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22 November 2007 @ 12:15 am
Supernatural Gen Drabble: Warning Signs  
Title: Warning Signs
Author: HalfshellVenus
Characters: Sam and Dean (Gen)
Rating: PG
Summary: 100-word drabble on “Hearing” for 100_ghosts.

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“I’m so sick of all this, of my whole life being jerked around for every phantom promise in the wind. This’ll be just like the other times—it’ll dead-end within a month, but we’ll be stuck living someplace else.”

“It’s not so bad, Sammy, c’mon. How many kids your age have seen what you have, or even heard of all the places you’ve been?”

“I’ve had it, Dean. I’m serious. I’m not gonna keep doing this.”

Sam left them for Stanford later that year, and Dean couldn’t help wishing he’d actually heard what Sam had been telling him all along.


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Steffi: Supernatural - Sam AntiChristlegoline on November 22nd, 2007 08:22 am (UTC)
Oh, I like this. Very nice job :)
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 22nd, 2007 06:58 pm (UTC)
Thank you! Boy, the contrast between Sam's complaints--which were actually reasonable-- and the ease with which the rest of the family ignored them just cries out for this kind of situation.
Pheebs1pheebs1 on November 22nd, 2007 08:44 am (UTC)
Aw, lovely!
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 22nd, 2007 06:58 pm (UTC)
Thank you, Pheebs!
layne: spn brotherslayne67 on November 22nd, 2007 09:04 am (UTC)
Ouch. That hurts :/
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 22nd, 2007 06:59 pm (UTC)
Maybe it was because Sam was the youngest, but I'm sure both Dean and John thought that he'd bitch about the situation forever but never actually do anything about it. How wrong they were. :(
getting the chocolate in the peanut butter: samcanvasdotfic on November 22nd, 2007 04:14 pm (UTC)
That's spot-on and sharp -- I think that's how it might have gone. Nicely done.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 22nd, 2007 07:01 pm (UTC)
Thank you, Dot! Funny how a "problem" that doesn't really bother you doesn't seem real, until it's shoved in your face and it's too late to try to fix it.
jelly babies to manual: candlelightthehighwaywoman on November 22nd, 2007 05:40 pm (UTC)
Ooh, I like this!
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 22nd, 2007 07:01 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! :)
smashing the gender binary (with a fork!): Samangelikitten on November 22nd, 2007 07:18 pm (UTC)
*squishes Sam and Dean*
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 22nd, 2007 07:49 pm (UTC)
Hindsight's just lethal sometimes, isn't it?

Love the hilarious wrong in your icon! :D
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The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 23rd, 2007 08:28 am (UTC)
that Dean and his father just didn't get - or didn't want to get.
Oh, and when you think someone's attitude is wrong, you tend to listen even less. :(
iamstealthyoneiamstealthyone on November 23rd, 2007 02:42 am (UTC)
Oh, boys.

Nicely done.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 23rd, 2007 08:28 am (UTC)
Thank you! And Happy Thanksgiving! :D
(no subject) - iamstealthyone on November 23rd, 2007 07:37 pm (UTC) (Expand)
Ruthjust_ruth on November 23rd, 2007 02:56 am (UTC)
Not unlike some of the comments I've heard from army/navy/air force brats - it isn't all the places you've been, it's that you never end up being anywhere Very realistic, nice job!
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 23rd, 2007 08:30 am (UTC)
it isn't all the places you've been, it's that you never end up being anywhere

And sometimes, I wonder if it isn't also the feeling that you just never end up being. Who are you? What was your life, who were your friends, your childhood memories? It's like you never get to settle anywhere long enough to have a true past, not like other people.

Thanks for reading!
ErinRua: brotherserinrua on November 23rd, 2007 03:35 am (UTC)
Wow, this just rings so tragically true. Sam was never asking for anything unreasonable, never wishing for anything that shouldn't have been his. It was only wrong for their way of life. I've often wondered about the years of Sammy growing up and realizing just how *not* normal his family was, and hungering all the while for something better. *sniff* Oh, boys.

