love. Great :)
You really get the impression from the show that, despite how cute the audience thinks he is, he isn't all that successful in his romantic life and really has no idea what's attractive about him. He's a little awkward. Whereas, with a "cool" personality and those same looks-- he'd be totally having a different life. And of course, everyone wants to be the one that sees under the geekiness to the gem of sweetness that lies underneath. ;)