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16 March 2007 @ 01:18 pm
Supernatural Drabble: Diluting Memories  
Title: Diluting Memories
Author: HalfshellVenus
Character: Dean (mild Het)
Rating: PG
Author's Notes: Written for the 100_ghosts challenge on "Hair Of The Dog."

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It took a long time, getting over her.

Dean never meant to love her that much, so much he told her the whole truth and hoped it wouldn't matter.

For a long time afterward, he didn't sleep with anyone. That wound still bled.

But the rebound, when it came, was whiplash sharp-- woman after woman. Behind closed eyes they all had Cassie's face.

Leaving in the dark where he couldn't see them, he swore it was for the best.

"Hair of the dog," and he'd stop missing her.

"Hair of the dog," and another woman might finally take her place.


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The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Diner Deanhalfshellvenus on March 16th, 2007 09:01 pm (UTC)
It really is-- I like the way you put that.

As if he so rarely is willing to jump all the way in, and when he does it's complete. And by the same token, when he leaves, he wants the whole thing dead and done with like Sam and John fighting.
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The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Diner Deanhalfshellvenus on March 16th, 2007 09:01 pm (UTC)
Oooh, thank you Claire.

You know, I personally didn't like Cassie. But I absolutely believed in what Dean felt for her, and what an interesting addition to his character that was.
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The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Diner Deanhalfshellvenus on March 17th, 2007 03:10 am (UTC)
I'm not sure her casting was right for one
Oh, I agree-- the actress really seemed like an empty dress, and the fact that we could feel Dean's side of it in spite of that is a testament to Jensen's acting.

But that glimpse of that other side of Dean-- the ability to have emotional depth outside of Sam and John-- was a fascinating revelation. I'll forgive the Monster Truck stupidity (and the tow truck) for that aspect alone. :)
analingus and root beer: Dean-pen-in-mouthzelost_mind on March 16th, 2007 10:48 pm (UTC)
I liked that a lot. It felt very Dean. The lesser seen Dean.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Diner Deanhalfshellvenus on March 17th, 2007 03:06 am (UTC)
Yes, yes-- I didn't like Cassie at all (I think it had a lot to do with the actress), but Dean's feelings about her were shown really well. He still had the tiniest bit of hope when they met again, because she finally knew that what he told her about his family all those years back was true-- she'd just lost her father to the same kind of things he hunted.

She'd dropped him for saying it, all those years back, but once she knew the truth Dean so clearly wanted that to make a difference.
I'm for wine and the embrace of questionable women: deanbitingmissyjack on March 17th, 2007 12:09 am (UTC)
Youve really captured here what i have long felt, that the loss of Cassie (and what that relationship represented for Dean) is still one of the major losses in his life. Lovely work.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Diner Deanhalfshellvenus on March 17th, 2007 03:08 am (UTC)
Yes, the Wincester in me wants to believe he's over it, but that was the one really interesting to come out of that episode-- the realization that Dean was able to feel that strongly about someone outside his family (even all those years later). So sad that in the end, he got burned by it. Twice even, because the second time she still didn't really care after all. :(
bluesister on March 17th, 2007 03:12 am (UTC)
That's a sad corner of Dean (another one!) but I also simply enjoy the sound of this one. Short phrases, tightly controlled just like Dean.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Diner Deanhalfshellvenus on March 21st, 2007 07:48 pm (UTC)
Short phrases, tightly controlled just like Dean.
It's funny, but I think the Dean and John voices in the non-dialogue sections come out more distinctly sometimes in the drabbles.

The "Cassie" episode gave us such an expected view of that part of Dean. I've never quite forgotten that.
tyricaltyrical on March 17th, 2007 09:54 am (UTC)
They are many types of people in the world.

But Dean is the kind who loves with everything he has. I think this drabble proves it.

As far as he's willing to go for those he loves, is it any wonder that when that love proves false, he chooses to lose himself in one night stands.

Especially with the constant reminder of what happens when he loves someone, in any fashion. i.e. Sam or Dad.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Diner Deanhalfshellvenus on March 21st, 2007 07:50 pm (UTC)
As far as he's willing to go for those he loves, is it any wonder that when that love proves false, he chooses to lose himself in one night stands.
This is the side to him that's so interesting-- he fell hard for Cassie, and you can tell from his behavior with other people (men and women alike) that he resists getting close to them. When he does, he so often has gotten burned-- right from the 4-year-old beginning.
.m, purveyor of wasted minutiae and wisdom: 11miconic on March 17th, 2007 01:40 pm (UTC)
Nice, and sad at the same time. Dean will be fine, but till then, you know ;o)

Thanks for the read.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Diner Deanhalfshellvenus on March 21st, 2007 07:52 pm (UTC)
Thank you, miconic!

Dean will be fine, but till then, you know ;o)
It's amazing how some people choose to cover up feeling with an attempt to divorce themselves from feeling. Don't heal the wound, just deny it.

Boy, is that ever Dean...
not a morning person...tattoo_kink on March 17th, 2007 07:41 pm (UTC)
That wound still bled.

Just another of the thousand and thousand he had. *sob*

Sometimes it seems that he wears all the burden of the whole world on his shoulder. *sigh*

Awesome job!

*hugs*
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Diner Deanhalfshellvenus on March 21st, 2007 07:54 pm (UTC)
Sometimes it seems that he wears all the burden of the whole world on his shoulder. *sigh*
And no-one can ever help you with that burden when you deny it's there...

Thank you, Stephie. :)
belleimani on March 22nd, 2007 01:38 am (UTC)
Oh I like this, well done.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Diner Deanhalfshellvenus on March 22nd, 2007 04:33 am (UTC)
Thank you, belleimani. :)

This is one of those times where the character makes you write something you don't want to agree with. But there it is-- the episode shaped it all.
belleimani on March 24th, 2007 12:04 pm (UTC)
You're welcome and isn't that always the best way though?
someday_slasher: boyzsomeday_slasher on March 22nd, 2007 05:07 pm (UTC)
Oh, very nice. Great characterisation.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Diner Deanhalfshellvenus on March 23rd, 2007 03:53 pm (UTC)
Thank you! I didn't like Cassie much, but what we learned about Dean through his feelings for her was just fascinating. :)