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12 February 2007 @ 03:36 pm
Supernatural Gen Drabbles: Changeable As The Weather  
Title: Changeable As The Weather
Author: HalfshellVenus
Characters: Sam and Dean (Gen)
Rating: PG
Summary: 5x100 drabbles on raining, from beginning to end.
Author's Notes: Written for the supernatural100 challenge on "Rain." Late, but there was so much that could be said.

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Puddles
Mommy said to stay out of puddles, but Dean loved them. He liked the rain, the feeling of it on his face. Sometimes he'd lean his head back and let raindrops fall into his mouth, and they didn't taste like water. Not bathtub water, anyway.

It rained one day as they walked back from the grocery store.

Smack. Smack. Smick. Smack. Splash! Splash!

"Dean!"

His hood slid down over his eyes as he raised his head.

"Not in the puddles, honey."

"Rain boots?" he said.

They bought yellow ones later, and he spent the afternoon stomping happily through the yard.


Peace
They were on one of Dad's trips— gone for the weekend, not moving away.

The car streamed slickly down the highway, the whish of tire noise and weep-skronk of windshield wipers forming a quiet rhythm against the backdrop of the wet, gray day.

Sam had stopped looking out the front window hours ago—nothing there but fields and headlights, with a tree or farmhouse to break the pattern. Lying down in the backseat, head pillowed against Dean's leg, he clutched his blanket.

Drops splattered and slipped in tiny streams down the glass as the storm and the car continued on.


Storm
It was raining again—in September. Seemed like it was always raining anymore.

One week. More exactly, seven days, two hours and fourteen minutes since Sam left them. Not that Dean was counting, but he couldn't stop—couldn't not be aware of the distance between then and… now.

They were still at the same motel. Should've moved on, but they hadn't. Dean didn't dare ask why-- Sam's name was now off-limits.

He was afraid they'd leave, and how would Sam find them then?

But then Dean worried that it wouldn't even matter. Sam was gone. Splintered off.

So very… gone.


Tears
This was not how Sam thought change would come.

The only change he'd planned for was law school. The rest of it-- Stanford, Jess—was supposed to stay. The seamless path to his future was set.

In the car again with Dean—being pulled back into everything he'd left before—Sam remembered earlier trips and this feeling of inertia. He remembered the endlessness of the highway and a life that belonged to his family but never to him.

Rain streaming down the windshield mirrored the tracks on his face just then.

Back in spite of himself… he already wanted out.


Cleansing
Dean's almost gotten used to it being only Sam.

It had been for most of a year anyway, back before. But he'd had the possibility of it being all three of them, someday. The whole family again, the way it should have been, used to be… wasn't.

It was lonely, just him and Dad. Always this huge, gaping absence of Sam, and no more kidding around about anything.

Drizzle coats the Impala, washing away the dust of the empty road.

It's not as empty inside the car now. The ache is hollow, and it's different… but it's better.

At last.



------ fin ------




 
 
 
aeroport_art: 300aeroport_art on February 12th, 2007 11:51 pm (UTC)
Aww, this is so angsty and sad :( Dean needs Sam around but Sam just wants out, and it's just... sad. *sniff*

The weep-skronk of windshield wipers
Love the onomatopoeia, it's extremely effective and vivid here.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on February 13th, 2007 12:28 am (UTC)
The early parts of season 1 were so angsty just because of that feeling-- Dean waiting so long to have Sam back, and Sam just wanting to be anywhere else. *sniff*

Love the onomatopoeia, it's extremely effective and vivid here.
I give in to using it from time to time (moreso in the Supernatural stories), and I always hope it's helping to set the mood rather than pushing the reader out. Here, just recalling those sounds made me want to use them. :)
aeroport_art: impalaaeroport_art on February 13th, 2007 12:37 am (UTC)
Yeah, onomatopoeias really work in the SPN universe. The boys aren't always very wordy and even just *imagining* spending as much time in a car as they do, familiar sounds (like windshield wipers) speak volumes.
IDK, my BFF Jared Leto?gekizetsu on February 13th, 2007 12:04 am (UTC)
The second one makes me freakishly happy and I don't even care why; it's awesomeness, packed into just a few words.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on February 13th, 2007 12:31 am (UTC)
Thank you, Barb!

