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27 June 2007 @ 08:21 am
Prison Break Gen Fiction: To The End Of The Story  
Title: To The End Of The Story
Author: HalfshellVenus
Character: Veronica (Gen)
Rating: PG
Summary: Her heart always spoke but never listened.
Spoilers: Through early Season 2.
Author's Notes: For lissa_bear's birthday. You've been waiting for someone to tell this story since early Season 2, and even though you've left the show behind I think this resolution will give you the ending you deserved. Inspired by pamalax' challenge to write "father" drabbles—this one took a different turn. Also for philosophy_20, this is "Infinity."

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He's the wrong kind of boy for you, Veronica.

Even when they were teenagers— before anything had really started— her father had tried to warn her.

He runs with the wrong crowd, and his mother's never home. You can see he's headed for trouble…

What she'd seen was that he was cute and definitely cool, and no thirteen-year-old could resist a boy like that. Over the years, that never really changed.

Lincoln had had confidence and charisma, and more than anything she'd wanted him to notice her. So she'd learned where to be and how to dress, learned to flirt without being too obvious or pathetic. All of it for him.

One day he'd looked at her and kept on looking. On that day, everything changed.

He's dangerous—or will be before long. His younger brother's all right though, not much younger than you. Far more suitable than Lincoln.

But Michael was Michael, always so serious and both too old and young at once. And above all, he wasn't Lincoln—which was all that mattered. Michael was okay, but by then it was too late to choose him even if she'd wanted to change her mind: she'd already given Lincoln everything.

A girl couldn't walk away after giving up that part of herself. The boy had to be worth it, or it made her feel cheap—and Veronica wasn't ready to be that wrong, especially when her father was expecting it, just waiting for her to fail.

They arrested that Burrows boy today—always said he was bad news. I don't want you seeing him again.

The heartache had been unbearable, the end of all her schoolgirl hopes that he could change. It was so much worse having to grieve in private under her father's roof: she wasn't allowed to miss Lincoln or to be sorry he'd gotten so far out of control. Within herself, she wasn't even allowed to be mad at him for making such stupid choices. She counted the days until his sentence in Juvie would be over, but it didn't matter—she was supposed to be done with him forever, imprisoned or not.

Too bad her heart wasn't ready to let go.

She tried to be so careful when Lincoln got out—she stopped by the house the first day like any good friend, but only stayed ten minutes. The next time was five minutes, and the time after that was a wave from across the street. Keeping her distance was hard, but she made herself try. One day at a time.

So many girls showed up to flutter around Lincoln after Veronica backed away. She wondered if they'd always been there, part of his world but never hers. She stayed as far away as she could then, so she'd never have to know. But she never stopped thinking about him.

In college, she heard about the baby. That could have been me, she thought, not sure if she was angry or relieved. It had to be over then inside her heart, and she forced herself to think it: It's for the best, he belongs with someone else.

Her heart always spoke but never listened.

Chicago was a big city, and after she graduated from law school there was no reason to go anywhere else. Her family was there, her friends, and she could choose the direction of her own life.

It led her back to Lincoln's bed before he'd even settled on leaving Lisa. She shouldn't have done it—any of it, since the first time her father warned her—and yet she did. Maybe she'd never really had any innocence to lose after all.

It was hopeless, loving Lincoln—he'd been in prison again while she was gone, and he was still drifting through life on a day-to day basis, just like always. There was no future in loving him, but she'd known that already. It didn't help her find the strength to leave.

When he started using drugs again, she thought maybe the decision was finally being made for her. It was exactly the kind of push she needed to gather herself up and walk away.

When he went to prison for murdering the Vice President's brother, those foolish options that sometimes tempted her were severed, both by his sentence and by the shock of what he'd done. Any lingering regrets were laid to rest; it was time to commit to finally moving on.

It was Michael who didn't let go of Lincoln then. He tried to fill the places Lincoln never quite managed to— LJ's father, Veronica's friend. Michael came to believe that Lincoln was innocent, and after awhile she believed it too.

It was like being pulled under by a soundless, invisible tide…

**


In a ranch house in Montana, she finally found the missing key that would free Lincoln and Michael forever. It should have been impossible, but yet she'd done it; so much could happen if you just refused to ever give up.

