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07 March 2007 @ 04:55 pm
Supernatural Gen Drabble: Someone Else's War  
Title: Someone Else's War
Author: HalfshellVenus
Characters: Sam (Gen)
Rating: PG
Summary: Sam doesn't love it like they do…
Author's notes: Drabble for the "Third Wheel" challenge at 100_ghosts.


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Sam doesn't love it like they do.

He's good at it— skilled and diligent—but sitting around diners or motel rooms with Dad and Dean, listening to them get all worked up about "this angle" or "that time when I was cornered"… he knows it's not the same.

He does it because he's here, with them— because this is his life as dictated by one John Winchester.

They don't bother to include him anymore in the conversation— his attitude spoils the comraderie that keeps them going.

He's an outsider to the Winchester army.

They'll hardly miss him when he's gone.


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The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Samhalfshellvenus on March 16th, 2007 03:03 am (UTC)
You've managed to wrap up every one of Sam's pre-series feelings into one lovely package.
Oh, I love the way you put this. It really is the history of his discontent, isn't it, with all the mitigating factors falling off invisibly to the side.

He loves his job, loves how it gives him a sense of purpose, a path in life and a way to protect his family all in one nice little package.
Yes-- Dean's a True Believer in the whole family mission, for whatever reason. Whether because he thinks he has no choice or because he truly embraces it-- or whether that choice was over long, long ago once John set himself and his sons on that path.

Also, for whatever reason, I have a feeling that Sam always took the job harder. Nightmares, brooding, discomfort. Unlike Dean, and I bet John did.
When you come right down to it, John was a soldier before and battle-hardened already. Killing unquestionably evil things must be a cakewalk after having to kill people because your government told you to. And Dean, well... how he must have scarred-over after losing his mother, when he lost not only her but his entire childhood all in one blow. Sam had the questionable benefit there of being too young to know what he was "missing," but I've always felt that Dean had it harder at first, much, much harder. That he survived it was also doomed to change him.

Again. Great fic. So much said with so few words. Hemingway would be proud.
Thank you so, so much. Such a lovely compliment, and a wonderfully thoughtful discussion to go with it! ♥