The second one reminds me so much of childhood moments-- in the car driving a long while to somewhere, all safe and sleepy with nothing much expected of you. It's as peacefule as its title, and not even just for the Winchester boys but perhaps for anyone who has been a child and misses that feeling of not having to care of or be responsible for what happens next.

Seems so long ago now... :)
I'm for wine and the embrace of questionable women: wetsammissyjack on February 13th, 2007 12:19 am (UTC)
Beautiful imagery and a thread of melancholia runs through these. As always your writing is so evocative.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on February 13th, 2007 12:33 am (UTC)
It's so hard to keep the sadness out of the Supernatural writing. Even though the first one is very sweet, you know that Dean can't keep that moment or that life, and that's sad all by itself.

So glad you enjoyed these. :)
I'm for wine and the embrace of questionable women: sad sammissyjack on February 13th, 2007 12:44 am (UTC)
It's so hard to keep the sadness out of the Supernatural writing. it's so true. You made me think, that i cant think of another show so shot through with grief and sadness. The fact that the boys grief over John's death is still explicit - what other show does that?

Even in say Prison Break, it is there but not in the same way. Linc and Michael have had bad stuff happen but it seems doesnt to embrace sadness the way SPN does.

And of course Jack Bauer just stares grief back into its tissue box.

What do you think? I'm fascinated by this now...
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on February 13th, 2007 12:54 am (UTC)
You made me think, that i cant think of another show so shot through with grief and sadness. The fact that the boys grief over John's death is still explicit - what other show does that?
This one moreso than any other I can think of, which is part of its attraction. (That and, pretty boys aside, demons! Evil! We chase it down and conquer it! Just taking that seriously is intriguing to me).

But it's true-- so many shows have a "grief episode" and maybe a followup or two, and then that's it. Done. They don't continue to show the rawness of something like John being dead-- even in just the way the Demon(s)throw that back at the boys again and again, and we see how it hurts them. I LOVE that part of continuity, and the rawness of the reactions to reviving John again to angst over.

Linc and Michael have had bad stuff happen but it seems doesnt to embrace sadness the way SPN does.
The "Veronica's gone. Oh well." approach really hacked off a lot of Prison Break fans, and the show seems to gloss over the gravity of loss now (less so in Season 1, which was part of why I liked Season 1 better).

And of course Jack Bauer just stares grief back into its tissue box.
He certainly does! :D He has his moments where he gives in to it-- and I love that you can see the edges of it getting ready to bleed over into him from time-to-time before he pushes it back in the name of carrying on-- but for the most part, there is only Taking Action! There is no pondering and regretting-- that's for the five minutes at the end of each season before the next catastrophe occurs. ;)

Well, to sum up: I entirely agree with you! Like that's a big surprise. :D
I'm for wine and the embrace of questionable womenmissyjack on February 13th, 2007 01:46 am (UTC)
Agrees right back at you. Yes the lack of emotional continuity has dented my PB enjoyment. I mean poor Veronica? Daddy Burrows? And why isnt Linc worried about how LJ is? Which I think why Kellerman has merged as such a strong character (STFU I am not biased!) as his feelings towards the agency and the president have been built on.

chuckleheaded psychopath FTW

The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on February 13th, 2007 02:54 am (UTC)
Yes the lack of emotional continuity has dented my PB enjoyment.
Mine too-- as much as the impending Mi/Sa awfulness that I'm sure is doomed to take over the show.

