February 15th, 2021

Venus

Idol Survivor: "Unspun"

Unspun
idol survivor | week 11
You Shook Me

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One dark midnight—
terrible winter,
freeze-borne breath—
I stood tree-cloaked
and silent, waiting
moonward, listening
outward, wanting
with sideways-hoping
a sign pointing forward,
some sense of stepping
from the shadows
and at last being seen.

The world was too cruel,
ruthless and dream-spinning
onward, my light no brighter
than the night-birds
twittering skyward,
singing the stars
into the void of un-being.

From the blackness
behind me, a voice
came slithering
down the trees, slipped
into the husk of me, around
the wind-rattled heart
of me, and found
the careful secrets
of my forgotten self
bound and buried
where I'd always
thought them safe.

"This," it whispered,
peeling away the sinew
lacing, icy fingers
deftly unraveling
the stiffest layers
of awful armor
vainly guarding the truth.

I shivered in terror,
scream-scattered words
lost in twine-tongued torpor,
feet fright-frozen and faithless
as that unknown evil
exposed and devoured
my private victories
and lighthearted longings,
leaving only the untouched
remnants of my deepest regrets.

Nothing could have known
that part of me, the names
of all those precious seeds
of my existence
rooted deep
and painstakingly hidden
inside the silence
of my soul.

It seeped out of me at last,
that monstrous intruder
I had unwittingly called
from the shadows
or somehow summoned
from the Other Side.

Then, in the bleak
and unforgiving blackness
of that terrifying night,
I shrank inward, disappearing,
and desperately wanting
to be invisible again.


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