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07 April 2007 @ 11:42 pm
Supernatural Gen Drabbles: Like Seasons Changing  
Title: Like Seasons Changing
Author: HalfshellVenus
Characters: Mary, Dean, John (Gen, some WeechesterFic)
Rating: PG
Summary: 3x100 drabbles on "Spring" for supernatural100. Bittersweet.

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Frosting Flowers
No-one liked being a cliché, but Mary had always hoped to be married in Spring.

When she was younger, of course, she'd written her married-name fantasy out on secret pieces of paper: "Mary Mellenby, Mrs. Christopher Mellenby."

Every girl did that, and she grew out of it. She even realized that most people didn't marry their Prom dates after all.

But Spring weddings—always outdoors, surrounded by flowers— were too perfect to give up.

Marrying John in a church on a September morning was nothing like that.

Instead, it was everything she'd ever wanted. She'd just never known it before.


Sharing (Dean)
Out behind the stone turtle in the Sycamore Street backyard was a patch of violets.

At first there was nothing—just green leaves and puddles—after Winter killed off nearly everything that lived through Fall.

But one day purple flowers bloomed, lifting their heads and smelling so pretty, so clean and new. Dean kept going outside for that fragrance, like the violets were some secret fairy magic no-one else noticed.

He picked ten for Mommy, and she put them in a vase.

Years later, that scent makes him think of innocence— of her.

Of himself, so long forgotten. Of himself.


Transitions
In the Winter, John could stand it— being stuck in one place, making almost no headway on his search.

But it didn't last. Once the weather improved, he'd think about leads that needed following. Things always seemed more promising in the Spring, like the newness of the world might lead to new answers or results.

Icicles dripped along the edge of the roof in Kansas, and John got out his journal and notes, re-examining what he'd learned about Mary's tragedy so far.

"Pack up, boys," he called out suddenly. "We're taking a trip."

Dean's squeal echoed clear through the apartment.


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The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on April 8th, 2007 03:41 pm (UTC)
That one's oddly happy, isn't it? Even though John's trying to figure out the horrors of the past, it's so optimistic. And you just know Dean would be up for a road trip even back then (Sammy might already be entrenched). :)
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The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on April 8th, 2007 03:42 pm (UTC)
It's the oddest thing about this show, that the knowledge of what comes later negates so much of the innocence of the before.

But also part of the appeal, as well, I think. :)

Thanks for reading!
getting the chocolate in the peanut butter: weewinchesterpicdotfic on April 8th, 2007 03:58 pm (UTC)
These are all beautifully done. I love the first, playing with perfection vs. what Mary wants the most. In the second, that detail of the stone turtle and the smell of violets is so vivid. In the third, it's interesting how the melting of icicles and the coming of spring still feels a little like hope, except it's the signal for John to continue a grim search, and there's little Dean, squealing with joy, which feels ironic.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on April 18th, 2007 05:26 pm (UTC)
I'm getting worse with the timely responses. Ack!

I love all the details you noticed in all of these, and the contrasts within all of them (idealized perfection vs. the actual thing, innocence vs. loss, hope vs. the dark purpose behind it). :)

There IS hope in the last one, for everyone, and the irony is what John hopes for. So much of his life must have been like that after Mary died, I think. :(
cindy: spn - dad and boys (by kiraboshi)tsuki_no_bara on April 8th, 2007 05:06 pm (UTC)
i think the first one's my favorite - it might be the only spn story in which someone doesn't get what they want, but what they do get makes them incredibly happy - altho i really like the hope in the third.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on April 18th, 2007 05:31 pm (UTC)
it might be the only spn story in which someone doesn't get what they want, but what they do get makes them incredibly happy
I like that as an idea just because it's so human. Ages back, in the show's beginning, I think I might have been the first to have Sam realize that "home" is a feeling and not a place, and that at this point in his life Home is Dean (in the way that John perhaps never entirely was. *wibble*).

But in a general sense, it's a mistake so many people make. A laundry list of what their "ideal person" will look like, and the one that finally hits home and that they marry looks nothing like it. People who dream of "that perfect career" only to discover that enjoying their family matters more.