I mean poor Veronica? Daddy Burrows? And why isnt Linc worried about how LJ is?
Yes-- where is the pain over all of that? And though it's been months for us, in the show's time period it's only a few weeks. The grief should still be fresh, and instead it's absent. :(

Which I think why Kellerman has merged as such a strong character (STFU I am not biased!) as his feelings towards the agency and the president have been built on.
Plus clever, unpredictable, and so very sarcastic. \o/

chuckleheaded psychopath FTW
Why have you not made an icon of that already? :D
janissa11: baby Dean & John 2janissa11 on February 13th, 2007 01:08 am (UTC)
Beautiful, each one. And I love splashy-wee-Dean the mostest. ::cuddles::
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on February 13th, 2007 02:55 am (UTC)
Thank you, Em!

And I love splashy-wee-Dean the mostest. ::cuddles::
It's my son! Puddles are like magnets to him, and he'll soak his shoes in no time because he lacks sense.

Though in the proper attire.... puddle-stomping rules! :D
cindy: spn - deantsuki_no_bara on February 13th, 2007 01:44 am (UTC)
the first one is so, so cute, as is the second one, actually (mostly for the image of sam lying down on the back seat with his head on dean's leg). and the last one, oddly enough, is almost... happy. hopeful, at least. which i wasn't exactly expecting, but really like.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on February 13th, 2007 02:56 am (UTC)
The last one IS hopeful-- as much as they've been through (and it's not over or easy yet), there's still a horizon of peace there and of Dean enjoying what family he still has.

Thanks so much for reading and commenting. :)
getting the chocolate in the peanut butter: weewinchesterpicdotfic on February 13th, 2007 01:53 am (UTC)
These are all beautifully done. You captured that joyful or cozy feel of rain from childhood, and then the sadness as they got older.

There's a wonderful *rhythm* to these, lovely work.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on February 13th, 2007 02:58 am (UTC)
Thank you, Dot!

I really meant to write a bunch to this prompt, but it took far longer than I'd expected, and I haven't done much drabbling since before Xmas. :0

You captured that joyful or cozy feel of rain from childhood
Growing up in Oregon, you have to make your peace with the rain, and either enjoy it or the activities you turn to when it rains. And something about watching it is so wonderfully soothing and hypnotic. :)
bluesister on February 13th, 2007 03:33 am (UTC)
He was afraid they'd leave, and how would Sam find them then?
Oh dear. I hadn't though of that but of course. That would be a gut instinct. Oh.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on February 13th, 2007 04:33 pm (UTC)
! I'm flailing because you noticed that detail.

While there is still hope that Sam will come back-- surely, he'll change his mind?-- just think of the anxiety of when John will push to leave and Dean will want to wait just a little bit longer but won't ever be allowed to say why. *sniff*
One Girl Revolution1grl_revolution on February 13th, 2007 03:49 am (UTC)
Nicely done. I always gravitate toward stories that investigate Dean's longing to have his family whole again. His love for his family always keeps me coming back for more. This was lovely.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on February 17th, 2007 08:16 am (UTC)
I always gravitate toward stories that investigate Dean's longing to have his family whole again. His love for his family always keeps me coming back for more.
That is the part of Dean that I unequivocally love. He can be a complete ass at times, but his love for his family is the one thing that completely rules his heart no matter what.

Thanks so much for reading and commenting! I got lost on my comments in trying to get another story written for a deadline (didn't quite make it).
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The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on February 17th, 2007 08:17 am (UTC)
Thank you so much, Rinne! I love that you read so many of my drabbles-- not many people really "take" to them, but I find they have such a unique beauty and power at times. :)
Don't shoot the pianist: Everyday (SPN)northface11 on February 13th, 2007 05:21 am (UTC)
Oooh, weather! I'm a weather fiend, and rain especially, and I love when people use the weather to their advantage in stories. It so much sets the mood, as you've done in so many different ways. I think 'Peace' and 'Cleansing' were my favourites.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on February 17th, 2007 08:20 am (UTC)
:D I grew up in Oregon, and you get very familiar with the rain and learn to live with it-- and all of its different flavors.

It so much sets the mood, as you've done in so many different ways.
This was one of those prompts where you could go in so many different directions, and telling them in a sequence makes them all the better when you can, I think.