She didn't tell anyone where she was going, though— who would she tell when there was no-one left who wasn't already a casualty to the larger cause?

The sudden pewww-pop sound from behind and the pain in her shoulder told her that secrecy had been a mistake—she had no backup or leverage now.

This was so frustrating, so ridiculous and wrong. Steadman was alive—right here in front of her—had nearly been executed because of him, for no reason. She couldn't even persuade Steadman to do the right thing and be more than a pawn: people were dying for the lie built upon his name, and he just didn't care.

Pewww-pop, and now her lungs hurt too, but Lincoln had called her up and he was listening and she thought he understood—what finding Steadman meant, why she did it, why she had to—before the phone fell from her grasp.

The room filled and spun with men's voices, and none of them were the ones she needed to hear. Neither Lincoln nor her father were here now.

Stay away from that Burrows boy—he's trouble. She remembered the first time she'd heard that, like it was yesterday. Had it really been so long ago?

Her father had been right, always right, and it still didn't matter even now. She'd have done all of it just the same, two times over— all because it was Lincoln.

The air grew cold around her pain, cold and dark, but she remembered Lincoln's face and the feel of it under her fingers when she'd kissed him back at Fox River.

He was the first boy she'd ever loved, and now he would be the last one as well.

He must have been her destiny, pure and simple, because in the end she was still giving him everything all over again…


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ETA:Darn that LJ "mailbox" feature. I accidentally deleted all the wonderful comments to this story, when I thought I was deleting their presence in the LJ mailbox. Including Elissa's comment! *kicks self*

 
 
 
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sassy, classy, and a bit smart-assy: Veebravelittlegirlbadboy_fangirl on June 28th, 2007 05:06 pm (UTC)
I have always suspected Veronica's death could be somewhat faulted to the fans, since we know that Sara could just have easily (and much more likely given she would know just how much morphine to give herself to end her own life) been the one to die. They could have just left Veronica trapped with Steadman, it's not like she could get out of the house. They didn't have to shoot her and cut her up into tiny pieces, they could have held on to her to use as leverage, should they have needed it. I am not a M/S shipper, but I enjoy their relationship well enough. What bothers me about it though is that we are supposed to buy into this great love (all 3 months of it) between M/S when it was L/V that had all the history. The only thing I like about it is that M/S haven't had sex, so it does appear to be real love and not just something based on a physical attraction alone.

Anyway...not to bore you with all my annoyances regarding the ships of the show, but you know. I don't wish Sara was dead, I just wish that there was a real love interest for Lincoln too. And whoever they intend to bring in for S3 will never have the believability that the L/V relationship had.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Lincoln (pensive)halfshellvenus on June 28th, 2007 05:15 pm (UTC)
Grrr... I inadvertantly deleted all the comments to this entry, so the trail above looks oddly sparse. *flogs LJ "mailbox" feature*

I have always suspected Veronica's death could be somewhat faulted to the fans, since we know that Sara could just have easily (and much more likely given she would know just how much morphine to give herself to end her own life) been the one to die.
I wonder about that too. Many non M/S shippers were peeved that Sara lived, simply because if she was going to OD and was pronounced liked DOA, then she really shouldn't have survived. I actually would have almost preferred that she be a tragic figure that Michael destroyed from within with his manipulations, rather than his "sudden instant love" in S2, and why on earth did she forgive him what he caused her to do to herself? That irks me more, having rewatched the end of S1, where she really should have been dead. He asked too much of her and her conscience, and that OD was the result.

They didn't have to shoot her and cut her up into tiny pieces, they could have held on to her to use as leverage, should they have needed it.
*sigh* Her ending was particularly grisly and awful, and the fact that she was not sufficiently mourned just makes that all the more unforgiveable. :(

And whoever they intend to bring in for S3 will never have the believability that the L/V relationship had.
Particularly if it's the InstaLove variety that Michael's working with. :0

You're right about the history-- that was part of what made the doomed L/V so compelling as an idea. Darn the S2 writing!
sassy, classy, and a bit smart-assy: DomSexMebadboy_fangirl on June 28th, 2007 06:13 pm (UTC)
There, it's all back, at least our convo. It's the least I could do. I hate it when I accidentally delete something!

