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11 October 2007 @ 08:05 am
Prison Break Gen Fiction: Salvation Never Comes  
Title: Salvation Never Comes
Author: HalfshellVenus
Character: Young Michael (Gen)
Rating: PG
Summary: His ears are full of the sound of his own breathing as he listens for the footsteps he fears…
Author's Notes: My third story for pbficsurvivor, this one for tragedy. Also for my prisonbreak100 Michael and Lincoln Gen claim, this is #74 "Dark."

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Michael can tell when it's daytime. That's when the streak of light under the door creeps in brighter and brighter, when it's different from the yellow of the hallway lamp.

He thinks he's been here four days so far, but it's hard to be sure. He sleeps a lot, locked up alone in the dark. When he's awake, his ears are full of the sound of his own breathing as he listens for footsteps coming closer.

He tries not to make any noise, tries not to be noticed— tries not to be. He learned to cry silently on the first day, because Mr. Lazenby beat him whenever he heard it. He learned that they were "Mr." and "Michael," and that there were worse things than losing your family—worse things even than being dead.

Their mother has been gone three months now. That's how Michael thinks of it when he has to— that's she's gone. He tried the other words out a few times at the beginning, wanting to be ready in case anyone asked: "Mom died." But they stuck in his throat, a strangled squeak instead of a human sound. He doesn't try to say them anymore. Just thinking them still feels like betrayal.

After those people… after… he and Lincoln were taken to the Children's Home, led to a pair of beds that still smelled like the last kids who had used them. They'd been allowed to take some extra clothes and a few favorite things (and Michael was too old to take Fuzzy Monkey, but if he'd known he would have done it anyway), and that was all. What happened to the rest of their things, he doesn't know. They never went back home after that, not even after the funeral. They lost all say in their own lives from the moment their mother was gone.

Michael never expected to be separated from Lincoln. "Have a little faith," Lincoln had said by the lake that day, and Michael had believed him. He'd tried and tried, even though prayers hadn't saved their mother or even brought their father back home. Maybe he doesn't understand how this is supposed to work, because they didn't get a new family and they don't have each other now. If God's listening, why is Michael locked in this closet wondering when the next time's coming, wondering how much it'll hurt and if he'll be so scared he wets his pants?

There's a creak on the stairs, and he freezes, not daring to breathe. He used to cry out, hoping someone would rescue him, someone passing by who maybe wasn't Mr. Lazenby. That first night he called for Lincoln, and he knew Lincoln was clear across the city, but why didn't it work—why couldn't Lincoln hear Michael in his heart?

Now Michael just waits, silent and shaking, for the sounds that make his mouth go dry and his legs turn to rubber and—

There. Someone's right outside the door now, heavy feet that mean Mr. Lazenby's going to beat him again.

Oh-God-oh-God-oh-God-oh-God—

But it makes no difference. Even as the words fill his head, the doorknob keeps on turning.


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sjennez on October 11th, 2007 08:50 pm (UTC)
wow! So sad but beautifully written. You should make this into a long long story, I'd read it all. I love people's interpretations on their childhoods. I wished they had more flashbacks in the show,they give so much insight to teh characters.

Well,poor poor Michael. Especially considering he doesn't get much salvation in the show either.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: MichaelInBarshalfshellvenus on October 12th, 2007 12:54 am (UTC)
This must have been such a terrible time in Michael's life, and we don't even know how long it lasted, but that kind of damage and fear last forever. :(

I wished they had more flashbacks in the show,they give so much insight to teh characters.
I was really hoping for that with Season 2, and instead we got a glimpse of this little scenario, and then nothing else. I really wanted to see more of what the brothers went through-- both before and after their mother died. Instead, I'm left to write it.

So glad you liked it! Thanks for reading. :)
Maz (or foxxy!): St Michaeltuesdaeschild on October 12th, 2007 11:32 am (UTC)
I have to confess that my lower lip wibbled and I had to swallow hard past the lump in my throat because this is just so sad. I think to say that it moved me is totally understating it.

But for all it's sadness it's still beautiful in a terrible way. Does that make sense? Things can be terrible and beautiful at the same time, can't they?

Anyway, I loved it!
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: MichaelInBarshalfshellvenus on October 22nd, 2007 08:00 pm (UTC)
I'm so glad you liked this one. Such a terrible time in Michael's life, or the life of any child-- and it got glossed over on the series to show us what a "hero" Aldo was which made it more about Aldo than Michael. :(

Terrible and beautiful all at once makes perfect sense to me. Thank you!
Maz (or foxxy!): Pensive Michaeltuesdaeschild on October 23rd, 2007 09:56 am (UTC)
I think you're right; the writers shifted the emphasis and missed out on an even sadder aspect of Michael's early years. Aldo wasn't a 'hero'. He was selfish and greedy and his wife and sons deserved better.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: MichaelInBarshalfshellvenus on October 23rd, 2007 03:19 pm (UTC)
Aldo wasn't a 'hero'. He was selfish and greedy and his wife and sons deserved better.
Exactly-- I don't know how the writers thought they'd redeem Aldo with that moment. He abandoned his family in favor of his job, he let his sons go into foster care after their mother died, he killed a man right in front of his son (!), and then let Michael go right back into foster care again.

Had he done what he should have to begin with, Michael never would have been put in that situation. Or had the possibility of re-experiencing it in another foster-home placement. *kicks writers for their stupidity*
Maz (or foxxy!): Pensive Michaeltuesdaeschild on October 24th, 2007 11:34 am (UTC)
Absolutely!! And though the writers have gotten a lot of stuff right this was one of the things they got horribly wrong. It made for dramatic viewing but it was still uncomfortable to imagine a child going through what they put little Michael through.

*joins in to slap writers around a bit*