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07 March 2007 @ 04:55 pm
Supernatural Gen Drabble: Someone Else's War  
Title: Someone Else's War
Author: HalfshellVenus
Characters: Sam (Gen)
Rating: PG
Summary: Sam doesn't love it like they do…
Author's notes: Drabble for the "Third Wheel" challenge at 100_ghosts.


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Sam doesn't love it like they do.

He's good at it— skilled and diligent—but sitting around diners or motel rooms with Dad and Dean, listening to them get all worked up about "this angle" or "that time when I was cornered"… he knows it's not the same.

He does it because he's here, with them— because this is his life as dictated by one John Winchester.

They don't bother to include him anymore in the conversation— his attitude spoils the comraderie that keeps them going.

He's an outsider to the Winchester army.

They'll hardly miss him when he's gone.


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cindy: spn - sam (by crecd060)tsuki_no_bara on March 8th, 2007 01:22 am (UTC)
oh, sammy, if you only knew.... i like the detail that he's really good at something he really doesn't enjoy, whereas john and dean really like what they do. the difference between a job and a calling, maybe. or between having a very personal reason to do something, and not.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Samhalfshellvenus on March 8th, 2007 01:41 am (UTC)
oh, sammy, if you only knew
He really has no idea until after Dean comes back to get him, and tells him that while he could search for their Dad alone, he doesn't want to.

As far as Sam can see, he adds nothing to the mix and in fact brings the other two down, and what a relief it will be for everyone concerned when all of them can stop pretending. But he's missing the part where brother/son is important all in itself, and that it will never be quite the same without him.

the difference between a job and a calling, maybe.
Yes, exactly! I've tried to explain this before to people who want me to go into management, or to lead software testing. "Good at" and "want to" are not at all the same thing.

And I think for Sam it's more-- the darkness of what they do eats down into him in a way that John and Dean have long forgotten to even care about.

Thanks so much for reading and commenting, as always. :)

*is all angsty and thinky now*
One Girl Revolution1grl_revolution on March 8th, 2007 03:58 am (UTC)
And I think for Sam it's more-- the darkness of what they do eats down into him in a way that John and Dean have long forgotten to even care about.

I agree with this comment on so many levels!

Sammy really does have that spark of innocence to him- even after everything he's seen and been through.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Samhalfshellvenus on March 8th, 2007 07:41 am (UTC)
Sammy really does have that spark of innocence to him- even after everything he's seen and been through.
Yes, he does-- and more than that, he wants to keep it. He doesn't ever want the hunting or what they do to become commonplace or something that doesn't affect him.

And every time they go after something and kill it, he's a little bit closer to becoming that person he never wanted to be...