As for Michael's InstaLove (which I love that term, you should copyright it!): I believe it about him, given his search for meaning and a lack of self-esteem and his unnatural attachment to his brother, it makes sense psychologically for him to throw himself into something like this (and he might be lucky enough for it to even work out well), but Linc? Hardly. After all his trust issues, Veronica's death and all that I don't see him ready to jump on the InstaLove Bandwagon, and I hope the writers remember that. I'll be very disappointed if they don't. I would be fine with him fucking someone's brains out, I mean, the guy's been waiting a LONG time, but for it to be *love* immediately is not going to fly.

Her ending was particularly grisly and awful
I know! I kept waiting for Terrence to tell Linc about that...he would have gone even more ballastic if he'd known just how irreverently her remains were handled.

Anyway, I do appreciate this chat. It's cathartic for all my lost L/V dreams...*wipes eyes*
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Lincoln (pensive)halfshellvenus on June 29th, 2007 12:35 am (UTC)
but Linc? Hardly. After all his trust issues, Veronica's death and all that I don't see him ready to jump on the InstaLove Bandwagon, and I hope the writers remember that. I'll be very disappointed if they don't.
Oh, you make such a great point here.

After all that's happened to him recently-- railroaded unto near death for by a conspiracy that had nothing to do with him, and then rescued by Michael at the cost of so much damage to other people... if he didn't have trust issues before (and I suspect he did-- there's something a little 'withholding' in his behavior) then he certainly should now.

And I'm so very disappointed with how the characters were written in S2. As in, very close to not watching S3, because the S2 characterization was pure garbage and it makes me angry as a devoted fan to have a situation where I feel as if I'm writing the characters better than the people who are paid to do so. Sure, I don't have the show's producers and whatnot pushing some weird higher agenda on me, but it doesn't change the fact that the S2 characterization was largely just off. :(

he would have gone even more ballastic if he'd known just how irreverently her remains were handled.
Thank goodness he wasn't that cruel! And I have to add that, after recently rewatching late S1, the morphing of Steadman into a new actor was rather jarring. I can't imagine that the original actor has people knocking his door down for work right now, so what gives? :0
sassy, classy, and a bit smart-assy: DomEarsbadboy_fangirl on June 29th, 2007 03:53 am (UTC)
And I have to add that, after recently rewatching late S1, the morphing of Steadman into a new actor was rather jarring. I can't imagine that the original actor has people knocking his door down for work right now, so what gives?

Actually, that guy was like Maricruz, on that show called The Nine. And the guy they got to play Steadman, Jeff Perry, he's like the standard side character actor. I've seen him on so much stuff. I really think he was perfect for the creepy incest with Caroline storyline, and by then they couldn't recast him with the original guy. Just FYI.

Yes, I'd like more character development, particularly of Lincoln, though I must say the under development made for a lot of creative fanfic ;-) Although Linc tells Michael straight up that he doesn't trust anyone and then Nika steals the gun, proving that they should NOT trust anyone. Oh, but then LJ can go off with this strange blonde woman who Linc just headbutted. Yeah...all over the place characterization. My least favorite part was when Michael sobbed all over his dying father after being so furious with him minutes before. But alas...I am a fangirl, I can't not watch. I love Dom too much. And trust me, PB will beat any of the movies he's done, they are all stupid!
sassy, classy, and a bit smart-assy: linc-veebadboy_fangirl on June 28th, 2007 05:54 pm (UTC)
Here is my original review: (I still have our whole conversation in my deleted box on my email).

This is totally beautiful...and the L/V shipper in me, oi! Heart broken & bleeding...yikes, right there on the floor, all over again.

He must have been her destiny, pure and simple, because in the end she was still giving him everything all over again *giant sniff*

One logistical complaint: Lincoln called Veronica right before she died, not the other way around. (since you fixed it) It still works how it is, and if Elissa gave up the show, she won't care, but just thought I'd mention it.