~ Erin
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 23rd, 2007 08:33 am (UTC)
It was only wrong for their way of life.
Exactly-- and he didn't have something like a military family to force that behavior. It would be impossible for him not to see a lot of this as his father's whims, and those whims have a price for Sam. :( That's something he and I share, actually, so it's kind of a touchy spot for me!

and realizing just how *not* normal his family was, and hungering all the while for something better.
Or even just something stable. It's like he doesn't have a frame of reference for his childhood-- everything's shifting in the background, and he feels as constantly unsettled as everything around him. :(
(no subject) - erinrua on November 24th, 2007 04:21 am (UTC) (Expand)
Deadbeat Nymph: dean serious beigedeadbeat_nymph on November 23rd, 2007 04:08 am (UTC)
Ouch. That smarts. And yet, it's so true; from what we know of canon, Sam had been telling them for years what they couldn't hear until after he was gone.

What's extra sad is that even if Dean had heard him, what could he have done about it? John still couldn't hear Sam even years afterward. And I don't think he ever heard Dean at all.

Oh, boys... *sniffles*
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 23rd, 2007 08:36 am (UTC)
Sam had been telling them for years what they couldn't hear until after he was gone.
Oh yes-- because in John's eyes what Sam was saying was unreasonable and even disloyal, and so what needed to change was Sam's attitude and not the way they lived.

What's extra sad is that even if Dean had heard him, what could he have done about it?
If nothing else, he would have been better prepared for the blow of Sam leaving. And he might have tried to get their father to see that Sam wasn't kidding (for all the good that would have done).

And I don't think he ever heard Dean at all.
This aspect of Dean, and his relationship with John, is one where you and I agree to a brain-sharing degree. I don't think John ever knew who Dean was at all-- he never looked down inside him for anything that wasn't the good soldier he'd raised Dean to be. :( :(
(no subject) - erinrua on November 24th, 2007 04:25 am (UTC) (Expand)
cindy: spn - ouija handstsuki_no_bara on November 23rd, 2007 06:33 am (UTC)
aw, boys. :( poor sam - he just could not get across to john and dean how weird their life was and how badly he wanted to be normal. but even if dean could hear what sam was saying, what would it have changed? he couldn't have made sam stay.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 23rd, 2007 08:40 am (UTC)
he just could not get across to john and dean how weird their life was and how badly he wanted to be normal.
Even just the desire to stop being in flux is something that his father didn't appear to hear or care about, and that didn't register with Dean. It's more than apple pie and white picket fences, it's stability and a sense of belonging in a fixed context. Sometimes it's hard to feel like you have an identity when you lack that.

he couldn't have made sam stay.
I agree completely, but I think Dean was woefully unprepared to lose Sam when he left-- maybe he regrets not making Sam feel heard, or maybe he's reeling from the shock of having his best friend run out the door Sam was never supposed to see. :(
shaitanah: michael/mahoneshaitanah on November 23rd, 2007 01:15 pm (UTC)
Oooh, love this! ^_^
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 23rd, 2007 07:54 pm (UTC)
Thank you!

Oh, I like the icon. I'm a Michael/Lincoln girl, but the Michael/Mahone appeal is totally obvious. Especially during that scene. ;)
(no subject) - shaitanah on November 24th, 2007 08:27 am (UTC) (Expand)
tyricaltyrical on November 23rd, 2007 06:18 pm (UTC)
pesky hindsight.
Everything is crystal clear when you're looking back on it.
:pets: Dean. No matter how hard we try we're just not perfect.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on November 23rd, 2007 07:56 pm (UTC)
pesky hindsight.
It IS pesky-- sometimes I think we'd almost be happier if we never realized what we'd overlooked before! Though then we wouldn't learn.

No matter how hard we try we're just not perfect.
And we can't fix every problem that we encounter. :(
oxoniensis: fandom: spn barely holding it togetheroxoniensis on November 23rd, 2007 10:20 pm (UTC)
So very believable!
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Diner Deanhalfshellvenus on February 11th, 2008 06:57 pm (UTC)
Thank you, Signe!

Can't believe I somehow missed this comment. Sorry!