The pretty cat you imagine you'll find at the shelter, before the fugly one that comes over to adore you steals your heart. ;) My sister can attest to that one.
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The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on April 18th, 2007 05:33 pm (UTC)
I love it when things happen the way you don't expect them to, but they turn out perfectly anyhow!
I really do too. It's a very humanizing moment to realize that sometimes the things you think are important matter least of all. And perhaps humbling, which is good for all of us. ;)

Love how John is all broody, and Dean is oblivious, just shows his innocence!
I love those snippets of normal in the otherwise angsty Winchester context, and really-- looking at Dean now and his ability to drive until all eternity, I'm guessing he kind of liked the road trips as a kid. :0

Thanks for reading!
ashlet3ashlet3 on April 8th, 2007 10:51 pm (UTC)
I love number 2! thinking of a little dean makes me exceedingly happy.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: weechestershalfshellvenus on April 18th, 2007 05:35 pm (UTC)
I love number 2! thinking of a little dean makes me exceedingly happy.
Those are so bittersweet, aren't they? As much as Sam disliked how he grew up, he could never know exactly what he lost. Dean really did.

Those little moments before all that happened bring such a sweet contrast. :)
ashlet3ashlet3 on April 18th, 2007 07:56 pm (UTC)
definitely...
i absolutely adore Dean, his character is amazing and had a lesser actor been cast he would've probably seemed very one-dimensional but jensen brings such depth to him.
O wow i'm going to stop before i start ranting.
iamstealthyoneiamstealthyone on April 9th, 2007 03:23 am (UTC)
Frosting Flowers

What I really like here is how true/real it is. Growing up, girls have so many ideas about what their weddings will be like, but really, when you find the right man, so little matters other than just being with him.

Marrying John in a church on a September morning was nothing like that.

Instead, it was everything she'd ever wanted. She'd just never known it before.


Aww. :)

Sharing

Years later, that scent makes him think of innocence-- of her.

Of himself, so long forgotten. Of himself.


Oh, Dean. It’s probably next to impossible for him to think of ever having any kind of innocence. He was so young when everything changed.

Transitions

"Pack up, boys," he called out suddenly. "We're taking a trip."

Dean's squeal echoed clear through the apartment.


I like that Dean’s love for the open road goes back this far, and I like John’s restlessness as spring arrives, his need to do something.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on April 18th, 2007 05:39 pm (UTC)
but really, when you find the right man, so little matters other than just being with him.
I used to know a guy that would go over and over what his "ideal woman" was going to look like, and always thought that if he wasn't a total jerk, irony would get him when that petite, curvy blond wound up being a fun-loving athletic brunette. Because the Fates are just like that. ;)

It’s probably next to impossible for him to think of ever having any kind of innocence. He was so young when everything changed.
I'm sure it was there, but so hard to remember. He probably mostly remembers the feelings (when he can stand to), and not the details. *wibble*

I like that Dean’s love for the open road goes back this far,
I think it probably really does, and it seems so "usual" for a young child-- you don't know how it will fall into place way down the road. :)

And I like John’s restlessness as spring arrives, his need to do something.
It's funny, because for most people Spring signals "Attack the yard! Clean the house!" and all those things that sudden energy makes you want to do. For John, it was always about something else, something larger.
iamstealthyoneiamstealthyone on April 19th, 2007 01:50 pm (UTC)
I used to know a guy that would go over and over what his "ideal woman" was going to look like, and always thought that if he wasn't a total jerk, irony would get him when that petite, curvy blond wound up being a fun-loving athletic brunette.

*g*
tyricaltyrical on April 10th, 2007 12:43 am (UTC)
Seasons...

From dreaming about what you want. To a smell reminding you of something lost. To the restlessness of a journey. Their lives are way too tragic and colorful for their own good. At least in the spring everything seems new again. Possibility feels real. Beautifully rendered moments.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on April 18th, 2007 05:41 pm (UTC)
Their lives are way too tragic and colorful for their own good.
Isn't this just the Winchesters? Even those moments that seem ordinary take on a different meaning in the Winchester context. Usually, a bittersweet or painful one.

At least in the spring everything seems new again. Possibility feels real.
That's so true for most of us, I think, and I couldn't resist the irony of showing what that turns into for someone like John. So uniquely part of who they are. :)
soydolcelatte: baby!jared armssoydolcelatte on April 10th, 2007 01:27 am (UTC)
These are nice!! "Frosting Flowers" helps you to remember that once upon time, they were a normal couple and family! *sigh*

"Sharing" actually brought tears to my eyes.

Good job!
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Diner Deanhalfshellvenus on April 18th, 2007 05:42 pm (UTC)
"Sharing" actually brought tears to my eyes.
That one's so bittersweet, isn't it? All that childlike joy and wonder and love, and when you know how the future will crush it and alter Dean for ever... *sniff* So very sad. :(