Happy birthday, Elissa! Michael is fat! Have a great day!
sassy, classy, and a bit smart-assy: Lincbrknhrtbadboy_fangirl on June 28th, 2007 06:00 pm (UTC)
HSV said:
Ack on the logistics-- I can probably tweak that. It's been awhile since I saw the S2 opening. *sigh*

Though I'm a total M/L shipper, I know that Veronica loved Lincoln too. She had her ups and downs with him-- even a period where she wanted to give up on him-- but in the end, Michael's obsession with Lincoln's innocence brought her around with a vengeance. And oh, what it cost her. *sniffle* This story is for all the places the show just let her down at the end. She deserved more attention to her sacrifice.

Happy birthday, Elissa! Michael is fat! Have a great day!
:D I've been re-watching the end of S1 in the hopes of finishing the "Always" series, and I have to say-- I'm totally convinced Michael was fat there. I don't know what the heck happened (Wentworth, put down the damn pie!), but yowch. Stay-Puft Marshmallow Man indeed. :0

DFG replied:
Best thing that every happened to Wentworth...moving to Dallas. Running in the heat worked well for the Stay-Puft boy.

I still hope we'll get a little more about Vee from Linc at least (though Michael owes her some tribute too). The couple of times it's come up, Lincoln's emotions have run very high concerning his lost love...so, there's always the possibility.

I think I appreciate this piece even more knowing you have no real emotional investment in that relationship, it makes it all the more impressive you could write it so sweetly and poignantly. I know I could never write M/L, though I love to write about the brothers as dysfunctional family members. They are quite angsty even without sex *g*

HSV said:
I still hope we'll get a little more about Vee from Linc at least (though Michael owes her some tribute too). The couple of times it's come up, Lincoln's emotions have run very high concerning his lost love...so, there's always the possibility.
That would sure be nice, though I'm reminded of wanting to see more of Michael and Lincoln's backstory in S2, and there was virtually nothing-- and they're still on the show! Darn all that action-over-substance S2 focus!

I think I appreciate this piece even more knowing you have no real emotional investment in that relationship, it makes it all the more impressive you could write it so sweetly and poignantly.
Oh, even though I don't ship L/V the way I ship M/L, I still like them as a couple. And I have a lot of empathy for Veronica's love for Lincoln and her inability to ever really let go of him, even when it cost her again and again. *sigh*
sassy, classy, and a bit smart-assy: Veebeautifulbadboy_fangirl on June 28th, 2007 06:04 pm (UTC)
DFG said:
I was under the assumption everyone hated Veronica except a few other pals I've found (and cling to mightily). Nice to hear nice things about her from a new source. Of course, you wrote a sympathetic Nika too, so really, you're able to put yourself in anybody's shoes *g* It's such a shame to never hear all of Linc & Vee's history, because it could be so rich. Not that his history with Michael isn't important and/or interesting too, but as someone who would like to see Lincoln in an eventual happy romantic relationship...Veronica's death was a terrible blow. So sad. Anyway, thanks again for such a moving piece.

HSV said:
Geez, is every woman who is NOT Sara hated on PB? She's no stranger to awful choices herself-- past and present.

Of course, you wrote a sympathetic Nika too, so really, you're able to put yourself in anybody's shoes *g*
Even the horrific ones like T-Bag, though Bellick and Sucre have eluded me so far... ;)

but as someone who would like to see Lincoln in an eventual happy romantic relationship...Veronica's death was a terrible blow. So sad.
There's a certain romantic inevitability in coming full circle to your first love, and I find it sad both that it never happened but also that just because of Lincoln's basic nature, it would most likely have been doomed to fail anyway. *cries for poor unable-to-let-go Veronica*
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: PB Final Hughalfshellvenus on June 29th, 2007 12:19 am (UTC)
That's so sweet of you to post it back up! And boy, I'm still kicking myself over misunderstanding how that feature worked. Because really, I don't normally care to see comments that I've left in my inbox-- just the ones I've received. Stupid LJ. Stupider me. :(

I did fix that part, and I'm glad you pointed it out. I hate getting those little details wrong. :)
Deadbeat Nymph: lincoln scrapedeadbeat_nymph on June 28th, 2007 07:11 pm (UTC)
Man, that's weird that the comments disappeared. I'm reposting because comments are nice.