I think 'Peace' and 'Cleansing' were my favourites.
Those ones are so... soothing, I think is how I'd characterize them. As if everything is all right now, or soon will be. And heaven knows, the boys need that.

Thanks so much for taking the time to read and comment. :)
plutogirl10 on February 13th, 2007 08:15 am (UTC)
Aww, *melts*. You're one of the few authors whose wee!chestesr I like reading, and this is no exception. rain-puddle-stomping!Dean!
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on February 17th, 2007 08:21 am (UTC)
:D Thank you, plutogirl!

I never thought I'd be writing weechester fics, but sometimes I just can't resist. And puddle-stomping? How could I not include that one in a set on "rain"? Puddles are loved by children everywhere and feared by adults, and I have a son whose lack of self-control would put little!Dean to shame here. :0
iamstealthyoneiamstealthyone on February 13th, 2007 11:07 pm (UTC)
Nice use of rain to showcase different moments in their lives. :)

"Not in the puddles, honey."

I say that soo often to my girls. Kids just love puddles.

The car streamed slickly down the highway, the whish of tire noise and weep-skronk of windshield wipers forming a quiet rhythm against the backdrop of the wet, gray day.

Great description! Especially love “weep-skronk.” Perfect!

Sam had stopped looking out the front window hours ago—nothing there but fields and headlights, with a tree or farmhouse to break the pattern. Lying down in the backseat, head pillowed against Dean's leg, he clutched his blanket.

Aww. *squishes them*

Sam remembered earlier trips and this feeling of inertia. He remembered the endlessness of the highway and a life that belonged to his family but never to him.

Oh, Sam.

Back in spite of himself… he already wanted out.

Ouch. Simple, stark and painful. Nice.

It's not as empty inside the car now. The ache is hollow, and it's different… but it's better.

At last.


Yeah … much as Dean loved and needed John, I truly believe he loves and needs Sam more.
The Coalition For Disturbing Metaphors: Sam & Dean Genhalfshellvenus on February 17th, 2007 08:26 am (UTC)
I say that soo often to my girls. Kids just love puddles.
I didn't know you had kids too! My daughter was more judicious about puddles, but my son would soak his shoes and they'd be wet for the week. He's finally backed down a little now at age 7. :0

Aww. *squishes them*
It's such a sweet, peaceful scene, isn't it? Especially in contrast to what the boys' lives become over time.

Ouch. Simple, stark and painful. Nice.
That's one of those dual-sided things, where I understand Sam's feelings entirely-- honestly, I do-- but my heart breaks for Dean in knowing what Sam feels even as Dean is beside himself at having Sam back.

Yeah … much as Dean loved and needed John, I truly believe he loves and needs Sam more.
Oh, me too. John was Dean's rock, and his idol... but Sam is Dean's happiness those rare times he's had it, and he's Dean's best friend. That trumps everything, in the world that was left to the two of them.

I always so enjoy receiving your comments. They give me so much more to think about my own stories, and I love how you "get" so very much of what I write. ♥
iamstealthyoneiamstealthyone on February 18th, 2007 01:46 am (UTC)
I didn't know you had kids too! My daughter was more judicious about puddles, but my son would soak his shoes and they'd be wet for the week. He's finally backed down a little now at age 7

I didn't know you had kids, either. :) I have to girls. Luckily we haven't had soaked shoes too often, although not for lack of trying.

John was Dean's rock, and his idol... but Sam is Dean's happiness those rare times he's had it

Ooh, that's a lovely way of putting it. :)

I always so enjoy receiving your comments. They give me so much more to think about my own stories, and I love how you "get" so very much of what I write.

Glad you enjoy my feedback, and it's a pleasure providing it. You give me so much good stuff to read. :)
LunarDreamedlunardreamed on March 4th, 2007 01:25 am (UTC)
His hood slid down over his eyes as he raised his head.

It's details like this that change a story from: that was cute, to: Awww! My overies exploded!

This is such a great series of images.