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02 July 2007 @ 12:30 am
Supernatural Gen Drabble: But The Crowd Is Silent  
Title: But The Crowd Is Silent
Author: HalfshellVenus
Character: Sam (Gen)
Rating: PG
Summary: Drabble on "Pride" for 100_ghosts.

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It was different with his family, though Sam's not sure if they still think of themselves as family anymore.

They noticed his good grades, and their praise was genuine— both Dad's and Dean's alike. They didn't understand his obsession with academics, but they accepted it as part of who he was.

Until it went too far.

The scholarship that brought him to Stanford was both salvation and condemnation at once. He proves himself worthy of it over and over, with essays and tests.

Sam's damn proud of himself, as he should be— has to be.

There's no-one else who cares.


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The Grammarian about whom your mother warned you.acostilow on July 2nd, 2007 07:45 am (UTC)
Ha! First again!

Also, omg, beautiful. I don't know how you do it, but you rip me to pieces when you write the boys.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on July 2nd, 2007 07:47 am (UTC)
:D I have so missed your being first! It's been forever!

And I still wonder why you never sleep, because you're two hours off from me I think (nearly 3am your time?). :0

This prompt could have been so many things, but when I think of the obvious parts of "Pride" and the Winchesters I think of where there should have been pride but it ultimately soured. :( Aw, Sam...
The Grammarian about whom your mother warned you.acostilow on July 2nd, 2007 07:52 am (UTC)
I know! *tiny flappy hands*

Oh, is it? *checks clock* Oh. Um. Well, I'm writing evil!het (as in, het is evil, omgwhyamIwritinghet, not...anyways), so I didn't realize it was that late.

Yes. Poor Sam. I'm proud of you, baby! :D
shaitanah: pb_michaelshaitanah on July 2nd, 2007 08:05 am (UTC)
You almost made me feel sorry for Sam)) Almost.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Samhalfshellvenus on July 3rd, 2007 07:25 am (UTC)
:D I do feel sorry for Sam (I hate the hard line John took with him on going to college), and I like his clarity on what their lives were vs. how they should have been. I just feel much sorrier for Dean, is all. :)
shaitanahshaitanah on July 3rd, 2007 07:29 am (UTC)
I definitely like Dean more and feel much sorrier for him. I was okay with Sam in the beginning bust starting from Season 2 he's grown just so boring(( I even wrote a fic where Dean almost tells him what a grand nuisance he is))
Ah yes, quite a bunch of us, isn't it?unhobbityhobbit on July 2nd, 2007 08:50 am (UTC)
*sniffle* Sam, there are other people who care! There are! They're proud of you!
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Samhalfshellvenus on July 3rd, 2007 07:26 am (UTC)
There are! They're proud of you!
But they're just never the same as the people who reallly matter to you.

It's so unfair, really. Why did John have to be so nuts on that particular topic? :\
The Good, The Bad and The Lanathelana on July 2nd, 2007 10:08 am (UTC)
You always have the best titles :)
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Samhalfshellvenus on July 3rd, 2007 07:26 am (UTC)
:D I struggled with what to call this one for a good half-hour. Guess it was worth it. :)
The Good, The Bad and The Lanathelana on July 3rd, 2007 08:25 am (UTC)
I have to say, it really quite resonated with me (and you know me, I always feel a bit sorry for Sam, this fic rightfully points out that probably few people realize how much huger his efforts probably were compared to everyone around him because he had to reject this whole world he grew up with; Dean and John probably knew, but their appreciation of his efforts is probably somewhat skewed that they must on some level think that he just went the wrong way. Like "Good effort, but the wrong way9.

But it really is a very generally applicable story. I think everybody has (and I know you do, at least in a fannish way) some experience with walking the unpopular road in their life and not really getting much recognition for it.
bluesister on July 2nd, 2007 03:01 pm (UTC)
I had trouble with this prompt (per always) so I'm interested in others' take on it. I like that you avoided hitting only one note: there is pride but then Sam pushes into unacceptable behaviour. Pride with a limit...interesting.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Samhalfshellvenus on July 3rd, 2007 07:28 am (UTC)
there is pride but then Sam pushes into unacceptable behaviour.
And heavens, only in Winchester-land would his ultimate choices have been bad and cut off his family's approval.

It's the contrast of what should have been a source of pride and where it went wrong that made this one fun for me. :)
cindy: spn - ouija handstsuki_no_bara on July 3rd, 2007 09:39 pm (UTC)
awww, sammy. :( and it'll be a few years until he finds out that john really was proud of him after all.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Samhalfshellvenus on July 5th, 2007 07:23 pm (UTC)
I'm still not sure John actually was proud of him. He was proud of Sam's achievements, but I still think he thought Sam's choice was wrong-- even after everything. :(
cindy: spn - sam (by crecd060)tsuki_no_bara on July 5th, 2007 10:30 pm (UTC)
i was thinking about phantom traveler, when - crap, i can't remember his name - jerry? the guy who calls the boys for help. anyway, they're walking through the hangar and talking about john, and jerry tells sam that john was proud of him. which doesn't mean john actually liked that sam had left, you're totally right, but sam had obviously done something(s) that john was proud of.
iamstealthyoneiamstealthyone on July 4th, 2007 06:14 pm (UTC)
Oh, Sam.

It had to be so hard on him to feel like his scholastic dreams weren't properly appreciated. *hugs him*

Nicely done. :)
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Samhalfshellvenus on July 5th, 2007 07:25 pm (UTC)
It had to be so hard on him to feel like his scholastic dreams weren't properly appreciated. *hugs him*
Especially given how much he had to fight to make that come off, with the family moving around all the time and the constant distraction of John's "other job" bleeding into everything.

It's one thing for a smart kid to accomplish what he did, but to do it despite their background is so much harder.

And ultimately, the huge prize he won for it was one he was supposed to just walk away from, at least according to his father. :(
(Anonymous) on July 6th, 2007 05:54 pm (UTC)
"There's no-one else that cares."
That is the most heartbreaking line I have ever read in any fandom, for any story. Once again you've tugged on my heartstrings and made me want to be a better writer. Thanks so much. *squish*
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Samhalfshellvenus on July 8th, 2007 06:30 am (UTC)
Thank you for your lovely comments!

And I wish you all good luck in your endeavors. :)