This was lovely. I was always disappointed with how they dealt with Veronica's death, the way they washed over it, and how Michael didn't even bat an eye. That really fucked me up.

That first episode of S2 was a warning - everything will be wrong from here on in. Because it was just for cheap plot twists from there, and that was the first - kill Veronica, let Sara have a miraculous recovery even though she was already in deep pallor mortis.

So many kinds of wrong.

Anyway, my point is that this was lovely. All the parts about loving the wrong boy and knowing it, but being unable to stop it, well, who can't relate to that? *sigh*
Deadbeat Nymph: transfixeddeadbeat_nymph on June 28th, 2007 07:13 pm (UTC)
Your reply:

This was lovely. I was always disappointed with how they dealt with Veronica's death, the way they washed over it, and how Michael didn't even bat an eye. That really fucked me up.
It angered a lot of fans, and just as you say-- it was the canary in the coal mine for the approach S2 was going to take. What characters? What remorse? There's a plot waiting that's not running all over the country by itself, damnit!

All the parts about loving the wrong boy and knowing it, but being unable to stop it, well, who can't relate to that? *sigh*
Exactly! Whether it's Veronica (or sometimes Michael, for me), it's such a universal story, loving someone far past the point where you know you really shouldn't. The heart does not listen to reason, and sometimes that price is very high. :(
Deadbeat Nymph: lincoln scrapedeadbeat_nymph on June 28th, 2007 07:32 pm (UTC)
Now my new reply to youre reply:

What characters? What remorse? There's a plot waiting that's not running all over the country by itself, damnit!

Because of that approach, the whole of S2 was so upsetting that I absolutely have to watch all of S3 in the hopes that they will redeem it in some way.

I do think that S2 brought some good through Kellerman and Mahone as characters, mostly because of PA and WF's performances. They were really good. But otherwise, it was heartbreak after heartbreak, and not the good kind. Fucking writers. They just sacrificed everything good about S1 for cheap thrills. It was such an incredible insult to audiences and to their own characters. Grrrr.

Whether it's Veronica (or sometimes Michael, for me), it's such a universal story, loving someone far past the point where you know you really shouldn't. The heart does not listen to reason, and sometimes that price is very high. :(

That's a very good point about Michael. And yes, that universal story is incredibly moving because it manages to paint heartbreak and devastation with a love that's so unshakable and pure that it can't be anything but beautiful. And so we fall for it as an audience in the same way as the character falls for it in the story... :(
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: PB Final Hughalfshellvenus on June 29th, 2007 12:39 am (UTC)
But otherwise, it was heartbreak after heartbreak, and not the good kind. Fucking writers. They just sacrificed everything good about S1 for cheap thrills. It was such an incredible insult to audiences and to their own characters. Grrrr.
Yes-- my exact opinion on it too. I suspect the writers were given a larger goal from the Producers that did not at ALL match what many of us were hoping to see for S2, so the "what" may not have been up to them.

However the "how" of the writing... SO badly done, and needlessly so. Work harder to make the behavior match the character, damnit!

So here's another beef, that I'm sure you'll sympathize with: I have the feeling that the larger direction of S2 was "We need to satisfy our male viewers, so action-action-action!" and "Oh yeah, women. Well, we'll throw them the Michael/Sara romance bone and that'll keep them happy."

Don't you sometimes wonder if that wasn't exactly the thinking behind the disaster of S2? I.e., pandering to both the men and the women, and instead of the things that actually worked in S1 we got divergent crap. *gnashes teeth*
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: PB Final Hughalfshellvenus on June 29th, 2007 12:24 am (UTC)
Man, that's weird that the comments disappeared. I'm reposting because comments are nice.
This is so sweet of both of you-- and they were the longer comment conversations I had, too.

The comments disappearing is my fault. I was looking at the LJ "mailbox" because the comments haven't been coming through email for about 5-6 days now with any regularity. And I saw all of the comments I'd left myself, and I thought, well how annoying. If I'm trying to find new comments, I don't want my own stuff filling up the list. So I deleted what I thought were mailbox entries, but were actually the comments themselves! And I also deleted other people's comments that I'd already read. At some point after that, I finally realized that these were actual comments and not just links to the comments.

*kicks self again and again and again...*